i want to do something crazy,
and be someone crazy.
but crazy is hard to accomplish
without you.

d.l.b.

maybe if everyone
were a bit more like you,
the world would be happy

d.l.b.

my heart is dead weight sitting in my chest.
it beats only for itself,
and no one has the ability to capture it.

d.l.b.

it's nights like these
when i want you
curled up beside me.
i'll listen to your heart beat
while you listen to mine.
we'll wake up in the morning
happy as can be
because we have each other

d.l.b.

if i had one wish in the entire world,
i wouldn't wish for riches,
i wouldn't wish for power,
i would wish for us all to be together.
so i could finally experience true happiness.

d.l.b.

i still think about you
even though i said i was moving on.
and it pains me to know
that you've forgotten about me

d.l.b.

it's nice to have friends
who get you

too bad they live so far away

d.l.b.

why did i ever think that you liked me
i'm so little and not what you want
but what does she have that i don't

d.l.b.

i miss you.
and although it pains me to admit it,
i'm not afraid to say it.
i will shout it to the world if that's what it takes
for you to miss me back.

d.l.b.

i want to be in the city.
i want to wake up to the sound of taxis.
i want to walk down 5th avenue holding the hand of my lover.
i want to look out at night and see the twinkling city lights.
i want to be in the city.
i want it more than anything.

d.l.b.

when i think of the first time our lips said hello,
i think of football jerseys
and my favorite pink lighter.
i think of sitting on a tree stump,
feeling so warm inside even though the temperature was cold.
i think of closing my eyes
and feeling your hands rest on the back of my neck.
i think of being with you,
and i think of never wanting to pull my lips away from yours.

d.l.b.

i've started thinking of you more,
and replacing my thoughts of him,
with thoughts of you.
i'm not quite sure if i like it or not.
but it makes me happy,
to have a little reality

d.l.b.

you looked at me today.
i looked at you today.
your brown eyes were sparkling,
even from across the room.
we both laughed,
because of something silly i had just done.
it made me so happy,
to know that you think i'm funny.

but then,
i saw you looking at her.
you walked towards her.
you talked to her.
you laughed with her.
what about me?

d.l.b.

another year older
another year brighter

d.l.b.

forgetting about
you. like a fish forgetting
what to do to swim.

d.l.b

i'm at the doctor and i'm so afraid they're going to take my blood.
they'll find you if they do.

d.l.b.

you smiled at me today.
and i don't know whether i should be happy that you noticed me,
or sad because i felt nothing.

d.l.b.

i'm crying again
i don't know what to do
you all make me so happy
and distance breaks my heart

d.l.b.

it's strange to imagine myself as an adult.
i don't know who i'll be living with.
i don't know where i'm going to be.
i don't know what i'll look like.
and that part scares me the most.

d.l.b.

do you ever wonder about me?
i hope you do.
sometimes i pretend that you really do like me,
but you're too shy to say anything.
even though i know that's not true.

d.l.b.

"you're already perfect"*

you never said things like this to me.
or at least you never meant them.

d.l.b.

if i had any wish
in the whole world,
just one,
i'd wish for a plane.
so i could take myself to you.

d.l.b.

we were so close to each other.
why did we grow apart?
was it something i did?
was it something i said?

d.l.b.

it's been one month since your birthday.
you used to make me so happy.
and now i'm just sad.

d.l.b.

oh darling,
don't be afraid,
one day you'll be happy again.
one day all your dreams will come true

d.l.b.

do you feel the same way
about me,
as i feel
about you?

d.l.b.

sometimes i wonder that if the reason you left, was because you knew i loved you, or if you really did just hate me.

d.l.b.

why do i feel so alone
why does nobody like me
oh, please don't make me go
i'm going to cry
all my true friends
live in different worlds
while i am stuck here
why does nobody like me
why do i feel so alone

d.l.b.

i wonder if you talk to your friends about me.
i wonder if they know my name.
my friends know your name.

d.l.b.

i keep having dreams about you.
i don't know if it's a sign.
i don't know if it means something.
i am not quite sure.

you had to leave early today.
you make me wonder.
you make me laugh.
you are not quite sure.

d.l.b.

i don't want to be forgotten in this world,
and if i keep missing you,
i'm going to miss out on some wonderful opportunities.

d.l.b.

"i'm so tired but i want to keep talking to you"*

just those few words made me feel so special.
but god, i have to stop.
this can't end up happening again.
please let this time be different.

d.l.b.

soon, very soon,
i will be with you again.
soon, very soon,
i will be happy again.

d.l.b.

there's something inside of me
that doesn't want to let you go.
it keeps holding on
to every last word you ever said to me.
it reaches out and grabs you,
and pulls you into the deepest parts of my heart.
it weaves you into my blood,
and pushes me down with thoughts of you.

d.l.b.

this isn't right.
don't you see,
you don't really love this boy.
you're just replacing the boy that came before.
the first boy is a damaged and ***** door.
the new boy is a clean and perfect door.
replacing the old,
with the new,
works with doors.
but boys aren't doors.

d.l.b

you keep picking at the scab,
hoping it will never heal.
because you like the way it looks
on your tiny little finger.

d.l.b.

(i) think you're gone.
my heart is (still). it no longer beats for you.
having someone to (love) is wonderful.
but (you) took my wonderful and turned it to pain.

d.l.b.

we might be together
all of us
at one time
in person
oh this is what I've been waiting for

d.l.b.

it makes me sad
that you think that
i don't have enough time for you.
because i have
all the time in the world
especially for you

d.l.b.

you talked to her again today.
i understand you have the freedom
to talk to whoever you wish,
but i've been so lonely
for so long.
and it would be absolutely wonderful
if you would talk to me for a change.

d.l.b.

you kept looking at me today.
i kept looking at you today.
oh how glorious it feels to be lost in your eyes.
my heart yearns for your heart.
my hands crave your hands.
my lips want your lips.

but do you want me too?

d.l.b.

you knew exactly what you were doing
you knew exactly who you were hurting
how can you be this way?
******* the joy out of doing what i do best
just like a venomous snake
does it make you happy
to see the sadness in my eyes
to see my sorrowful heart
to know that i sit in the corner of my dark room
hoping that what you said will be forgotten?
but we both know it won't
does it satisfy your soul
that i somehow find the strength to see you everyday?
no
you will hurt me no longer
i will rise up like the sun
and accomplish what you said i couldn't

d.l.b.

you make me feel
so many emotions
at one time and
sometimes
i don't think that my mind
can handle it.

d.l.b.

you're the best friend i've ever had.
you're understanding,
and kind,
and you always know just what to say.
you help me to believe in myself,
and you always make me smile.
there's nobody else quite like you.

but i wish you didn't live so far away.
and i wish i could hug you all the time.
i can't wait to see you again.
you're the best friend i've ever had.
and i love you.

d.l.b

i want someone to hold me close,
and tell me everything will be okay.
i want someone to make me laugh,
and never be sad again.
i want someone like you.

d.l.b.

don't come running back to me.
you'll only make things worse.
i've cried over you too many times.
please don't come back.

d.l.b.

every time i feel lonely,
i'll look up at the stars.
because i know somebody else is looking too.
i probably don't know them.
but they're lonely too.
and that makes me feel a little less lonely.

d.l.b.

you held me today
like i was someone important.
you gripped onto my shoulder
as if it was the last thing you'd ever touch.

d.l.b.

why do you enjoy her company?
i've seen the things she does.
and i don't want you to turn out like her.

d.l.b.

i want us all to be together
and i want us all to be happy
that day will come soon
if we work hard
and have a little faith

d.l.b.