Ever since I was small,
I was told I would not amount to much intellectually,
It didn't bother me that I had no brains and was silly,
Because what I lacked in mental capacity,
I knew I could make up for with my heart.

Having a small brain,
Meant that I wasn't trained,
To see love as a cynical object aimed to taint,
It wasn't ingrained in me that logical reasoning resonates pain,
All it meant was that I had a choice to follow my heart.

So I would always follow my heart,
Whether it'll be with someone far apart,
Or falling for someone falling apart,
Someone who didn't know how to start,
Someone who lived in a shopping cart,
I knew love meant giving away my heart.

They say if you've found the
One.

No matter how much pain,
You've suffered,
You'll still look at them,
The way Gollum,
Looks at the one ring.

You would die for the,
One.
Battle in wars for the,
One.

And you would never,
     Ever,
             Discard it's worth.

I need someone to be my,
Ring,
Or someone to be my,
Gollum,
After all, that is life's,
Final goal.....

I spoke with a mate of mine
We've been mates since nine
I asked him about his love life
Whether he's found a wife.

He says 'I don't plan to marry,
Too many burdens to carry '
I asked 'so what's your plan?'
He replied 'just do what I can -

'I'll take care of my birthgivers
Till they can't feel any shivers
In other words, simply gone,
Then I'll eventually move on'

I couldn't fathom how easily
He spoke about death of family
It felt really personally strange
I wondered if he was deranged

He then said 'everyone dies -
And we all must say goodbyes
So why pretend it won't be
When that's all some people see'.

He continues 'marriage isn't a must
It takes years of bonding and trust
Marriage is something people sell
To those who think alone is hell -

You don't have to be with someone
Just to consider doing something fun
So stop buying into lies society sold
Because sometimes even love gets old'.

I am choosing to stay single until
The day someone makes my world still
And I fully know that she's the one
Who gives me a feeling that I've won.

Should I never find this lovely lady
I can live alone till I'm eighty
Because I'll be able to walk a mile
All alone while carrying a smile.

Stop chasing love and it'll find you
It'll blind you and bind you
To someone who makes you feel
That the sky is not blue but teal.

I wish that I could say
All the things on my mind
Like how you did once
Call yourself mine.
I wish that I could see
All the things I couldn't hear
Like the words I love you
But I'm running out of time.

I would hold
All the tears that I had left
Back behind broken breaths and a sigh
Because all that I
Wanted was to see you smile.

They projected venomous words
Inducing toxic hurt
As conscience slowly blurred
They'd built homes out of dirt.

Drowning hearts with harm
With hissing forked tongues
Taunting death with a snake charm
Till dirt collapsed lungs.

We'd been given false names
Telling us we were *******
As they fearlessly proclaim
That their words were wishes.

It could not be true
Because through it all
We stood under the same blue
And we stood tall.

So snaked tongues spout criticism
We found ourselves hurt
From all their prideful sadism
And we hid ourselves in the dirt.

With them,
In the place they called home
Where poison was let to roam
Freely.

What good is an I love you,
If those exact same lips,
Spread the words to a
thousand others.

What good is an I need you,
If you have a split tongue,
That hisses lies and,
spits venom.

**What good is any of it?

Last year a girl broke my heart, I wore a mask and a facade.
In retrospect my ribcage wasn't my heart's safest guard.
I fell, crashed, plummeted into the pavement hard.
We went from locking eyes like lovers, then everything changes,
and we started locking eyes like complete strangers.
Now if I could express this in front of my guy friends
and rather sit in a pool of emotional fiction and pretence
It would have saved for a lot of hidden and unspoken anguish;
So please I beg you to understand, and excuse my language:
but **** SOCIETY!

The critics casting judgement, I haven't even been dressed yet,
Judging books by the cover at go and ignoring the get set,
You've never taken the time to get ready to know people
but you rush to the finish line and deemed those left behind, 'evil'.
You saw shades of colour in the same way you did a tree,
your heart learnt to love only what your eyes can see,
you saw the skin colours and focused on the image,
glanced at the cover, read the blurb and chose to never finish.
You critics casted judgement on a man and his husband,
Disgusted in the same way of hearing about two cousins,
I don't really dress for you, so don't worry about what I'm wearing;
So please I beg you to understand and excuse my swearing
but **** SOCIETY!

I've been on online bulletin boards, anonymous boards,
To alleviate the general sensation of just feeling bored,
But I took a wrong turn, landed in a place where hatred roamed,
And I know that I did not take this wrong turn alone.
I have seen your type, cheer on **** as though it was a competition
sprawling all over 'how she deserved it' , each sentence was wicked.
I have seen your type; type away paragraphs calling a minor: a ****,
and I do not know if you suffer from the pain we feel but words cut,
they cause an internal bleeding that drowns out the flame and life
inside of us, and when we chose to relax and go online to peruse at night,
you are there; with your taunting terror, laughing at the disabled,
laughing from a monitor screen, bits of bytes and data from a cable;
and every second of our lives, we would have to be stuck with you.
You speak of knowing our hurt, mocking our pain as if it was true,
And I pity those who found tall buildings, and harming themselves
before they could ever reach out to find any sort of help.
I'm sorry, I had a major fall earlier, and I may have a concussion
So please  I beg you to understand and excuse my cussing:
but **** SOCIETY!

Truthfully speaking, ******* society!
What the **** have you done for me?

My Queen is a metal in a volcano,
I hope I'm not being abrupt,
But I can feel it erupt,
Because she's a steel lava,
In other words I still love her.

I wish I could say 'I love you' just once more
But the time for truth and phrases has passed,
I've been feeling broken , bruised, blue and sore
Hoping that I'll get the chance once again.

Carry the sunrise on my shoulders
And the weight of it will vanish
But it's been so many hours, it's still not over
And I've left my mind to rot.

We weren't all made this way;
Left the classrooms just to pray
Hoping that the school bell
would take away the pain.

The light guiding us has been long gone
Replaced by the same old song
Of how we weren't ever made to belong,
We fought off tides after tides of criticism.

We told ourselves we were better than them
...We had to be.

out of 6,972,848504 people.
I had to fall for you?
I had to be the one to plunge to death?

The cloud fades away and the sun rises,
We jest about today being our new beginnings,
When nothing has really changed.

You're just too great
You're just too great sometimes
And I'm sure I'll let the whole world know
When you smile back
I know I'm smiling back sometimes
Underneath the shine of all the bright stars.

I don't know if this is the right path
But I'm treasuring all these moments
Where I'm holding onto your hands
Chasing our future plans
Only time will ever tell

So you can watch me
As I hide my smile
Hoping your heart
Will still be with me
Till we're sixty
I've still got sins to atone
But I won't be alone.


Your brightness is on par
With the other big stars

Last night something died,
It crawled with its bleeding heart,
Upon my doorstep.

I thought I could help,
I thought I could save a life
But hope is fickle.

Buried in the dark
Where stars try to penetrate
The soil with its light.

I weeped at your side
And I'm sorry I couldn't
Have saved you dear friend.

I watched you fade, gone,
But in my heart you live on,
And I'm sorry dear.

They say when you feel
A certain way about someone
A song always seems to come along
And reflect your emotional state.
For you, that was a silly love song
By Sir Paul Mccartney.

My feelings for you
It's not quite big, not quite small
It's not quite short, not quite tall
It's just there
And to be fair
The world is a little better
A little more beautiful
A little more amazing
With silly love songs.

I hate sore throats
Where my voice
Is on complete mute.

Don't get me wrong
I love the silence,
Just silence.

I hate the memories
Comes with being
Voiceless.

The dry raspy
Gravel sounding
Voice.

The struggle
Of saying full
Words.

It's like a
CD skipping
A musical note

      Due to a scratch on the disc.

I hate the memories
Of a sore throat,
Where everything started...

              The memories of being
               Unable to speak or scream
                I hate the memories
                  Of a sore throat

I don't know where you are
And I can't help but wonder.
I've done wrong by you
More than I've done right by you.
I guess I had a narrowed view,
I'm sorry. But words mean so little,
Are you having fun at least?
It's strange to ask these questions
And I can't help but hoping
That you're in every way okay.
I guess 'I miss you'
is a tad bit late
I've been at fault
Made a lot of mistakes
Especially towards you,

Come a few years,
Hopefully this will all
be a distant memory
The long distance
Was indeed vicious.
I hope you're happy
No matter what.
Stay strong
As I know you have been.
This will probably not be read
or seen
But I'm sorry for everything.

May the stars
Bless you with a chance
To find everything you want.
Someone who did wrong by you:
KL.

I live in a spiders web:
a silver thread tightly tied
between my head and heart
only to ever be consumed
by a spider that lurks over
my body.

I live in a world:
known as Earth.

I inhale the summery air
Fantasizing that it's your hair
No, I don't have a hair fetish
It just makes me coquettish
Thus I just contradicted myself
But I also want something heartfelt.

I imagine you seductively hissing soft words
Into my ear.
"Ssssssssssssssssssssssss" you haven't finished
But the sound is giving me the urge to urinate,
You continue
"Ssssssssssssssssss............cereal".
I go and grab a bowl of cereal for you
And that is a perfect morning for me.

As though the pains of yesterday
Could tell us who we were.
We stood tall against tragedy,
We stood strong against pain.
But we will always ever be human.
One-fifth destined by fate,
Four-fifth by our own sheer will.
Only by standing should we know,
Who we are now opposed to,
Who we were

Ever sneak a glance at the stars
Realizing the flashing white lights
Imitates a team of soccer players
Kicking a ball through an open field
Offering sweat and heart to victory.

White as the night, the stars lay above,
Heavenly bodies rain hail of beauty
If only they could talk back
Tickle the fancies of astronomers
Tell the tale of a thousand nights
Accumulated in the dispersion of lights
Kissing goodbye to the canvas that is night
Earth bound stars shooting through the sky
Reached the grounds yet shined in the dark.

If only time was plenty and life was plenty more.

Memories of stars come and gone
Invisible to those who don't look to love
Shrinked to an infinitesimal
Surrendered lights of a burnt out star.

Yesterday's night differed from todays
Operated under a different hail
Umbrellas sheltering a different beauty.

I'm not much in number of years
But I have shed a number of tears.
People tell me 'spend less time with the heaven lit-
And surely one day that somehow you'll benefit'.
Days grow long
and nights carry on
But I resume my task of staring at the stars
In hopes that they don't venture on far
But I know truly,
No matter how far they go,
They will always be in my heart.

Sorry
Treasured
Acquaintance &
Readers

Good & Great friends
Apologies, This
Zany creature
Expects you all to be disappointed
Rightfully so.

Sitting on stairways
Listening to the air waves,
He sits on the stairways
As he stares away
Into the furthest constellations.

He questions divine creations,
'Did God make the stars,
Or was it always ours?
Do the specks of light
That lit up holes into the night
To assemble shapes of kite
Just to build a bit of beauty
Dream a drab of duty
Into our world?'

With stars,
Comes people to admire them,
Who aspire to them,
And we are left thinking,
As we sit with a sinking-
feeling while sitting on stairways
Sitting on stairways
as we stare away
into the night skies
loving the night light.

My pen washes blue then green
From all the things left to see
I have not the heart to make seen
And all the things left to hang on
I ask myself 'has it not long gone?'
I'm met with self doubt and hatred
Though all I've taken sacred
Has bestowed upon me nothing
But tragedy and the toll has taken
To get here.

Of all the things it could be
I'm stuck on wishing "it could have been".

Night descends upon us,
As we sat beside one another,
Gazing into the stars just because
those gents hath brought the night colour.

Thy sweet tender voice,
Speaking of thine love for the arts,
Mine own really had no choice,
But to give thou all of mine heart.

Speaketh on the topic of love if thou must,
But an act so unredeemable,
Is when thou speaketh of love without just,
For thy words preach incapable.

.........As mine own eyes witness the stars and its glory,
.....Mine mind and heart hath truly forgotten that thee art a star,
.........So I promise to heed thine words and thine story,
.......For mine mind wilt at each moment remember thou and thine guitar.

To look at the stars in the night,
Requires no skill just admiration,
For they show beauty in light,
To see the side that is bright,
And bask in all its great inspiration.

I stare up into the night sky in admiration
Little twinkles forms many constellations
Each with its separate formed definitions
And I hope I'm not stuck in repetitions
           But
You are the most beautiful star out there
Your sense of humour is very very rare
My immaturity still exudes from my being
But the deeper parts others aren't seeing
You saw right through my external facade
And dislodged pieces of broken shards
Of glass that tampered with my heart beat
And this I surely will always forever repeat
...
You are the most beautiful star out there
Your adorableness in the way you care
Your playfulness that brings upon a smile
You've made everything reform like tiles
From the shattered pieces of my heart
Reshaped into something sweet like a ****.
You placed tiles and tiles of me together
Forming a picture that looks a lot better
Because the picture now has you in it
And maybe this time it truly is infinite
But even if time stood completely still
You'd move stars through rocky hills
Just so they would shine over us
You'd turn iron and copper from rust
And maybe this time, through all the stuff
Truly everything you do for me is enough...

And so he stood with his backs against the stars
Finally abandoning his lust for a bright light
He looks up to the skies
And there lies the brightest star he's ever witnessed
And once again he has fallen in love with the stars.
Temptation and addiction
What a cruel affliction.

The stars are so pretty tonight,
What a lovely sight.

Sticks and stones may break my bones
But words will leave scars across my heart.
The lessons that words will always impart,
Insecurities deem me worthless for even one of the thrones.
So when I'm racked up with debts from loans.
Remember and tattoo this across your heart,
The words I will now choose to impart,
Words will always break more than just bones.

This world is full of bad people,
We're living in an apocalypse film sequel,
So even when we pick out lesser evil,
We're all the same, still people,
Till we form death and still people,
People who aren't able to move yet are still people.

I placed my heart in the palm of your hands,
You threw it away into distant foreign lands.
I gave you my heart and you threw it into a rose bush,
Thorns impaled into its tiny crevices as i felt ambushed.

And

         **That was the day I stopped giving people my heart

I'm pulling on myself, it's dangerous,
How long left till we become strangers
I sit in my room with an inkling of hope
That it'll be as simple as 'hit the road-
Because there isn't us anymore'
But simple is overrated because
I have my backs against the door
Yet still grabbing at what we had before
But I should have known before the fall
So I'm begging myself to walk through
'Find someone else you can talk to'
I urge myself, hiding from any sign of help
Maybe this time it'll be a little lot easier
'Just stop everything, stop pleasing her-
Because no matter how much you beg
There's no love between the two of you left'.

So I guess it comes down to a natural reaction
I'll fall flat on my back repeating "it's over"
Convincing myself for some kind of closure.

I'll give another chance to be purely honest
I'm sorry I couldn't stay true to my promise.


To the girl I once loved.
-Goodbye.

From a guy with demons in his head
Trying all his best to just forget.
From a guy struggling to move on
I'll treasure the grounds you walked along.

When I was a kid, Momma use to say-
Keep your head up high-
And sooner or letter I had better days-
Simply by giving life a little try.

I soon started smiling with tear filled eyes-
Grew stronger with every night-
Started to appreciate the blue in the skies-
and saw every morning as a new light.

I remember that one moment-
How I met my best friend-
And I don't know what it meant-
But that wasn't our end.

Life is beautiful-
If you look at it with blind eye-
And do things for you-
Rather than let your eyes run dry.

I've always been poisoned at the words of people
Living in a world stuck between lesser evils
They told me I was unlovable for humanity
They would address me as 'you manatee'
And I just started believing that I was unlovable.

Unlovable is another name for a soul
Who will slowly and surely roam alone
Unlovable just means ugly, fat and pathetic.
And I agree with you all,
        I am unlovable...

I will always
Be a remnant
Of your past.
The one who
Cared too much
But
Did too little.

This is a story about a sun
He had no friends, none
He'd seen his rays run
And the damage it's done
So he leapt the skies
Till he left the skies
With rented disguise
And lives to hide
As the night.