I'm all alone with no one to hold.
One second I'm here
the next I'm there.

Everything used to be so clear.
But now,
now my eyes are closed.

I can't see the light in the sky.
I can't see the way out.
All I see is an abyss of darkness in my heart.

It's all thanks to you.
You didn't listen when I asked for help.
You shied away, even though you knew me best.

Now I'm standing 5 meters away
Watching you watching me,
And waiting.
Just waiting.

Hoping these wings will grow back
with one simple act of kindness
on your behalf.

But I'm falling farther and farther
by the second.
Titanium steel and broken wings are pushing me down.

These masks that hide the emotions
are becoming harder and harder to put on.
All because of a broken promise
from a fake friendship.

This pain that you have helped to cause
is hidden behind a mask.
Making me feel alone in this dark world
with my eyes closed to all
waiting for you waiting for me, to make the first move.
But I'm no longer here,
I'm gone forever.
A lone prisoner in my own life.

you were the nicest guy
i ever talked to.
i wish we had the chance
to meet.

you were the funniest guy
who made me laugh
i wish we had the chance
to talk face to face.

you were the weirdest guy
who made me feel normal
i wish we had the chance
to settle these oddly funny disputes.

i never got to actually meet you
i never saw your face.
but you were my best friend's
best friend.

when i heard you were sick
i knew we would never meet
face to face.  

but all those conversations
were enough
to last a life time.

i felt that i knew you
i felt that we would have been friends.
i wish we had the chance
to have been friends.

you were funny
you were weird
you were nice
all i wish
is that i had a chance to meet you.

the water crashes over the rocks.
the sound is a sweet lullaby to my ears.
just like candy to the mouth.

the white caps
remind me of the clouds in the sky.
a sweet dream forever in my memory.

the mist licks at my face
as i stand by the rail overlooking the water.
the feeling of water and wind is like coming home.

the sweet taste of salt
brings back a childhood of days and years
swimming and lazing at the beach.

ahhh
the sweet ocean.
a calm peace descends upon me.

Feel the wrath
From the devil.
Feel the fire
From hell.
Feel the burning
From inside you.
This is what it feels
To leave those you love.
This is what it feels like
To no longer care about those who thought you did.
Feel the fire in your veins.
Feel the heat in your lungs.
This is your guilt.
This is your revenge.
This is what you brought
Upon yourself.
Don’t bother me again,
For I no longer care for you.
So leave me now,
And go your own way.

stuck here
without words to say
all i can do is listen
listen to your constant chatter.

my ears are dying
as all i can do is listen
without saying a single word.

can't you just---
yes i'm listening to you
but when will you listen to me

my ears are bursting
from all this talk
of stupid things that nobody understands

my ears are dying
bursting
from being stuck here and listening
listening to you
and only *you

these anchors on my feet
are all that are holding me
they are too heavy to move

each time i try
they slip out of my hands.
too heavy and too slippery.

these weights are holding me back
making me stay when all i want
is to spread my wings and fly.

but my feet are anchored.
my wings are tied together.
i'm stuck.

these steel ***** hold me here.
each time i try to leap forward
i'm pulled back and slammed back down.

how much longer must i be a prisoner
a prisoner of my own life?
how much longer must i be pulled back
and thrown back into the same cell
before i realize i must be patient?

i'm a prisoner in my own life
and yet i can't free myself!
my feet are held to this earth
by the titanium blocks
of a high schooler's reality

so high
so far.
it's a long way to go.

these broken wings
they won't last long
i'm already starting to fall.

after all that i've been through
just to stay strong
it's too much to lose

and yet i'm falling
fast and far.
there's nothing left to hold me up.

these broken wings
have fallen apart
now i'm falling
falling
ever so fast
ever so far.

if you're my friend
then why do you never listen?
if you're my friend,
then shouldn't you care that i'm hurting?

i thought we were friends
because i have always been there for you.
i thought we were friends
because i stood up for you.

if you're my friend
then why do you always talk over me then laugh when somebody else says the same thing
if you're my friend
then shouldn't you at least pretend to care that this is the way i am?

i thought we were friends
because we did almost everything together.
i thought we were friends
because i showed up to your dance recitals.

this is not a real friendship!
this is only one-sided.
can a friendship even be one-sided?
can i ever just walk away?

the day that you realize
how much of my hurting comes from you
is the day
that it will be much too late.

friendship is both people caring
both people listening.
friendship is both people being there
both people taking away the pain, not causing it.

what we are
is not friends.
it's time to say good-bye
so good-bye, it was nice to know you

When you were here,
Everything was so clear.
All I had to do,
Was open my eyes
To see the light in the sky.

Now that you’re gone,
I see no light.
I cannot see anything.
It scares me,
I can’t find my way.

I’m lost.
Please help me
Find my way back.
I can’t see the light
High up in the sky.

My eyes are closed.
I’m scared.

Wake up
Go to school
Play sports
Do homework
Eat dinner
More homework
Go to sleep.

Everyday the same thing
Why is it always the same?
It's so
Normal.
But normal is not who I am.

Growing up 9402 miles from where I was born.
Traveling the world.
My best friend is Pakistani.
And yet
Everyday,
The same thing.

School
Sports
Homework
Dinner
Ever so normal
And yet
Not so normal.

Monkeys hanging from trees
Snakes on the field
Lizards on the walls
More monkeys in the pool.
So normal
And yet...

Is there such thing as normal?
Or is normal different
For each individual?
But then there is no normal.
And yet it's the same
For students around the world

Wake up
Go to school
After school activities
Do homework
Eat dinner
More homework
Sleep.

So normal
And yet
So different for each
And every person.

we were 10,
all of us laughing
crying,
cheering,
all of us as one.

we fought,
broken in two parts,
why was it always the same two parts?
it was always me and you against her and whoever else!
why did we let this happen?

we were 10,
all of us fighting,
broken,
saddened,
all of us as two parts.

one had left at the beginning of that year
but i didn't say good-bye
me and you, we left her so we could hang
so we didn't say good-bye

that year
you and her left me for some others
you left me with those we were always against!
how did this happen?
all of a sudden
i didn't know where i belonged!

but before all that
our peace-keeper left
i guess that's how we all fell apart!

we were 10,
all of us crying,
remembering,
saying good-bye,
all of us as one.

at the end of the year,
three more left.
two of which were always against us
one who was just barely one of the 10
but one of the 10 all the same.

now where do i belong?
there are only 6
but the one we always fought with was gone.
so where were you?
we could have been friends again!
but then you left the next year.

we were 10
all of us sharing,
dancing,
singing,
all of us as one.

now there are only two of us
two who are still together.
only 7 of us talk
while the other 3 are not a part of us.
is this where i belong?
because you are no longer part of those who talk.

i have new friends now
but how do i share,
or laugh,
or cry,
or dance,
or sing,
or remember,
or say good-bye,
or cheer,
or even fight,
or even be sad,
without being reminded of you

you were always there
but then you left me for her
you left me by myself
how do i ever get over that?
how do i learn to forget?
how can i learn to trust again?

you came to visit
but we didn't speak.
i guess it's both our faults.
or is it?
once i forget you i can trust
but if i forget you, i can't remember
what happens when you trust too deep.
how do i fix this?
how do i get over this?

the only solution i see
is to never forget
and to never trust properly
but then nobody will trust me
i guess its time to move on
and be real to me
instead of real to the 10

we were 10,
all of us laughing,
dancing,
singing,
crying,
saying good-bye,
remembering,
fighting,
sharing,
cheering,
saddened,
bro­ken,
all of us as one
but now

now we are all 10
all of us our own

i shall remember the 10 as we were
but never shall i make the mistake
letting you manipulate me,
control me,
force me,
rule me,
or even blind me,

as this all leads to us
being pretend friends
and only when were apart
we finally see this.

now we are 10
all of us our own.....

My heaven,
is only mine
My heaven,
is your hell.

Did you even think about the consequences?
Did you even think that I would care?
Did you think that you would hurt me?
Because you did hurt me.
Now we're not friends.

Did you even think about my feelings?
Did you even think that we might not speak again?
Did you think I'd stay?
After all that you did,
You thought I would still stay.

Did you even think about caring?
Did you even think that I might believe you?
Did you think I'd come crawling back?
I don't want to speak to you again.
There is too much pain.

This is all because
You lied.
All because you said you cared
When really it was all just a dare.

You said you loved me,
but I see no sign of that love,
no sign of that care.

You said you'd always be there,
but now that I need you,
you've walked away.
Where are you?

I need you!
I don't have anyone,
not even you!
I'm all alone.

What happened to your promise?
What happened to tear us apart?

I told you the truth,
thinking nothing would come of it
But the truth
is what happened.

Now we never speak.
Now we never act.
So here we are,
waiting from afar
Waiting for the other
to make the first move...

Open  your eyes, to see the light in the sky

You say you hate her
You say you wish she didn't exist.
But what you don't understand,
Is that she's the same as you.

Why do you hate her?
She has the same personality!
She's just another person.
Why not just walk away?

It would save you the trouble
Of having to listen to her.
So just walk away
Or deal with it.

You're just the same as her.
Just another girl.
Trying to get through school.

You're the same as her.
And understand,
That in a year's time.
No one will care.

Not me,
Not her,
Not you,
Not them.

So just walk away
And deal

Happiness is the joy of the world.
Happiness makes the world go ‘round.
This feeling is hard to feel
Hard to pretend.
When it’s real
It makes a big impression
But when it’s not
It’s hard to tell.
Why can’t you see the difference?
I finally have.
The light in my eyes
Is real this time.
It’s there
For all to see.
How can you not
See the difference?
I guess you never saw the real thing
Until today,
Until this moment.
Now you know what to look for
Now you know the difference.
So pay attention.
Call me on it.
Tell me that you care.
Because you don’t seem to care.
Not now,
Not ever.
So be happy that you know.
So be happy that I told you.
Now help me
Be me.
Help me find me.
Help me.

You said yes,
You said yes!
Oh how happy I was
To hear that one simple word.
Oh, you said yes!

When I get there
We don't speak,
But all I think of,
Is how you said yes.

Now it is time
And we haven't even spoken.
You did say "yes"
Did you not?

Where are you now,
For you said yes.
Wait!
What did you say?

You said yes,
Now you say no.
Is this some kind of test?
Or are you just playing with my mind.

You said yes,
Oh how you said yes.
Now you say no.
Now you say....

Just leave me be
And I'll leave you.
Me and you
Were through.
You ruined my friendships
You ruined my year.
You yell at me,
Ignore me,
Pretend to like me.
And yet I know,
What is really happening.
We used to be friends,
But now were not,
All thanks to you,
For ruining my life.
So leave me now,
And never come back,
Because I don't like you,
And you don't like me.

To you who is always there,
To you who will hopefully be there.
From anything, to everything,
You are my best friend.
You know what this is about,
You know what this means.
School’s almost over,
We’re almost done.
I hope we’ll never forget
All those times:
Laughing.
Smiling.
Crying.
Fighting.
Gossiping.
These times have shaped us.

To me you are the greatest gift.
Never forget,
That you are my best
And only friend.

I'm all alone,
Or so it seems.
You can’t see through this mask?
How can you not?

You laugh
When you should cry,
Or cheer me up,
Why can’t you see through this mask?
No, I'm not crying.

Why did you turn away,
When you knew the truth?
Yes, I'm happy.

Can’t you see I'm lying?
Why can’t you see through this mask?
I love you,
But you don’t love me.
I'm okay with it.

Wait!
Why are you walking away?
Why can’t you see through this mask?

I'm sad,
I'm tired,
I'm fine,
There’s nothing to worry about,
I can’t wait!
Why can’t you see through this mask?
Why can’t you see throu---never mind.

I can see
That you just don’t care.
That you don’t want to care.
That you are incapable of caring
For others.

I guess I’ll leave now.
And never come back.
It’s just easier this way.

Hello darkness.
Hello pain.
I'm you new best friend.

Good-bye world.

me and you,
we're through.
you don't care,
you never listen.
me and you,
we're through.
im tired of all this,
im tired of pretending.
me and you,
we're through.
when can i finally be rid
of all this unhappiness?
when will you just leave
because
me and you,
we're through.