memories are what destroys me.
remembering everything that was,
and everything that could've been.

d.l.b.

i wonder if you talk to your friends about me.
i wonder if they know my name.
my friends know your name.

d.l.b.

i miss you.
and although it pains me to admit it,
i'm not afraid to say it.
i will shout it to the world if that's what it takes
for you to miss me back.

d.l.b.

do i like you?
or am i just lonely?
if only there was a way to know.

d.l.b.

you first talked to me a year ago today.
and i couldn'tve been happier.
what happened to us?

d.l.b.

do you ever stay up untill the sun rises,
and think of me?
if you do,
i hope you are remembering all the beautiful memories we shared.
i hope you are okay.
because i'm not.

d.l.b.

i wish you were here with me,
so distance wouldn't be my biggest fear.

d.l.b.

you make me happy.
i haven't felt this way for a while now.
i really like you.

d.l.b.

if we met, would you kiss me?
i sure hope so.
i wouldn't refuse.

d.l.b.

"you're already perfect"*

you never said things like this to me.
or at least you never meant them.

d.l.b.

it's time to move on,
it's time to let go.
but please know this,
i loved you.
and i will never forget the wonderful memories we had together.
goodbye.

d.l.b.

my life is slowly turning upside down
and i want to stop,
but you're so nice to me

d.l.b.

i still think about you
even though i said i was moving on.
and it pains me to know
that you've forgotten about me

d.l.b.

when i think of you
my heart is full of sorrow
and i don't like it

d.l.b.

do i like you?
or am i just trying to fill the hole that the last boy left?
i wish i knew.

d.l.b.

old songs bring back unwanted memories.
old songs bring back lovely memories.

d.l.b.

writer's block of hard to explain.
you know exactly what to say,
but the words refuse to be written down.

d.l.b.

please remember,
no matter how hard life gets,
i will always be there,
i will always care.
if you feel as if you're completely alone,
please remember,
i will always love you.

d.l.b.

"i'm so tired but i want to keep talking to you"*

just those few words made me feel so special.
but god, i have to stop.
this can't end up happening again.
please let this time be different.

d.l.b.

a new boy.
is this okay?
am i making a bad decision?
i don't know what to do.

d.l.b.

being your friend has taught me so much about myself.
it's taught me how to be patient,
how to be loving,
and how to be happy for others and what they are blessed with.
and i cannot thank you enough.

d.l.b.

i don't want to be forgotten in this world,
and if i keep missing you,
i'm going to miss out on some wonderful opportunities.

d.l.b.

do not read scary stories before you go to bed.
you will be convinced something is hiding in your closet,
and turning the lights off will be the hardest thing to do.

d.l.b.

it wasn't meant to be like this.
you aren't supposed to be there,
when i'm an the way over here.

d.l.b.

it's strange to imagine myself as an adult.
i don't know who i'll be living with.
i don't know where i'm going to be.
i don't know what i'll look like.
and that part scares me the most.

d.l.b.

i feel like i'm drifting farther and farther away from you every day.
we're supposed to be best friends.
we're supposed to tell each other everything.
i don't want this friendship to end.
what's happening to us?

d.l.b.

it's almost been a whole year since we met.
did you know that?
one year ago i would've never guessed how badly you would eventually make me feel.

d.l.b.

you are the monster hiding under my bed.
you told me lies and ****** me in.
you said that you loved me and I believed you.
you played with my heart and then smashed it to pieces.
you were the monster hiding under my bed.

d.l.b.

sometimes i wonder that if the reason you left, was because you knew i loved you, or if you really did just hate me.

d.l.b.

my dad sleeps with a baseball bat beside his bed.
so if somebody breaks in, he can fight them away.
but what happens when a boy breaks in to my heart?
i don't have a baseball bat to protect me.

d.l.b.

i want to do something crazy,
and be someone crazy.
but crazy is hard to accomplish
without you.

d.l.b.

it's okay to be upset
that your little girl is growing up.
but please don't restrain me
from being alive.

d.l.b.

if i had one wish in the entire world,
i wouldn't wish for riches,
i wouldn't wish for power,
i would wish for us all to be together.
so i could finally experience true happiness.

d.l.b.

we were so close to each other.
why did we grow apart?
was it something i did?
was it something i said?

d.l.b.

how do i get you out of my heart?
because even if they removed the *****,
you would still be there.
and even if they pumped out all my blood,
you would still be there.

d.l.b.

"you are a sweet, beautiful, and kind girl and i promise things will get better"*

it's been 2 months and 11 days.
and nothing is better.

d.l.b.

you're moving on.
i know you are.
but i haven't stopped thinking of you.
you were a big part of my life for such a long time.
how can you throw everything we had together away?

d.l.b.

i wonder what they found running through my veins.
was it blood?
or the sound of your voice?

d.l.b.

i'm coming home one day,
i can promise you that.
and the city will welcome me with open arms.

d.l.b.

i'm at the doctor and i'm so afraid they're going to take my blood.
they'll find you if they do.

d.l.b.

it's been 2 months since i talked to you.
why do i still think of you?

d.l.b.

midnight thoughts of you
flow throughout my head.
do you still think of me?
i don't know if i'll ever be able
to forget about you.

d.l.b.

you bring out the best in me.
and i will forever be grateful
for our beautiful friendship.

d.l.b.

you're such a wonderful part of my life.
you keep my secrets and make me happy when i'm sad.
i couldn't have asked for a better friend.

d.l.b.

being your friend
has taught me how to be a better person.
and i cannot thank you enough for that.

d.l.b.

i gave you everything i had to give.
i told you all my secrets,
all my fears,
my goals in life.
i thought you loved me.

d.l.b.

we left our mark today.
in a place everyone could see.
we don't want to be forgotten.

d.l.b.

i want to meet a boy,
who treats me like i'm special.
who laughs and hugs and cuddles.
i want someone to love me,
and never leave.

d.l.b.

every one makes mistakes.
so i don't understand why this one is such big a deal.
i messed up,
so let's move on.
please.

d.l.b.

one year.
with the people who understand me
with the people who love me
with the people who care for me
with the people who help me
one year.
and i couldn't be happier.

d.l.b.