oh darling,
don't be afraid,
one day you'll be happy again.
one day all your dreams will come true

d.l.b.

i remember the first day i met you.
i kept thinking,
"wow, this boy is amazing"
but you played with my heart
and messed with my emotions.
did you really like me?
or was i the only one trying?

d.l.b.

you smiled at me today.
and i don't know whether i should be happy that you noticed me,
or sad because i felt nothing.

d.l.b.

standing next to you,
i felt nothing.
my heart didn't jump like it used to,
my hands didn't shake like they used to.

d.l.b.

i want us all to be together
and i want us all to be happy
that day will come soon
if we work hard
and have a little faith

d.l.b.

do you ever wonder about me?
i hope you do.
sometimes i pretend that you really do like me,
but you're too shy to say anything.
even though i know that's not true.

d.l.b.

one week
and we'll have been friends for a whole year.
"internet friendships never work"
one week
until we prove them wrong.

d.l.b.

why do you put yourself through this madness,
you're only going to end up hurt.
i want to help you,
but you don't listen.

d.l.b.

why did i ever think that you liked me
i'm so little and not what you want
but what does she have that i don't

d.l.b.

despair and sadness
confusion and madness
regret and disbelief
longing and acceptance

d.l.b.

why don't boys like me?
i think that i'm a nice girl,
and i'm definitely not ugly.
what's wrong with me?
is it the way i dress?
or the way i style my hair?

d.l.b.

i hate being underestimated
just because i'm little.
little people can do a lot,
and most of the time,
it's the big people who mess things up.

d.l.b.

dreamcatchers are supposed to catch the bad dreams,
and keep them out of your head.
i have one next to my bed.
so why is it,
i still have dreams about you?

d.l.b.

hugging you makes me
feel safe and secure. i want
to hug you always.

d.l.b.

i'm one
out of however many girls you know.
why would i be the one?

d.l.b.

just a simple
hello from you,
can make or break my day

d.l.b.

the feeling i get
when i see your smiling face,
is so overwhelming
that i can't even begin to describe it.

d.l.b.

soon, very soon,
i will be with you again.
soon, very soon,
i will be happy again.

d.l.b.

why do you enjoy her company?
i've seen the things she does.
and i don't want you to turn out like her.

d.l.b.

i feel as if my heart is ready to explode
every time you look at me.
and i think that
if you just got to know me,
you'd see how alike we are.
and how great this could be.

d.l.b.

i hope that someday,
you find a beautiful girl.
and i hope she loves you
even more than i did.
and i hope you don't treat her
the way you treated me.

d.l.b.

i want someone to hold me close,
and tell me everything will be okay.
i want someone to make me laugh,
and never be sad again.
i want someone like you.

d.l.b.

my heart is dead weight sitting in my chest.
it beats only for itself,
and no one has the ability to capture it.

d.l.b.

there's something inside of me
that doesn't want to let you go.
it keeps holding on
to every last word you ever said to me.
it reaches out and grabs you,
and pulls you into the deepest parts of my heart.
it weaves you into my blood,
and pushes me down with thoughts of you.

d.l.b.

oh my love,
there's no need to be discouraged.
i am right here.
i will protect you.

d.l.b.

i'm getting nowhere with you.
i try to reach out to you,
but you push me away.
what am i doing wrong?

d.l.b.

i like to imagine us stargazing late at night,
with pillows and blankets laid out on the grass.
holding hands,
singing songs,
everything would be perfect.

d.l.b.

i used to call you my best friend,
but now we aren't even friends.
i wanted you to stay in my life,
but i guess you didn't feel the same way.
i really did love you,
but you obviously didn't love me.

d.l.b.

you say that you hate her,
yet you still spend every moment with her.
it doesn't make much sense,
does it?

d.l.b.

oh but my love,
don't you see,
she's not right for you.

oh but my love,
don't you see,
i am.

d.l.b.

everywhere i go,
i see little reminders of you.
they follow me
and taunt me.
they want me to come back.
but i know i can't.

d.l.b.

why do you like her?
she's rude, very insulting.
why don't you like me?

d.l.b.

everyday he taunts me with those strong hands, waiting for another to hold close. everyday he taunts me with those chocolate brown eyes, waiting for a twinkling gaze to match his own. everyday he taunts me with that beautiful brown hair, waiting for small fingers to twirl and ruffle.*

d.l.b.

we might be together
all of us
at one time
in person
oh this is what I've been waiting for

d.l.b.

take me back
to when you first talked to me.
to when you first smiled at me.
to when you first told me a secret.
you when you first said you loved me.
take me back
so we can start over.

d.l.b.

for one last night
please,
don't ignore me.
make me feel wanted.
love me.
please.

d.l.b

do you feel the same way
about me,
as i feel
about you?

d.l.b.

there's no place like home
bright lights, makeup, set pieces
the stage is my home

d.l.b.

this is what i love.
this is what i want to do.
this is who i am.

d.l.b.

being in your arms
is like floating on a cloud.
i'm at peace with you.

d.l.b

you held me today.
you held me like you loved me,
like i was just yours.

d.l.b.

you don't understand
what it's like
to be so far away
from your best friends

you don't understand
what it's like
to have people expect you
to be perfect every day

you don't understand
what it's like
to be me

so stop acting like you do

d.l.b.

long nights, tired eyes.
a bit of joy when i see
your smiling face.

d.l.b.

being with you,
is such a relief.
all my worries,
and all my fears,
they simply fly away.

d.l.b.

why do you ignore my presence?
i just want to be your friend
and you push me away.

why do you not include me?
i just want you to like me
but it's like i'm not even there.

d.l.b.

don't hurt yourself,
my darling.
the pains in this world are only temporary.
you will soon be free.

d.l.b.

my best friend.
the one i can tell anything to.
179 miles away.

how am i supposed to live when you are so far away?

d.l.b.

remember when
we first met and I said that you were cute?
remember when
we joked about our futures together?
remember when
we made eachother laugh so hard we cried?
remember when
we used to stay up late talking to eachother?
remember when
you told me you loved me?

do you remember when?

or am i just a memory in the past?

d.l.b.

i may be a little hard to understand,
and i may be picky about which foods i like to eat.
i may be sleepy at 1 o'clock in the afternoon,
i may be disorganized and very clumsy,
or i may be crazy for my nighttime tea.
i may be critical,
i may be a light sleeper.

i may be a lot of things.

but i will always be yours.

d.l.b.

the first time you spoke to me,
i felt a rush of energy flow throughout my whole body.

the first time you smiled at me,
i felt my heart begin to race.

the first time you hugged me,
i felt a calmness settle in my soul.

d.l.b.