The feeling of love
The ache of longing
I hold them now
In silence, in peace
As I once dreamed long ago.

No fear of losing
No dread of disappointment
Yet these feelings
They no longer matter
They change nothing.

One day
Perhaps, they’ll destroy me
But until then
They should go.
Very soon.

How lucky they are
To call you their friend
To stand close like a shadow
Or drift far like a star
And never fear the distance.

To pour words like rain on thirsty ground
To share as if time were endless
But I couldn’t
Like a bird slipping from open hands
I lost a friend.

For so long
I thought you were my everything
I thought we belonged to each other.

For so long
I kept hoping you might change
Believing you’d try to be better for me
But you never did.
You never would.

I’ll never forget
How your arms opened wide
Promising love, safety, and comfort
How you brought happiness
Hating to see me sad.
And I’ll also never forget
How you hurt me
Tears streaming endlessly
Leaving me wondering why
I was never enough for you.

And now
The feeling has come
I don't want you anymore.

I didn't stop loving you
But I started to loving myself more
I finally see how much I deserved
To be happy
To be truly loved
To be chosen without hesitation
By someone
Who would never dream of bringing me pain.