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493 · Dec 2016
The Divine Storm
Dennis Meeker Dec 2016
As I press on the fog is thicker,
I can't see as it's getting denser.
Where I will end up i don't know,
but I'm starting to feel tenser.

As the mist settles down and I can see,
I just can't help but wonder if I'm free.
That's all I've ever wanted,
But all I get is to be haunted.

I'm getting scared for what might take place,
As I'm trapped in this tiny hellish space.
I want to venture and find a new life,
So I can be set free from all this strife.

The clouds form into a storm,
Like the way everything takes a new form.
It's very ominous in this sky,
You could even say one could cry.

The thunder strikes and let's a loud roar,
But what is the strike really meant for?
The thunder is loud and makes it hard to hear,
And you'll wonder what you're doing here.

In the end after all the damage is done,
You start to think that storm has just won.
The storm has laid heavy burdens inside,
And you wonder if you may have died.

You know you need a new beginning,
But you never wanted such a terrible ending.
Why did all of this have to go on,
Maybe it was to make you be gone.

It may not ever be fair,
But what should be will never be there.
Who will make sure you're alright,
And make sure you don't take you're final flight?

You want to go and see that great Man,
But you wonder if you ever can.
But that is quite alright,
So don't worry about you're plight.

A second chance may await you very soon,
And you'll always be looking at the same moon.
As bad as it had seemed to be,
The storm really had set you free.

Say goodbye to this cruel place,
For maybe you'll beat it in the end of the race.
Don't turn around just keep going on,
Because one day it might just be gone.

Until the next time this is your last farewell,
Say goodbye as you leave this hell.
3/28/2012
483 · Aug 2014
My Life As A Shadow
Dennis Meeker Aug 2014
As I sit under a moon covered by clouds  
I can't think with my mind being so loud
At times I try my hardest to relax
But it is so hard knowing all of these facts

Maybe the wind can ******* away
To a place in the forest as all the trees sway
To become a part of this beautiful world
After all the times my lip has curled

The path that I choose will be that of aloneness
As I would then live a life feeling hopeless
My dreams show a life I have fought
While reality shows my life is naught
471 · Aug 2014
Imaginary Life
Dennis Meeker Aug 2014
I don't dream of many things
But I have had one dream for many years
It's the one I wish were real life
Only recently I've thought it may actually be

I've been having a surreal time
It's funny how it never lasts
This time I even knew why
It's as if the universe taunts me

I can never be left alone
I'll be in a worse spot than years ago
There is no place for hope anymore
It's either real or imaginary

It's an answer I'm afraid to know
I can't avoid it much longer
It's been too many years
I can't go on like this

Maybe I shouldn't even try
Maybe the worst is inevitable
My mind is always deceiving me
It is the worst feeling

It keeps me up every night
I only dream while awake
I know I won't make it genuine
My dreams become my worst nightmares
456 · Jul 2013
Trying To Be Me Again
Dennis Meeker Jul 2013
I wonder why I feel the things I do.
But yet I know exactly why I do.
I cannot help but to fight myself.
It's the only way I can feel alive.

Sometimes I feel like I am way up on a cloud.
Other times I feel like I am dissolving in a thick shroud.
I just cannot stop the battle inside of me.
It almost seems important to me.

But why would I need such a thing?
It is so aggravating to feel this way.
My mind cannot help but to go astray.
It is not fun for me that's for sure,

But I just cannot seem to bring my heart back to shore.
420 · Sep 2014
I'm Bleeding
Dennis Meeker Sep 2014
It keeps happening
I can't stop it forever
Eventually I'll return to years ago
You were always able to stop me

You gave me hope
I need something to help
I can't do this alone
I want to do it again

If I'm here I can't be stopped
I can't fight it much longer
I want to put it off forever
It's just so tempting though

I think I'm doing something wrong
I don't want to fail you
I don't want you mad at me
I just feel like I need this

I tried it one night
It was before we were torn apart
I couldn't do it though
I thought of you and stopped

I can't keep doing that
I'm just so angry inside
I need to change
I need you here with me
419 · Nov 2012
Raided By A Creature
Dennis Meeker Nov 2012
This person,
Creature,
This, thing in me.
What is it?

This is not me.
This is not who I am.
It's not who I want to be.
Why is it in me?

Can I ever be free?

I will let go of everything soon enough.
It can happen.
Of course it can.
When will I be able to?

I will destroy this monster.
I will be new.
No, I will be me.
I will return to myself.

When can I be back again?
405 · Mar 2014
What If I Leave?
Dennis Meeker Mar 2014
I'll be there
Do you actually care?
Why should you though?
I'll just rot away slow.

Without the real view,
How do I know if it's all true?
Now let it all out.
Get out and find what it's about.

Why am I even here?
Can't I just leave you here?
I don't deserve to be here.
I can't stand always being in fear.

I want to leave this place.
I want to go away into space.
I hate living in this fear.
I want to give up and leave you here.
I was in a bit of a different state of mind.
405 · Nov 2012
Your New Temple
Dennis Meeker Nov 2012
Why look for all of those pieces,
In and out of all the creases?
Build yourself newer, stronger walls.
Build them where you don't have to watch as it all falls.
Watch as your strength suddenly increases.
397 · Aug 2014
Forbidden Future
Dennis Meeker Aug 2014
Reality is getting hard to bear
I'm not sure what is really there
What I want isn't here
When I open my eyes my nightmares appear

When I close my eyes you're there
I can't help but think it isn't fair
I miss having you to hold
I want you with me even when I'm old

I guess you could say I'm scared
There's never been someone like you who cared
You've done so much for me
And I still don't feel free

I feel so lonely here but I'm not alone
I miss being with you when the stars shone
Everything I do goes back to you
I don't know what else I can do

I don't want to be older
The winters have been colder
If we get separated for years apart
Please don't forget about my part
396 · Nov 2012
Space
Dennis Meeker Nov 2012
Ah, my paradise
As the Earth flies through the stars
I lay back with it.
388 · Apr 2013
The Change
Dennis Meeker Apr 2013
I feel horrible at times.
Like I'm a terrible person.
Maybe I am.
I try so hard to be who I want.  
It's been so long since I could.
I don't know who I am.
I'm lost in what the world wants me to be.
Who I am isn't who I want to be.
I hate change,
But I have to be the change.
380 · Aug 2014
Together
Dennis Meeker Aug 2014
By now you must know how I feel
You know I how much I care
You know what I really want
I know you can see that

I don't know why I waited so long
Just one second is all it takes
But I've wasted so many long years
Years that could have meant so much more

I can no longer get a nice welcome home
I will be stranded and strained
Trying to resist will take incredible strength
For your sake and mine I can't

The possibility is scary
You know I want it to end
The fear and pain we both share
I can see it in your eyes

I know you aren't alright
Please let me see into you
Pull me in please
Pull me into the darkness

I will share what you have
You know that I need it
I never left this other world
The dark one I was immersed in

It's been many years now
And I don't know how much more I can take
I will be there in the darkness
Waiting to take your hand

I will never leave
I belong in this nothingness
I will stay here
And I will wait for you

You know what I want
We both know it
I wish we didn't pretend I don't feel
I wish we could feel what I do
together
379 · Nov 2012
Get Me Out Of Here
Dennis Meeker Nov 2012
I know this place.
This dark, horrid place.
This place is nothing but a nightmare.
A nightmare that eats me away.

I go round and round trying to get away.
Each time it's different.
Each time I feel different.
I know how to leave, but I feel at home.

I know it isn't right calling it home,
But where else do I have to go?
Who else can I turn to?
Who can I turn to besides the Dark?

No one cares enough to stay as much.
No one knows me better than it.
Maybe I do belong here.
In this scary nightmarish place.

It can't be true though.
I know someone will get me out.
Someone will keep me from walking right back in.
They will be my hero.

They will never be forgotten.
I will cherish that person forever and ever.
I need a savior to rescue to me.
I can feel them getting closer to me now...
378 · Nov 2012
December
Dennis Meeker Nov 2012
For as long as I can remember,
There's never been a wonder such as December.
The time where everything seems to happen together,
And all of those walks in the freezing cold weather.

The time of celebration begins as Christ was born,
Or awaiting the new year as the old one is torn.
Where friends get together and make new memories,
And they all share so much of the same energies.

The time where many sit and live out their days,
They feel as they will never make it through the haze.
Where cold storms blow and cause destruction,
For many it will be the ultimate corruption.

What it really is though is much more than this,
It can be a source of sorrow or bliss.
The winding hours of your year,
Will they be spent in more tears?
345 · Nov 2012
You Can Be New
Dennis Meeker Nov 2012
Forget about the bad things you've done.
The promises to yourself you've broke.
Forget them.
The choices that may be immoral.
Forget them.
The fights you've started.
Forget them.
The selfish deeds you've done.
Forget them.
The pain you have stored inside.
Forget that.
You are new and free to begin a new life.
Don't forget that.
319 · Nov 2012
Free Me
Dennis Meeker Nov 2012
I'm a victim in this violent world.
In this world there's a crazy flow.
It doesn't make any sense.
I really just want to go.

I'll be free from this world.
Free from the pain.
I don't like it here.
I find happiness but it turns to shame.

My anger turns to fears.
My fears turn to tears.
My tears turn to sorrow.
My sorrow bids goodbye to my morrow.
299 · Mar 2014
A New Voice
Dennis Meeker Mar 2014
Make a move
  There is no God
    Can I leave this place?
      Erase my memory from here.

I could leave someday
  Maybe even today
    Go into the eternal light
      Never return from the flight

Floating into the darkness
  Up and down , everywhere around
    So numb, am I alive
      Am I going away or moving in?

                          Am I still alive?



Do you think I am?



                                                 Do I want to be?



Why should I be?



Will I ever get a chance?
  Where do I go?
    Should I chase it?
      Is any of it worth it?

I want to leave
  I need peace
    I'm going to search for it
      I'm going away
299 · Jul 2014
The Death Of Me
Dennis Meeker Jul 2014
It has been raining all day
My mind is fogged by thick clouds of gray
I don't know where I am going
I have always lived without ever knowing

Soon I will be away again
I won't need to come back for my friend
I don't know how long I'll be gone
Until then I'll continue staying awake until dawn

My eyes can barely see anymore
My heart continues to sink to the floor
I want to be alone these days
That way I won't need to see that murderous gaze
251 · Mar 2019
Night of Thrill
Dennis Meeker Mar 2019
At night when you walk in the park
Looking around at the shadows and dark
Feeling a chill run down your spine
Knowing soon all will be fine

The look in your eyes is one that can ****
One of fun and of thrill
Endless joy and excitement awaits
Bringing you into your certain fate

Looking around at shadows and dark
Walking at night only for a lark
Finding your time has come at last
It's now time to forget the past
235 · Apr 2019
Screaming in Silence
Dennis Meeker Apr 2019
I have something to say
I don't know if I'm okay
All I know is that I tried today
I just want to go out and play

I'm floating in a river
So cold I'm starting to shiver
Drowning down in the swell
Feels like I'm getting pulled to hell

Never know what's going on
All I know is soon it'll be gone
Yelling quietly to those around
Maybe I don't want to be found

Nobody heard me scream today
I'm not sure if I'll be okay
I don't know if I tried today
All I want is it to go away
183 · Mar 2019
Life Askew
Dennis Meeker Mar 2019
I'm just a clone in this reality
An empty vessel on the sea
Darkness coming from the light
It never does say very bright

My heart beating like a drum
The faceless enemy making me numb
Feeding the fire that's inside
I guess I can say that I've tried

The haunting walls all around me
Years later and I'm still not free
Free to leave this space for good
All I can do is pull up this hood

Living in a hollow shell
How long, only time will tell
Melting away this wax cocoon
Smiling a hindrance rather than boon

This is not what I need
All I want is to be freed
I am destined to fall
Just to walk down a dark, empty hall

I promise that I will fail
To the dark world I will hail
I will continue try and try
Although I'm not quite sure why

From a young child to a hollow man
I've done all it is that I can
I welcome to my life all the danger
It is a part of me and is no stranger

I'll pay my toll at the gate
I may as well accept this fate
Until I find there's no way through
I'm just waiting in an endless queue
173 · Mar 2019
Bottomless Pit
Dennis Meeker Mar 2019
Digging a grave forever
Making a bed to lie in
To never wake up
And never pull myself out

Closing my eyes to see the world
Seeing the storms over it
Watching it all burn away
The oceans spilling from my head

There is no solace
It all burns away
Getting hotter every second
Eating away at my brain

The heart decaying
My legs get weaker
Feeling everything until it's gone
The air is numbing

Breaking walls that hide nothing
Burning the bridges of the future
Slamming my head to stop the noise
The silent screams never end

I need a hand to pull me out
But I don't want to go
Nothing good can come from it
The path has been scrubbed away

There is nothing left to lose
But I still want to keep it
Staying in the pit of darkness
An endless hole I've fallen into

I feel like I'm diseased
Poisoned without a cure
Seeing a light that isn't there
There is no point chasing it

I've given myself up
I've let go of everything
There's nothing left
No reason to move

— The End —