derelictmemory

derelictmemory Jul 2013

Misery

I've tried to look past
this misery
but I can't deny
it's been seeded in me

Another day
Another fake smile
I haven't meant any of those
in quite awhile

I love the darkness
It's been ever so kind
in slowly destroying
this heart of mine

Sometimes the sadness takes over
and all I feel is despair
but what is the rain
without a little cold air

There are times
when I'd like to give up
But I find myself
in a colourful strangers hug

I feel the hope
of being happy again
but as quickly as it came
it went

I try to hide
this misery of mine
A misery so overwhelming
a sadness so unkind

The roots of them all
I cannot omit
When summer turns into fall
This flower will wilt

Sitting in the corner
Lonely yet fine
I let misery consume me
and **** me from behind

derelictmemory Jul 2013

Darlin'

Oh, sweetheart
Don't you cry
Darlin', we love you
Don't wave goodbye

There's so much more to life
There's so much left to try
Don't give up, Darlin'
Don't you say goodbye

I can see the tears
I can hear the cries
Darlin', I'm here
You're not alone, sweetiepie

I know I went away
but you'll see me again
I may be invisible
but you are still reparable

Darlin', don't fret
I'll be fine
and you can bet
I'm never sayin' goodbye

I know it's hard
but you'll get through it, sweetheart
I'll be here in soul
Until the days you grow old

Darlin', stay alive
Don't shed a tear
Don't wonder why
Don't ever say goodbye

I'll be here watchin'
Even when the sun is settin'
Darlin', I love you so
Sweetheart, don't let go

I may be gone
but not for long
I'll be in your heart
Even through death we will not part

Darlin', don't be sad
Yes, it feels bad
Darlin', see the sun
You'll be happier, you'd have won

Darlin', I love you so
but if you let go,
Darlin', I will leave
take care of yourself please

derelictmemory Jul 2013

Silent Goodbye

The words are blind
The sights divine
Thoughts unheard
Feelings untold

She was afraid
Afraid to live
Afraid to smile
Afraid to try

It was hard to breath
Her heart palpitating
Her hands shaking
Her mind overtaking

Felt like a nuisance
A blur of emotions
Forever a burden
An unlikely acquaintance

It was hard to breathe
She couldn't see
The words were pouring
Her thoughts appalling

What do you say
To a girl so grey
Not sad, not happy
Some freak in between

The voices were screaming
Her mind unwilling
to let her sanity be
demanding to be set free

Alone and lonely
Her thoughts, "If only…"
How does she deal
with herself so cruel

The things she's said
The decisions she's made
The hearts she breaks
The smiles she fakes

So terrified of life
So fearful of sacrifice
Her heartbeats slowing
Her breathing shallowing

Her silent goodbye
went unheard
Her shortlived life
So full of hurt

♥

derelictmemory Jul 2013

One day

One day
It seems like a lifetime away
But you know what they say
it's only a day away

On that day
We'll walk hand in hand in the rain
Smile through the pain
We'll be together again

One day
It's only a world away
We'll see each other again
One day

One day
There'll be sunshine in the rain
We'll be happy, you just wait
for that day

One day
I'll fall in love with you
One day
maybe you'll fall in love with me too

derelictmemory Jul 2013

Rays

There are so many ways
To take your own life
Many think blades
would probably suffice

Focused on the dark
they never see the light
that even through shadows
still shine bright

Just like ying and yang
there are two sides
where there is doom
you'll still see light

When in doubt
look up in the sky
even when its dark
you'll see rays of light

Don't lose hope
yes, life can give you a fright
but keep that faith
and you'll see those rays

♥

derelictmemory Jul 2013

A Scarred Melody

Something you can't see
that falls to deaf ears
You'll never hear her screams
or see her clear tears

Every night she wishes
for the same bohemian things
Beauty, Love and Truth
in a melancholic rhapsody

Secrets and scars
usual occurences in her life
the moonlight and stars
Keeping her alive

She believed in silly fantasies
She reached for unattainable dreams
Her soul longs for so much more
but her heart can't settle the score

Drowning in emotional debt
due to her misplaced bets
too many things to do
the only person she wished for is you

To be able to hear her song
that had been playing all along
yet no one could hear or see
her heartbreaking scarred melody

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