Dev A

Dev A Dec 2012

you left me here alone
and yet you still think that i'll come back to you
well here is a surprise,
i don't want you anymore.
i want nothing to do with you or your sweet talk.
you wanted an out,
well here it is;
just leave
just go,
i want nothing more to do with you.
i want peace of mind again
i don't want to stumble through thoughts and feelings anymore.
please stop calling
please stop showing up,
i don't know how much more i can take.
i might just crumble and come back
or i might just burst and show you all my emotions.
you wanted an escape
well here it is;
just leave
just go,
before it's too late.

Dev A Dec 2012

Wide Awake

It’s time to sleep
Yet here I lay
Wide awake
With thoughts of you
Dancing through my mind.

I think of what I would say
And what you’d reply with,
If I saw your face right now.
Would I be angry or would I be happy?
The emotions rage war in my mind.

It’s time to sleep
Yet here I lay
Wide awake
With thoughts of you
Dancing through my mind.

I know what I want to say,
What I want to hear.
“Sorry” would be a good place for you to start.
But I know you would never say that
So instead, the scene runs through my mind.

It’s time to sleep
Yet here I lay
Wide awake
With thoughts of you
Dancing through my mind.

Here’s the call,
Here’s my chance to say to you
What I’ve wanted to say,
But all that comes out is a simple
“Go away”. Not

It’s time to sleep
Yet here I lay
Wide awake
With thoughts of you
Dancing through my mind.

I want an apology, I just want to understand.
But all I get is silence as I speak into the empty night.
Hoping you’ll hear my words inside your head,
I'm in my house and you’re in yours.
Why can’t you hear these words?

It’s time to sleep
Yet here I lay
Wide awake
With thoughts of you
Dancing through my mind.

Dev A Nov 2012

Why?

Why can I still feel your hand holding mine?
Why can I still hear your voice inside my head?
I thought we were through with all this
I wanted to forget everything
But for some reason
It keeps coming back.

Your lips against mine.
The way you say my name.
It was supposed to be over
I didn’t want to remember it
But it’s still there
Inside my head.

Why do I still see you when I close my eyes?
Why do I still look out the window expecting to see you?
You ended all this
I was finally moving on!
But for some reason
You came back.

The way your face dances in the dark.
Its 2:30 and you’re waiting just for me.
You said it was over
And it’s been two months.
But still you’re calling,
I want to go back to you.

Dev A Oct 2012

Just Dreaming

He’s nice
He’s sweet.
I can just fall asleep looking into your eyes;
They lead straight to your soul.

He holds my hand
He says he loves me.
I can just fall asleep in your arms;
They are my protection.

He’s nice
He’s sweet
He holds my hand;
But then I wake up and there are no arms to protect me.

Dev A Oct 2012

I Guess it was just an Illusion

I guess I was just a toy.
Just something for you to use,
for this, for that
Maybe a little bit of everything.

Why did you wait,
before you ripped it all out.
Why did I have to believe
every word you said.

You used me
You didn't really care about me.
I fell for your little trap
and gave you everything I had.

Dev A Sep 2012

This One's For YOU

This one’s from the first time we talked.
This one’s from our first kiss.
This one’s from that time we laughed all night long.
This one’s from all those texts.
This one’s from all those late night calls.
This one’s from all those time we went out.

This one’s for every thought.
This one’s for every touch.
This one’s for all those hugs.
This one’s for the secrets.
This one’s for all the tears.
This one’s for you.

My arms are covered in scars.
My arms have wept blood.
My arms are dead.
Just as my heart.
Just as my tears.
Just as my love.

A simple sorry doesn’t erase everything that happened.
A simple sorry just won’t do.
A simple sorry can’t fix a broken heart.
A simple sorry won’t forget a thing.
A simple sorry won't make it alright.
A simple sorry won’t forgive you.

This one’s for you.
Just for you alone.
The scars are gathering,
Climbing across my skin.
Blood is dripping, dripping down.
All because of you.

Dev A Sep 2012

Everything Good Comes to an End by Your Hand

Why?
Oh, why did you have to interfere?
I was happy!
I actually had a friend.
There was someone there to hold my hand
Someone to talk to.

Why?
Why did you have to come along and ruin it all?
I didn't have to pretend!
I was truly happy!
There was something to look forward to
Something to hold back all the pain.

Why?
Oh why did you have to come back?
I was so happy!
I finally opened up and trusted them.
Everything was perfect between us
But you came out of nowhere and the picture was broken.

But then you came along.
You always come along at the wrong time.
I've lost so much
But you're never there until somethings comes along
Just so you can interfere.