I have no more secrets to hide
a weight is lifted

I expected despair and heartbreak
but those feelings never came

now that I have nothing left to hide
I feel free

If I tell her I had a crush on her
what would happen?

will it be quick and easy?
with no harm done?

or will I lose a friend
that I cannot live without?

if I were to go back
if I could do it all over again

could things be changed?

could I end up being with you?
could I have made things better for both of us?

I would rather bear the burden of my feelings
than let them go

no matter what happens
no matter what I go through
I just want to keep feeling something

I would rather feel pain or despair
than feel nothing at all

for years I have been silent
my true thoughts hidden from everyone

I can't take it anymore
I need someone who will listen

sometimes I lie down in my bed and dream
I dream about us together
having fun, with no problems on our minds

I know this will never happen
but it's still nice to dream

one dilemma after another
and no end in sight

everything that is happening
is just too much

I need to forget
I need to stop thinking about her
but I can't

she is in my dreams now
I see her every day
reminders are everywhere

when I think about her, I only get worse
my heart is a dam ready to burst

I told her my feelings
And she said no
I thought I could move on
But I was wrong

I do not know how she feels about this
I do not know what she is experiencing
But what I do know
Is that she does not want this

I do not know what to do
This is new to me
For the first time in my life
I feel lonely

even though I've been through this before
this time is even worse
because I already know what your answer is

the worst is over
but I still have one question
what happened?

everyone around me is falling down
telling stories of dispair
stories of heartbreak
what if we pick ourselves up and try?

what if we stop looking down
we can hold on to what we have
we can make things better
and if we fall again, we can still try

when you are thinking one day,
when you have that epiphany moment,
when you smile for the first time in a long time,
when you click "save poem"

that is how you will know that you are over it

am I a dead flower
wilting away into nothing?

or am I a bud
waiting to bloom?

you say that everything is fine
you say I am not in the way

but why do I get the feeling that something is astray?

for the first time in a long time
I don't feel worried

but all that can change
*in an instant

I thought it was over
the day I fell in love
all those days my feelings grew
the day I was crushed

I thought it was over
but it's happening again

what do I want most?
all I want is to be with someone

someone who I can lie next to
and confess what is my heart

someone who I can love without worry
someone who I can share my feelings with

someone that will understand me
someone I can care about

as the glow of the shimmering rock goes dim
I am pulled further away from the exit

you have the power to break me down and pull me up

somehow you managed to do both

we all have troubles
personal problems and inner feelings

no matter how alone you feel
there is always someone who will listen

just let it out

when you fall for someone
just beware
of all those angles
with their wings glued on

I have waited long
standing far aside
watching it go by

now I hope for the day
where I can go at last
to an elusive thing called love

I could rant about you all day
but it won't make things any better

how will I find a way out
when everywhere is a dead end?

all day I think about the moments I regret
about the feeling that something is missing
about the problems I am facing

and then I think to myself
when will it end?

in the middle of all that is happening
whenever I take a step back and look
is this really happening to me?

it just seems too soon
I never thought this would be happening to me
I am tangled in the cruel web of love

it makes me happy to know
that I am making your day
just a little bit better

of all the days of my life
my greatest day
will be the day when things can't get worse