my name never sounded so good
until it came from your lips.
diana.
when you say it,
my heart soars.
and the caterpillars inside my stomach
turn into butterflies.

d.l.b.

i have a killer headache right now.
i'm tired.
i'm so tired.
but yet all i can think of is you.

d.l.b.

you're cute and smart and funny and everything that makes somebody perfect.

d.l.b.

i feel like i'm drifting farther and farther away from you every day.
we're supposed to be best friends.
we're supposed to tell each other everything.
i don't want this friendship to end.
what's happening to us?

d.l.b.

she was close,
but not close enough.
he ran away,
but not far enough.

d.l.b.

everyday he taunts me with those strong hands, waiting for another to hold close. everyday he taunts me with those chocolate brown eyes, waiting for a twinkling gaze to match his own. everyday he taunts me with that beautiful brown hair, waiting for small fingers to twirl and ruffle.*

d.l.b.

oh my love,
there's no need to be discouraged.
i am right here.
i will protect you.

d.l.b.

i've just had a realization of how wonderful life is.
we are breathing, alive, and happy.
i am so blessed and life is so so so good.

d.l.b.

oh how i wish
you were here with me right now.
right now at this very moment.
i think i'll go crazy without you
but having you right here,
right now,
would make it all ok

d.l.b.

you make my heart do little flips,
and my palms get a bit sweaty.
i'm falling for you.
catch me.

d.l.b.

i don't need makeup to know that i am beautiful.
and i cannot thank you enough for teaching me that.

d.l.b.

seeing your face again
was like seeing your newborn baby
for the first time.
magical

d.l.b.

i want you to know your 2 am thoughts,
your favorite smells,
your quirks and habits,
i want to know you.

d.l.b.

my dad sleeps with a baseball bat beside his bed.
so if somebody breaks in, he can fight them away.
but what happens when a boy breaks in to my heart?
i don't have a baseball bat to protect me.

d.l.b.

maybe i shouldn't have fallen for you so quickly.
maybe this would all be different.
maybe i wouldn't be scared to fall in love.

d.l.b.

stop it!
i can't!
pull
please!
i can't!
pull
p
    u
        l
            l

d.l.b.

do you think of me
when you hear my song?
does my name echo
throughout your mind?

d.l.b.

it's okay to be upset
that your little girl is growing up.
but please don't restrain me
from being alive.

d.l.b.

i feel as though
my heart is made of bark,
and every boy who comes my way
carefully carves his name into the tree.
and every boy i've ever loved,
has left their mark.
turning me into a canvas,
waiting for whoever comes next.

d.l.b.

is this the same "missing you" feeling as before?
my heart doesn't know how to mend itself
after being shattered.

d.l.b.

"who is prettier?"

i told you that it didn't matter.
i told you that you were beautiful.

"who is prettier?"

i told you that i wasn't answering.
i told you i don't believe it matters.

"who is prettier?"

i told you you weren't understanding.
i told you to please stop.

"i'm ugly."

no you're not.

"i'm fat."*

no you're not.

stop please.

d.l.b.

i know now what has happened.
and we have both apologized.
i want to be your friend.
please stop pushing me away.

d.l.b.

you are the monster hiding under my bed.
you told me lies and ****** me in.
you said that you loved me and I believed you.
you played with my heart and then smashed it to pieces.
you were the monster hiding under my bed.

d.l.b.

how is it
those three words
can make someone's whole existence worthwhile,
while shattering another's heart

how is it
those three words
form protection, happiness, and serenity
but also pain, hurt, and despair

how it it
you love her while i love you

d.l.b.

why do you put yourself through this madness,
you're only going to end up hurt.
i want to help you,
but you don't listen.

d.l.b.

you do not understand
that you are so
beautiful!
and he is so
dumb
to not see that!

d.l.b.

i do not know how to love,
for my heart has been broken too many times.
i do not know how to swim,
for i am drowning in sorrow.

d.l.b.

i don't like this feeling
please make it stop
why was i born like this?
afraid of every little thing

d.l.b.

i haven't talked to you for 5 days
5 agonizing days
sitting around
waiting
for something
you

d.l.b.

i do not understand how you cannot love yourself.
you are the only you that there is.
your body is perfectly crafted just for you,
and your personality is like no one else's.
you are so beautiful
and i wish you could see the beauty in yourself.

d.l.b.

i wonder if to you still think of me.
i know things are different now,
but i miss your friendship.

d.l.b

my feelings are so confusing
and i'm so tired.
i want to sleep
and sleep
and sleep

d.l.b.

why don't boys like me?
i think that i'm a nice girl,
and i'm definitely not ugly.
what's wrong with me?
is it the way i dress?
or the way i style my hair?

d.l.b.

your words are like arrows
that point me in the right direction,
and show me where to go

d.l.b.

you are always on my mind.
i cannot get you to leave.
it would be a benefit to us both.

d.l.b.

life is so good
and god is so good.
i just wish you could see
all the wonderful things that are happening.

d.l.b.

you might not come after all.
i don't know how i'm going to bear
without you here.

it's been far too long
and i miss the wonderful hugs you give.

d.l.b.

learning how to let go
is a very important skill to learn.
or else you'll be stuck
on the same pair of blue eyes,
until you finally forget
what his voice sounds like.

d.l.b.

the first time you spoke to me,
i felt a rush of energy flow throughout my whole body.

the first time you smiled at me,
i felt my heart begin to race.

the first time you hugged me,
i felt a calmness settle in my soul.

d.l.b.

i want to be wrapped in someone's arms,
and told that i'm loved.

d.l.b.

when i'm wrapped up in thoughts,
and my hands are shaking,
it's nice to be reminded that you're here.
and you will never leave.

d.l.b.

you know just what to do
to make me feel so incredibly alone
you burrow deep into my heart
every nook and cranny is infatuated with thoughts of you

you tear me apart
you make me feel like a stranger
to myself

but how is it
after you destroy the bitter pieces of what's left of me,
and make my heart yearn for your ice cold eyes,

i can still love you just the same

d.l.b.

my thoughtS are scattered
confused
i dOn't know what to think
i don't undeRstand
how the thought of me consumes youR mind
i'm sorry
mY thoughts are scattered
confused

d.l.b.

my life is slowly turning upside down
and i want to stop,
but you're so nice to me

d.l.b.

forget about the boy,
and move on.
i know its hard,
but what you're doing is wrong.

d.l.b.

i don't like feeling sick.
go away please.

d.l.b.

get up! (you can't stay here)
get up! (you aren't coming back here)

d.l.b.

you said you loved me.
but was it all a big lie?
i thought you would stay.

d.l.b.

you make me happy.
i haven't felt this way for a while now.
i really like you.

d.l.b.

everywhere I go,
i see things that remind me of you.
oh look,
he would like that.
oh look,
he would say that.
oh look,
he would do that.

d.l.b.