As I gaze into the night sky,
My dreams allow me to fly.
I do not fly to what other people might consider charms.
I only fly into your strong, protective arms.

As a reality my dream begins to seem,
My racing thoughts become meek
Of fantasies between you and me,
And I know, now, that you have set me free.

My body grows numb,
As a nightmare, my dream begins to become.
Frozen eyes and pitiful sighs
Fill my world as they hear my cries.

Everyone knows how I feel,
And they know your heart I cannot steal.
As I pretend it’s okay to only be friends,
I know it is you on which my heart depends.

Since my feelings I am able to hide,
You cannot see the true pain inside.
And even though you know of the crush,
Of these feelings, my lips I will continue to shush.

you looked at me
from the passenger seat
with so much love in your eyes
you started to speak
but my tears of sorrow
washed away your words

I knew you wanted to tell me then...

how much you loved me
and give your formal goodbye
until we meet again
in another space and time

but no words needed to be spoken
I just knew, I just knew...

remember when I called you up
and then couldn't talk
the only sound between us
the fatal ticking of the clock

I wanted to tell you then...

how sorry I was for all I had done
how badly I wanted a do over
but the words didn't come

I'll never forget the night
that changed our lives forever
darkness descended
the well ran dry
no more tears
no more tears left to cry

I wanted to tell you then...

I know you are hurting
I'm hurting too
please don't do this
we'll make it through
but no words came
and I lost you
tell me where did you go
I lost you...

when I'm dead and gone
will these words be
all that are left of me
a written legacy
my final ministry

I will tell you then
I will tell you then...

When is it time to say goodbye,
To all the love I've known,
When is it time to end your pain,
And leave me all alone?

I've watched you on your good days when
I feel your strength renewed;
But shortly after little ups,
The down days then ensue.

We ride this roller-coaster of
Emotions as we try,
To make it through another day,
And yet, I can't deny ...

That as I look into your face
On days that have been bad,
I see a look that beckons me
It's tired, and hurt, and sad.

The little spark I used to see
Behind those loving eyes,
Is growing ever clouded
By life's cruel inhumane side.

I try to see beyond the pain
You feel with every step;
And softly whisper to myself
This may get better yet.

If I can bear to watch you
Just another day or two;
I justify my reasons to
Ensure I cling to you.

For letting go is harder for
The person left behind;
It means that if I let you go,
I cannot turn back time.

Back to the days I long for now,
When you were full of life;
And every day held promise,
And our futures, clear and bright.

But now the lights are darkening ...
We take it daily now;
I cannot see our futures clear
Or think beyond this cloud.

I think the hardest part in this
Is never knowing why,
I have to be courageous
And I have to say goodbye.

For if I let myself admit
It's time to let you go;
I'd have to face reality
Without you ... but I know ...

That soon I have to face the
Final outcome that I dread,
And holding on will only serve
To hurt you in the end.

You've given such unselfish love
For all our time in life,
But if I hold too tightly,
You'll not move t'ward the light ...

On to a better life, where you
Can once again be free,
Of all the pain and discomfort
That holds you here to me.

So if I find the courage just to say
This last farewell,
I hope you will forgive me for
The time it took me; still ...

I'll hold with me, the memories
That in my heart remain,
Pray one day, down the road a'ways
... They'll lesson my own pain.

If these walls could talk,
you'd know my body is dead,
my mind has been taken over,
that's why I am so scared,
I can't control it,
anger is making me blind,
I've been left here on my own
chained to a hate of some kind.
If these walls could talk.

If these walls could talk,
you'd know about my fears,
about all those nights I screamed for help,
about all my fallen tears.
You'd know about the demons
haunting me at night,
you'd be able to help me
keep my fire alight,
if these walls could talk.

If these walls could talk
they would say that it's all right,
God sends His angels
to look over me at night.
They'd encourage me,
say though I am alone
it doesn't mean I'm on my own.
He watches me, from above
and showers me with all His love,
if only these walls could talk.

You see the pain that lies in her eyes,
But her eyes are dry,
She won't cry.
No, she won't cry.

You see the anger that burns from her gaze,
The madness that sets her eyes ablaze,
She won't cry.
No, she won't cry.

You see the fear that closes her eyes,
The smile she wears is but a disguise,
She won't cry.
No, she won't cry.

You see the hope that is finally dead,
She cannot trust for her heart has been bled,
She won't cry.
No, she won't cry.

You see the love that lies within,
But she shall never love again,
She won't cry.
No, she won't cry.

You see death's hand that has glazed her eyes,
No one saw her die inside,
They won't cry.
No, they won't cry.

"As I look back on my life
I find myself wondering...
Did I remember to thank you
for all that you have done for me?
For all of the times you were by my side
to help me celebrate my successes
and accept my defeats?
Or for teaching me the value of hard work,
good judgement, courage, and honesty?
I wonder if I've ever thanked you
for the simple things...
The laughter, smiles, and quiet times we've shared?
If I have forgotten to express my gratitude
For any of these things,
I am thanking you now...
and I am hoping that you've known all along,
I am thankful mom, that you were always around

People never knew just how much he meant to me and you
They knew him by name, but it's still not the same

His eyes so bright, his smile so wide
We always let him know we were right there by his side

Now he's gone from me and you
Now we have no reason to be blue

We loved him, he loved us
And we have to try not to fuss

He said goodbye and gave you a kiss
Now all we can do is reminis

Why does God take the best to love
Up to that great big world up above?

His memory will never leave
His kind and gentle smile will always be seen

Never forget him, never let him leave your mind
Tell him you love him, just one more time.