you might not come after all.
i don't know how i'm going to bear
without you here.

it's been far too long
and i miss the wonderful hugs you give.

d.l.b.

i wonder if you're tired of me as much as i'm tired of you.
i wonder if you've cried over me as much as i've cried over you.
i wonder if you think of me as much as i think of you.

i wonder if you loved me as much as (i loved you)

d.l.b.

i so desperately want to be your friend.
i want you to like me,
and i want you to care about me.
please stop ignoring me.
i want to be noticed.

d.l.b.

i want you to like me
i don't want you to think i'm a baby
i wish i were older,
so i could be taken more seriously

d.l.b.

if loving you has taught me anything,
it's to cherish every moment with someone.
you never know when they'll decide to leave.

d.l.b.

when you're hugging me,
all my pain just flies away.
nothing can hurt me.

d.l.b.

you came running back to me.
and you only made things worse.
i cried over you too many times.
please go away.

d.l.b.

i don't think things will ever go back to the way they were before

why did you cut me out of your life,
where i was lonely,
and sad,
and very confused

i know*

d.l.b.

looking in your eyes,
while you're looking into mine,
i feel important.

d.l.b.

if you think so,
and i think so too,
why are we not agreeing?

d.l.b.

your words are like arrows
that point me in the right direction,
and show me where to go

d.l.b.

we are both sleeping under the same stars,
we are both living on the same earth,
we are both breathing the same air,
we are both together,
even though we are far apart.

d.l.b.

i am nothing like she is.
don't get me wrong,
she's a lovely girl.
but she's not me.

d.l.b.

your arms were around me today.
it gave me such a calming feeling inside.
to know you would protect me,
and hold me close when things got bad.

d.l.b.

i know i messed up,
and i know you probably hate me,
but i said i was sorry,
and i really am.

"don't you know what she did to me?"

at least i'm not holding a grudge over something so silly.

d.l.b.

the times i miss you,
are the times i remember
you're not coming back.

d.l.b

our hands were so close today.
they were merely a few centimeters apart.
if i wanted to,
i could've reached out,
and held your hand.

but i didn't.

if you wanted to,
you could've reached out,
and held my hand.

but you didn't.

d.l.b.

you held me today
like i was someone important.
you gripped onto my shoulder
as if it was the last thing you'd ever touch.

d.l.b.

don't come running back to me.
you'll only make things worse.
i've cried over you too many times.
please don't come back.

d.l.b.

(i) think you're gone.
my heart is (still). it no longer beats for you.
having someone to (love) is wonderful.
but (you) took my wonderful and turned it to pain.

d.l.b.

forgetting about
you. like a fish forgetting
what to do to swim.

d.l.b

i often write poems about other people.
the boy who broke my heart in 8th grade,
my best friend whom i love so dearly,
my parents who just don't seem to understand me.
but i can never quite find the time
to write a poem about myself.

but how are you supposed to write about yourself,
when you aren't even sure who you are.
everyone else seems to have their life figured out.
but maybe that's why i write about them,
and not myself.

d.l.b.

this isn't right.
don't you see,
you don't really love this boy.
you're just replacing the boy that came before.
the first boy is a damaged and ***** door.
the new boy is a clean and perfect door.
replacing the old,
with the new,
works with doors.
but boys aren't doors.

d.l.b

a small, powerful
smile stretches across my face.
all because of you.

d.l.b.

my small little bedroom
had never been filled with so much joy.
it drifts through the air
and fills up my lungs.
it runs through my veins
and engulfs my soul.
my mind is filled with wonderful thoughts,
and my heart flutters at the sound of your voice.

d.l.b.

i want to be in the city.
i want to wake up to the sound of taxis.
i want to walk down 5th avenue holding the hand of my lover.
i want to look out at night and see the twinkling city lights.
i want to be in the city.
i want it more than anything.

d.l.b.

the only good thing
that came out of liking you,
was some really good poetry.

d.l.b.

you make me so happy
and i can only hope i do the same.
do you smile when you think of me?
because i smile when i think of you.

d.l.b.

my name never sounded so good
until it came from your lips.
diana.
when you say it,
my heart soars.
and the caterpillars inside my stomach
turn into butterflies.

d.l.b.

you kept looking at me today.
i kept looking at you today.
oh how glorious it feels to be lost in your eyes.
my heart yearns for your heart.
my hands crave your hands.
my lips want your lips.

but do you want me too?

d.l.b.

an oh so wonderful thing happened today.
you looked at me
and i looked at you.
and we smiled at each other.
my heart was beating so fast
i think it flew away.
i can only hope
that you felt the same.

d.l.b.

brown is an ugly color.

but not the shade of brown in your eyes.

brown is an ugly color.

but not the shade of brown in your hair.

the world is an ugly place.

but not with you in it.

d.l.b.

it's been one month since your birthday.
you used to make me so happy.
and now i'm just sad.

d.l.b.

you said hello to me today.

"hey diana!"

you have no idea how special that made me feel.

d.l.b.

you talked to her again today.
i understand you have the freedom
to talk to whoever you wish,
but i've been so lonely
for so long.
and it would be absolutely wonderful
if you would talk to me for a change.

d.l.b.

"who is prettier?"

i told you that it didn't matter.
i told you that you were beautiful.

"who is prettier?"

i told you that i wasn't answering.
i told you i don't believe it matters.

"who is prettier?"

i told you you weren't understanding.
i told you to please stop.

"i'm ugly."

no you're not.

"i'm fat."*

no you're not.

stop please.

d.l.b.

you looked at me today.
i looked at you today.
your brown eyes were sparkling,
even from across the room.
we both laughed,
because of something silly i had just done.
it made me so happy,
to know that you think i'm funny.

but then,
i saw you looking at her.
you walked towards her.
you talked to her.
you laughed with her.
what about me?

d.l.b.

i think the reason i cry so easily
is because i don't have friends like you do.
i go to school every day
and i walk through the hallways alone.
i mean,
i guess i have some friends.
but nothing close to a best friend.
because that's you.
and i'm your best friend too.
but you have so many more.
and i think that's the reason i get so upset
when you tell me stories about them.
and i also cry
because i can't hug you like they can.
you're so many miles away
and my heart hurts so much.

d.l.b.

every time i feel lonely,
i'll look up at the stars.
because i know somebody else is looking too.
i probably don't know them.
but they're lonely too.
and that makes me feel a little less lonely.

d.l.b.

you are twinkling christmas lights over a snow-covered city.
you are the smell of the pavement right after it rains.
you are the silent hum of a hummingbird's wings.
you are the toothless grin of a month old baby.
you are the punchline to the funniest joke ever told.
you are the satisfaction of doing everything just right.
you are the shadow of an old church in the middle of summer.
you are the love letter a newlywed husband gives to his wife.
you are the crumpled pages of a book that has been read over and over again.
you are the cool breeze that blows through pretty girls' hair during the spring.
you are the ladybug that lands on the shoulder of a young boy.
you are the feeling one gets after they've had their first kiss.

you are everything that makes this world such a beautiful place.

d.l.b.

i have a killer headache right now.
i'm tired.
i'm so tired.
but yet all i can think of is you.

d.l.b.

i really think he likes me

happiness
joy
fulfillment
wonder
anxiety
despair

i really think he hates me*

d.l.b.

i had a dream about you last night. i came to your show to surprise you and i sat in the second row. you came onstage and saw me and you smiled and i smiled and then you came down and sat behind me in the third row and put your hands over my eyes. you said you had a present for me. then i woke up. i don’t know what my present was. maybe you were going to tell me that you loved me. i don’t know.

d.l.b.

i watched you in a video today.
guess what happened.

nothing.

nothing happened.
my heart didn't start to race,
my palms didn't start to sweat,
my cheeks didn't begin to blush,
nothing.

it felt wrong.
like i needed to be doing something i wasn't.
i used to do all those things.
what happened?

d.l.b.

you're the best friend i've ever had.
you're understanding,
and kind,
and you always know just what to say.
you help me to believe in myself,
and you always make me smile.
there's nobody else quite like you.

but i wish you didn't live so far away.
and i wish i could hug you all the time.
i can't wait to see you again.
you're the best friend i've ever had.
and i love you.

d.l.b

i got us all matching bracelets today
i hope when you wear them,
you are reminded that i love you
and i will always be here
no matter what

d.l.b.

i just want you here with me right now
gently stroking my hair
as you entwine your fingers with mine
if i'd start to cry
you'd hold me close
and whisper soothing words into my ear
i need the security of being held in your arms
and i need it now

d.l.b.

i keep having dreams about you.
i don't know if it's a sign.
i don't know if it means something.
i am not quite sure.

you had to leave early today.
you make me wonder.
you make me laugh.
you are not quite sure.

d.l.b.

when i was 10 years old,
i thought i would have
somebody to love by now
i never thought i would
be completely alone

d.l.b.

we made eye contact today.
and that one second
when we were just focused
on each other,
and nothing else,
was wonderful.

maybe next time
i can find the courage to
smile at you
when our eyes lock again.

d.l.b.