I can still smell your hair
Feel your hand in mine
Your cheek on the back of my fingers
Your forehead on my lips
Your head against my chest
My arms around you, and yours around me
Your gentle breathing
Still hear your lovely voice
See your shimmering eyes
Your special smile
Your rounded chin
Soft lips
Sturdy neck
Feel your delicate fingers
Your running palms
Your elbows; arms and wrists
Your beautiful perfect wrists...
Your waist in my hands
Your chest pressed against mine
Your sloping shoulders
The backs of your hands
Your hair, nails and teeth
Your reassuring voice, singing to my soul
Your comforting eyes, looking deep into mine
I can still see you standing there
In the rain
Heartbroken
Alone...
My Love I'm sorry for leaving
But I can still feel my heart close to yours
All close
For always and ever

dying on the inside
idle on the out
Riot, riot, fireside
Life goes on about

Her eyes are soft they are ever so bright
What have I done to have fallen from grace?
So far away from her amazing gaze
A longest drive; a far journey of flight
Look up in the sky—stars in the dark night
In the faintest lights sparkling in deep space
Is written her name, time will not erase
Dancing stars; how she looks down in delight
We may not be near my sweet firefly
But the day grows nearer until we meet
See each other once again; hold you close
Look up see we share the same blue sky
Not as far apart as we feel my sweet
Eagerly awaiting my love, to propose

Can we restart?
Reintroduce ourselves
We'll be strangers for the first little while
But just like before, we'll be fast friends
We'll look out for each other
We'll do what we did before
But with all the more knowledge and experience
I want to get lost in your eyes again
I want to learn you starting from nothing
So tell me:
Starting the hour I get off the plane
And we see each other again after so long
Can it be the first time
We've ever met
Again

Speckle! Speckle! Speckle! seeping through my shirt
Don't worry 'bout the colour, it doesn't really hurt
Sometimes I act before I think
Taste the knife, watch it sink
I'm not a habit, it's only on occasion
But mine are deeper, wider; stayin'

This is what it is to be a knight?
We don’t ever swoop in and fight
We are a distant far off, hopeful, light
Watching helplessly at evil’s delight

What to do, where to turn?
A world full of hate and scorn
A steady light, the roaming sky
A place that is safe—she’s free to fly
Day or night, rain or shine
An environment where she’ll be fine
Sanctuary, Comfort, and Peace
A sky that’s all too eager to please
Guard her scars, protect her heart
Love is the most delicate art
Study her eyes, gaze in them deep
Her value’s immeasurable; she’s one to keep
She’s mine to hold, mine to cover
Hers to serve and lead; her lover
A place where words and song cannot describe
The immense love I hold inside
A line between two hearts—two souls
We stand on the middle ground
A love that covers all scars and holes
A perfect love that we have found

A little sadness of the soul
Helps keep a tattered heart whole...

And in a life
Where two people are one
Perhaps the greatest part
Is in strife
Breaking yourself on stone
So that the other half a heart
Is upheld

Oh the running water is so hot
But I know you know that it is not
As hot as you would be with my loving next to you,
Will you let me do all the things I want to do,
All the naughty pleasures in my head?
"Don't worry," I whisper. "They don't all take place in bed..."

You want me to write you poems
This is all I have to say
I'm so proud of who you are
With each advancing day
You make me proud you give me joy
You are my bestest friend
I will stay by you for always and ever
Past and beyond every single end
Your beauty inspires me so endlessly
Your heart--intimate fashion
You wear your soul so wonderfully
You have my supply of passion

A lost memory that cannot be found
A distant, forgotten, pitiful sound
A trail one traveled a path once walked
A frozen heart forever locked
And here is where I unfold my tale;
Here is where the story begins

A cold clear morn early in December
In perfect detail I can remember
The terror and fright with which I was met
The horrific sight, I’ll never ever forget
The crimson highlight in the snow
What have I done, what has become?

I fall to my hands, I fall on my knees
All the better if here, I were to freeze
The tragedy brought about by my hands
Life is such a delicate thread; frail strands
Where did I begin, why did it end?
Slowly, across my face, a smile stretches

What is happening—what have I become?
How did my heart and mind become so numb?
Had I found this sight not too long ago
It would have frozen me, cold as this snow
Who did this? Was it my fault?
There she lies frozen in death

I’m sorry I needed to hear you say it. I’m sorry I was so needy, so desperate to hear you tell me to my face. I’m sorry I wouldn’t let go until you did. But I’ve changed. I know how to take a hint. I won’t bother you anymore. I won’t keep dragging you down, hurting you, taking you to dark places you don’t want to be. I’ll listen to what you’re really saying instead of requiring you to tell me. I’ll read what I’ve been seeing between the lines for a long time, but tried so hard to ignore, simply because I didn’t want it to be true. I know you’re done with me. I’m completely used up. You have no more need for me. I knew it for a long time, but had to hear you say it before I would release you. I know that’s a hard thing to say to anyone, even after you’re finished with them, so I’m done waiting for you, expecting you to. You’re free. Free from me, free from my *******, free from my hurtful abusive captivity. I won’t hurt you anymore.

I get off on the music
And you get off too
It may seem twisted and sick
But it’s what we do
Thrashing wildly to the beat
A dark dance never meant to be
Feel the rising, rising heat
Vision fades nothing left to see
Darkness and pleasure
Everywhere

I’m here but you don’t know it
I’m near but you don’t know it yet
Am I queer? For pursuing you so closely
If you saw me would you fear our closeness?
I think it’s clear, I have something to hide
But Darling Dear, Don’t be scared, I won’t hurt you
Don’t shed a tear…

I used to have a button
Held in place by thread
But now the button's missing
I hope that he's not dead!

A thread is prone to wear,
A moment we dread and wait
But why would the thread let go,
Of such a ***** mate?

I hope to find my button;
For he was my friend too
And tie him down with a thread
Forever strong and true

Hear the darkness
In the rain
Or the cloud covered moon
Hear the Violence
In the silence
Of a still dead room
Hear the clamor
Of an army
As you sit, silent, pondering
Here the turmoil
Of a heart
In the forest wandering

Some days are hard
Some days are long
Some days feel like they’re better unlived
But then these days
When everything’s calm
Remind me why I promised everything to give

I want to write but cannot find the words to craft a line
The tales of hurt, or beauty, love, of how one day you’ll be mine
The rhymes have all been done before, originality’s dead
Another overinflated art, a hideous beast we’ve fed

Perhaps if I
Changed the rhyme
Each time the stanza changed
Then maybe I
Could buy some time
With this plan so feigned

Why do I continue? God only knows
I have no story to tell
No tales of encounters with angels
Nor trips through fiery hell

I have a love, who greatly inspires me
But the way my heart sings forth
Is not in verse; it is quite plainly

I can write a poem that get’s on everybody’s nerves
Nothing new here; just reused words
I can write a poem that we’ve already heard
And that’s all I can do

O ma fleur delicate,
Le plus beau amis que j'ai jamais eu
Je t'adore de tout mon coeur
Tu es mon don le plus precieux

And I realize
The only thing;
The only animal
The only creature I really hate
Is myself

I-so-lation-ism
My mind my cag-ed pr'son

What is this pain, what is this hole?
I think I'll wander through for a while

I just ate an apple
I sunk my teeth into its flesh
Call me disgusting, rebuke my perverseness
I wish I’d sunk my teeth into you

Tasted your skin
Tasted your blood
Oh my sweet if you only understood
The thoughts inside my head

Heard you pant
Heard you scream
Am I still the pretty boy that I seem?
Laughter fills my head

I tell you you’re delicious
Do you really know what I mean?
A delectable act, one that cannot redeem
I lick my lips

I don’t want to eat you all up
Just leave bites all over your perfect skin
Nothing else is allowed to defect or ruin
Your flesh but me

Do you still want me?
Does this scare you away
Or turn you on, make you want to stay
I told you I’m a vampyre

You are what a friend is
The embodiment of companionship
Why do you think you're my shipmate?
It wasn't an accident or a coin flip

You are what a friend should be
Faithful and honest, true and kind
Sometime you put my own efforts to shame
I was graciously given who I would never find

You are who a friend is
Steadfast and helpful, generous and sweet
You are so distinct, so precious and unique
You are mine alone, from head to feet

You are the basis for all friendship
You are an example of what everyone needs
But you are not, my love, for everyone
You are just the one for me

A trip, a spill down memory lane
Reliving ever stain--all the pain
The truth is there is no "past"
Everything we've done will always last
What we did lives through the present
Never in life to be absent

It’s all dark
Why is this so terrifying?
Isn’t this how it used to be every day?
Shouldn’t I feel right at home?
The darkness everywhere
A pale light coming from nowhere
It doesn’t mean anything though
It only serves to torment me
Showing me I’m lost
And can’t get out
My Labyrinth
My home
Is everything quiet and still,
Or tumultuous and loud?
I made it years without scars
Years without severe wounds
Or at least
As far as you can see
You’ll never get inside me though
I don’t let anyone in
Cause I don’t want you lost like I
I’ll be fine
It won’t take long for me to readjust
This is how it used to be
This is home
Isn’t it?

The frightened man finds solace
In the hang-man's noose

I'm always so wrong
There can't be any right
Drowning in the misery,
and blame this night

Anything, love, you want to devour,
As we take this hot, hot shower...?

Don’t go down the rabbit hole!

Oh love you’re lost and alone
Wandering, searching, far from your home
You love what you found; your false sense of security
I’ll do my best to be everything you need

I’ll pull you out of your wonderland
Not as wondrous as it seems
You say “up” but I see “down”
I’ll lift you up out of the ground

Your imagination’s a beautiful thing
But think of the nightmare it can bring
Don’t get lost in the darkness in us all
Would you even leave, if I called?

I’ll pull you out of your wonderland
Not as wondrous as it seems
You say “up” but I see “down”
I’ll lift you up out of the ground

My little light, firefly
Always want you to be near by
Be the light, guide the way
Fight your way out, you cannot stay

I’ll pull you out of your wonderland
Not as wondrous as it seems
You say “up” but I see “down”
I’ll lift you up out of the ground

I’ll pull you out; I’ll save you
Be everything you ever needed
But it doesn’t seem like you want to leave it
Don’t change your mind or fool your heart
The choice is yours…
‘til death and you depart

This isn’t the beginning; nor is it the end
Somewhere along the middle is where we stand
Where have we come, where do we go?
A wayward vessel, to and fro
Technicalities set you on the stage
Expectations locked you in the cage
Get over your fright break out of your prison
This isn’t the end; this is where you begin

What to say,
When to speak,
Or should I be silent?
Both take strength
Both require discernment
And I can’t seem to decide
Which is right

If you ever look in the mirror
And think, "this ****'s fat"
I can promise you now and here:
Your man can only think, "yum...look at that."

Oh no! Where have I gone?
Where is the music,
The melody, that song,
The one thing I need?

I am nothing now that—
You’ve taken the one thing
Giving me life! Can’t
You leave me be?

Taken me along with the songs
Drowned me out, dig the hole
Buried alive, I don’t belong
Buried in our own backyard

You didn’t listen to my heart
You didn’t listen to my cried
You were tearing me apart
The music’s in my blood

Don’t take it away
This is all I have
Please don’t hate me either; stay!
You’re all I want…

I'm not one to let myself be victimized
But it cannot be any other way once realized
I am also my captor

"Run, run, run for your life"
Oh how greatly we deceive ourselves
As if this life is worth running for
As if this life is worth saving
Someone thought that once
He died for what he believed
But May I just say you overestimated
My worth far too much

Why am I shivering? I can't be cold
My issues are so manifold
Why am I sweating? I don't feel hot
A losing mental battle, so very hard fought

There once was a little princess who loved a little knight
She thought him strong and handsome; a dashingly good sight
He did his best to love her and she thought it so sincere
Her gentleness coaxed him open, revealing a great fear
He was the victim of a witch; so wicked and so cruel
He never shared his struggle though, else he be labeled “fool”
True it was he subjected himself to her twisted delight
Nothing but a sad weak man; he rarely put up much a fight
The princess had wondered about his strange departs
“Where would he go and what is this, a distance in our hearts?”
He was to scared; as always was the case of the poor man
He thought he could defeat the witch, a pathetic little plan
“Or maybe” he started off as he would sit and ponder
“In to the forest I will go but only for a wander!
“For I can parade nearby her place and still avoid her spell!”
It never worked, it never would, he suffered just as well
The princess knew of the witch with which the poor knight struggled on
But she had not the faintest clue of the duration how tragically far gone
She sat and wept, and he wept too, he was not fond of his sin
For it was torment, wretched pain, and still he let it in

To you ever tremble without reason?
Shake and shudder just because of how you are?
Tremors running through your body
As you try to sit still.