The sky is empty
All the stars have fallen
From their places in the heavens
Like the tears scattered
In the books I filled
Cover to Cover
With details of how my life
turned out.
Leather bound mistakes
And annotated embarrassments
That I forgot to return to the library.
Descriptions of eyes glaring at me
And whispers spoken by friends of friends
That I can hear all too clearly
Above my head.
And I use periods too freely
They are supposed to symbolize an end
A beginning
An idea
All of which I do not posses the nerve
To proclaim to anyone
Besides the friends I seek
Behind the bright lights.
And your song resonates from across the hall
And all I can think about is how
I would ****
To hear you sing it again.
And you've taken away my daydreams
But I don't want them back
Keep them
Because all the silly stories I made up
Were there to provide a false sense of proof
Behind the love you were selling
All the stupid fantasies I conjured
Were there to build you up so high in my head
That the real you could never compare
And you would never be able to hurt me
Only I could do that.
Even if the presents you gave to me
Wont stay on my wall
I will always keep a place for you in my heart
If you ever realize that it is the one constant place in your life.
But in the end you are just one of my
Leather bound mistakes
And annotated embarrassments
I forgot to return to the library
And I'm afraid to admit
That you will never find your way back there.

I remember those days you held me
You'd lean in and tell me
"I remember when I first saw you, that's when I knew you'd be mine forever"
I remember that night we went to the park
We lay side by side gazing at the stars
I remember that same day, June 28th when
I woke up and you were gone with to explanation
I remember the text message you sent  saying "this love is a complication"
I remember those nights I cried myself to sleep
I starved myself, I couldn't eat
I remember I had the courage to go to your house
I remember when I got there, looking through your window
You was holding another girl to your mouth!
I remember I broke down crying, I should've known
You held her, just like you held me
You told her what you told me!
Now I'm all alone in my room
Remembering all the memories of you
But I'm an independent lady, I can take care of myself
I don't need you, or anybody else!
Now I'm in the arms of another man
Finally someone who gets me, who understands