No one was there for her
She was dying inside
Beaten and abused
Her whole life went awry

So when she got pregnant
She killed herself
Not able to come to terms
With the fact
Her own brother
Got her pregnant

So especially ****** up he
Probably doesn't
Even care that I need him
Countless memories of hurt
In my head
All make me feel
Like I'm so **** special

Painful childhood
Lead to a sad,
Broken little girl
Who never knew what to say

Those words
Sharper than the
Blade of a knife
Killed her inside

****, *****, fat ugly
All turned her into
One ****** up
Broken little girl

All those words that broke
Some younger version of
That lonely little girl
Are the words that
Made her strong enough
To speak out today

Your words they bite
Like venom from a snake
Inserting themselves
Right into my veins

They flow right through me
Move to the rhythm of the beat
Causing me to act on impulse
Change who I am
Heed the call of the wild
Just for you
To accept me

You don't know
No you don't care
What your words
Have done to me
Created the heartbeat
Dead inside of me

Insecure in her skin a
Human breathing puppet
Why don't you open the door
Welcome her inside
Let her know there's
Somewhere she belongs

That girl is lonely
Wears her heart on her sleeve
She wants to be found
Wants to belong to somebody

That girl has no one
Nowhere she belongs
This is a shout out to the world
For someone to find her

That girl is hidden
Behind books and poetry
That girl is dying inside
That girl is me

I'm broken and
I'm bleeding
I'm not the person
You wanted me to be
But you can have
All these shattered
Pieces of me

You want me
You take all of me
My many flaws
Covered up by painful scars

You want me then
You accept my past
All my failures,
My guilt, my shame

You want me you have to work
I promise it won't be easy
To take my pain away
Kiss away all the scars
Heal the pain
Protruding in my heart

You want me
You shower me
With love and affection
Show me what it's like to be loved
Take my hand as we
Throw ourselves into the unknown

No more cutting she says
Lying through her teeth
I haven't done it she lies
Trying to appease her girl
I won't hurt myself she says
She tries to convince herself
That her lies will become truth

She knows it's wrong
What she's doing
How she's lying
About her mental health
She can't help it
The secrets are
Holding together
Her sizzling sanity

She hurts herself secretly
Hiding in the dark
Trying to keep it together
Even though she's
Falling apart on the inside

She promises herself
One day these lies will come true
Fake it until you make it
That's all she has to do