Dev A

Dev A Dec 2011

One second I'm here
The next I'm there.
If you paid attention
You’d notice.
But you’re too far gone.
I feel the invisible blood dripping down.
You didn’t notice me.
Now I'm gone.
I was here
When you were here.
Then I was there,
But you didn’t listen.
See what happens,
When you don’t pay attention?
See what happens,
When you don’t care?
Or when you care too late?
It’s too late for me to come back.
I’ve already left.
I don’t want you anymore.
You didn’t care when I did,
So why should I care anymore?
I left
So I could leave the pain,
The mask,
The tears,
The blood.
But you’re following me.
So now there’s blood
And pain.
I was here
Then there,
Now I'm gone.
And you finally care.
You finally care.
But I no longer care.
Because I left you.
And that is the way
It should stay.
I was here,
Then there,
Now,
I'm gone forever.

Dev A Dec 2011

Happiness

Happiness is the joy of the world.
Happiness makes the world go ‘round.
This feeling is hard to feel
Hard to pretend.
When it’s real
It makes a big impression
But when it’s not
It’s hard to tell.
Why can’t you see the difference?
I finally have.
The light in my eyes
Is real this time.
It’s there
For all to see.
How can you not
See the difference?
I guess you never saw the real thing
Until today,
Until this moment.
Now you know what to look for
Now you know the difference.
So pay attention.
Call me on it.
Tell me that you care.
Because you don’t seem to care.
Not now,
Not ever.
So be happy that you know.
So be happy that I told you.
Now help me
Be me.
Help me find me.
Help me.

Dev A Dec 2011

The Day of

You said yes,
You said yes!
Oh how happy I was
To hear that one simple word.
Oh, you said yes!

When I get there
We don't speak,
But all I think of,
Is how you said yes.

Now it is time
And we haven't even spoken.
You did say "yes"
Did you not?

Where are you now,
For you said yes.
Wait!
What did you say?

You said yes,
Now you say no.
Is this some kind of test?
Or are you just playing with my mind.

You said yes,
Oh how you said yes.
Now you say no.
Now you say....

Dev A Dec 2011

Enemy

Just leave me be
And I'll leave you.
Me and you
Were through.
You ruined my friendships
You ruined my year.
You yell at me,
Ignore me,
Pretend to like me.
And yet I know,
What is really happening.
We used to be friends,
But now were not,
All thanks to you,
For ruining my life.
So leave me now,
And never come back,
Because I don't like you,
And you don't like me.

Dev A Dec 2011

My Best and Only Friend

To you who is always there,
To you who will hopefully be there.
From anything, to everything,
You are my best friend.
You know what this is about,
You know what this means.
School’s almost over,
We’re almost done.
I hope we’ll never forget
All those times:
Laughing.
Smiling.
Crying.
Fighting.
Gossiping.
These times have shaped us.

To me you are the greatest gift.
Never forget,
That you are my best
And only friend.

Dev A Dec 2011

It's Nice to Know

It’s nice to know that you care.
It’s nice to know
That you see through
This invisible pain,
Through this invisible mask.
Wait!
I take it all back.
You don’t care.
You don’t pay attention.
You’ve turned away
One too many times.
I guess it’s my turn now.
Good-bye.

Dev A Dec 2011

My Mask

I'm all alone,
Or so it seems.
You can’t see through this mask?
How can you not?

You laugh
When you should cry,
Or cheer me up,
Why can’t you see through this mask?
No, I'm not crying.

Why did you turn away,
When you knew the truth?
Yes, I'm happy.

Can’t you see I'm lying?
Why can’t you see through this mask?
I love you,
But you don’t love me.
I'm okay with it.

Wait!
Why are you walking away?
Why can’t you see through this mask?

I'm sad,
I'm tired,
I'm fine,
There’s nothing to worry about,
I can’t wait!
Why can’t you see through this mask?
Why can’t you see throu---never mind.

I can see
That you just don’t care.
That you don’t want to care.
That you are incapable of caring
For others.

I guess I’ll leave now.
And never come back.
It’s just easier this way.

Hello darkness.
Hello pain.
I'm you new best friend.

Good-bye world.