My body wants you
but my souls says your wrong
I don't know how long this can go on

When someone is freaking out people say just breath
what if breathing isn't something
I want to continue doing

That old saying
" I can't live without you, but I cant live with you*"
actually has meaning

I hate missing you
when I know I shouldn't
I hate loving you
when all you have done is hurt me
mentally and physically
I hate loving you
I need something to stop me
because I know your no good for me
and yet my body craves you laying next to me

You make me wonder what I would be like

If you hadn't comed in and changed my life

if you hadn't made everything that's wrong seem right

or if you didn't trick me into believing in love in first sight

or if you did teach me death

because I died when you left me

So I guess that means my question is answered

without you in my life I would be like a cancer survivor  

without the cancer

I wish I could undo history
so that I never met you

but then again without
I wouldn't have anyone to lean onto

I'm trying to sleep
but all I can do feel your absence