being in your arms
is like floating on a cloud.
i'm at peace with you.

d.l.b

right now,
if someone were to ask me,
"what is he to you?"
i wouldn't know what to say.

because i don't know what you are to me.
and i feel us drifting apart every second.

but 4 months ago,
if someone were to ask me,
"what is he to you?"
i would know exactly what to say.

d.l.b.

i want you to like me
i don't want you to think i'm a baby
i wish i were older,
so i could be taken more seriously

d.l.b.

the boy knows that he broke her.
he knows that she's hurting.
but the boy doesn't care.
he walks away.

d.l.b.

i wish
you would come back
and tell me that you want to be friends.
and i wish
that if this is eating you up inside
like it is to me,
you will come back.
to make things okay again.

d.l.b.

long nights, tired eyes.
a bit of joy when i see
your smiling face.

d.l.b.

it's almost been a whole year since we met.
did you know that?
one year ago i would've never guessed how badly you would eventually make me feel.

d.l.b.

being with you,
is such a relief.
all my worries,
and all my fears,
they simply fly away.

d.l.b.

i had a dream about you last night. i came to your show to surprise you and i sat in the second row. you came onstage and saw me and you smiled and i smiled and then you came down and sat behind me in the third row and put your hands over my eyes. you said you had a present for me. then i woke up. i don’t know what my present was. maybe you were going to tell me that you loved me. i don’t know.

d.l.b.

it's time to move on,
it's time to let go.
but please know this,
i loved you.
and i will never forget the wonderful memories we had together.
goodbye.

d.l.b.

your arms were around me today.
it gave me such a calming feeling inside.
to know you would protect me,
and hold me close when things got bad.

d.l.b.

my small little bedroom
had never been filled with so much joy.
it drifts through the air
and fills up my lungs.
it runs through my veins
and engulfs my soul.
my mind is filled with wonderful thoughts,
and my heart flutters at the sound of your voice.

d.l.b.

you make me so happy
and i can only hope i do the same.
do you smile when you think of me?
because i smile when i think of you.

d.l.b.

i like to imagine us stargazing late at night,
with pillows and blankets laid out on the grass.
holding hands,
singing songs,
everything would be perfect.

d.l.b.

this is what i love.
this is what i want to do.
this is who i am.

d.l.b.

you don't understand
what it's like
to be so far away
from your best friends

you don't understand
what it's like
to have people expect you
to be perfect every day

you don't understand
what it's like
to be me

so stop acting like you do

d.l.b.

you first talked to me a year ago today.
and i couldn'tve been happier.
what happened to us?

d.l.b.

do you find yourself thinking of me,
like i think of you?

do you smile at me,
like i smile at you?

do you cry over me,
like i cry over you?

do you love me,
like i love you?

d.l.b.

midnight thoughts of you
flow throughout my head.
do you still think of me?
i don't know if i'll ever be able
to forget about you.

d.l.b.

i hate being underestimated
just because i'm little.
little people can do a lot,
and most of the time,
it's the big people who mess things up.

d.l.b.

i'm so sorry.
please, can't we make things right between us?
everything makes sense now.
and i'm so sorry.

d.l.b.

how do i get you out of my heart?
because even if they removed the *****,
you would still be there.
and even if they pumped out all my blood,
you would still be there.

d.l.b.

you said hello to me today.

"hey diana!"

you have no idea how special that made me feel.

d.l.b.

i am nothing like she is.
don't get me wrong,
she's a lovely girl.
but she's not me.

d.l.b.

i don't think things will ever go back to the way they were before

why did you cut me out of your life,
where i was lonely,
and sad,
and very confused

i know*

d.l.b.

the times i miss you,
are the times i remember
you're not coming back.

d.l.b

you're gone now.
and i'm not sure i know what to do.
all i've been doing is cring,
and wishing you'll come back

d.l.b.

i hope that someday,
you find a beautiful girl.
and i hope she loves you
even more than i did.
and i hope you don't treat her
the way you treated me.

d.l.b.

don't hurt yourself,
my darling.
the pains in this world are only temporary.
you will soon be free.

d.l.b.

every one makes mistakes.
so i don't understand why this one is such big a deal.
i messed up,
so let's move on.
please.

d.l.b.

i really think he likes me

happiness
joy
fulfillment
wonder
anxiety
despair

i really think he hates me*

d.l.b.

we made eye contact today.
and that one second
when we were just focused
on each other,
and nothing else,
was wonderful.

maybe next time
i can find the courage to
smile at you
when our eyes lock again.

d.l.b.

you're moving on.
i know you are.
but i haven't stopped thinking of you.
you were a big part of my life for such a long time.
how can you throw everything we had together away?

d.l.b.

brown is an ugly color.

but not the shade of brown in your eyes.

brown is an ugly color.

but not the shade of brown in your hair.

the world is an ugly place.

but not with you in it.

d.l.b.

memories are what destroys me.
remembering everything that was,
and everything that could've been.

d.l.b.

you held me today.
you held me like you loved me,
like i was just yours.

d.l.b.

if we met, would you kiss me?
i sure hope so.
i wouldn't refuse.

d.l.b.

writer's block of hard to explain.
you know exactly what to say,
but the words refuse to be written down.

d.l.b.

i gave you everything i had to give.
i told you all my secrets,
all my fears,
my goals in life.
i thought you loved me.

d.l.b.

the feeling i get
when i see your smiling face,
is so overwhelming
that i can't even begin to describe it.

d.l.b.

i think the reason i cry so easily
is because i don't have friends like you do.
i go to school every day
and i walk through the hallways alone.
i mean,
i guess i have some friends.
but nothing close to a best friend.
because that's you.
and i'm your best friend too.
but you have so many more.
and i think that's the reason i get so upset
when you tell me stories about them.
and i also cry
because i can't hug you like they can.
you're so many miles away
and my heart hurts so much.

d.l.b.

today's your birthday.
you're so wonderful, did you know that?
god knows if you'll ever see this.
i feel like i'm being pushed away by you.
but maybe it's just me.
happy birthday.

d.l.b.

an oh so wonderful thing happened today.
you looked at me
and i looked at you.
and we smiled at each other.
my heart was beating so fast
i think it flew away.
i can only hope
that you felt the same.

d.l.b.

please remember,
no matter how hard life gets,
i will always be there,
i will always care.
if you feel as if you're completely alone,
please remember,
i will always love you.

d.l.b.

despair and sadness
confusion and madness
regret and disbelief
longing and acceptance

d.l.b.

"you are a sweet, beautiful, and kind girl and i promise things will get better"*

it's been 2 months and 11 days.
and nothing is better.

d.l.b.

insomnia
keeps me up at night
or that's what everyone thinks
but in reality,
it's not insomnia
it's you

d.l.b.

sometimes i feel like
i get in your way
and you would just be better off without me

d.l.b.

when i was 10 years old,
i thought i would have
somebody to love by now
i never thought i would
be completely alone

d.l.b.

do i like you?
or am i just lonely?
if only there was a way to know.

d.l.b.