I wake in the morning
And again your on my mind
This excitement I feel for you
How I care for you completely redefined

This excitation when I think of you
My heart beating an affectionate song
I can feel and hear you breathing
In day dreams that are prolonged

The sight of you the smell of you
Mind races and I try to hold it in
Love has thrown me a sucker bunch
That's landed upon my chin

You say that you care
I wonder really
And in the night air
Its hard to think clearly
And as I start to cry
My whole body trembles
You don't want my love
My worlds in a shambles
And it isn't fair
To leave me here hanging
As I set here and stair
At the man in the mirror
I know you don't care
And it couldn't be clearer

Its been fifteen years sense I last heard your voice
Taken from all of us you didn't  have a choice
Gone from this world in just a blink of an eye
Still you had to leave us God has the reason why

You where never perfect had some human flaws
Did some heavy drinking your Demond's were the cause
But still you held your head up had integrity
Deep down you were a softie but intimidated me

And the way you taught us was harsh and never fair
But the way you loved us showed how much you cared
No one could ever read you...you were no open book
Build you up or break you down with a single look

You had the skill to make life the hardest of it all
You were always there for us all we had to do was call
You know I really miss you my heart your still part of
I know that you still love me and watch me from above

I look at you and I stop
Your so beautiful none can compare

I look at you and I stop
So  overwhelmed its hard not to stare

I look at you and I stop
I can't get past the smell of your hair

I look at you and I stop
I'm so obsessed it's not even fair

I look at you and I stop
You have me unconditionally ensnared

I look at you and I stop
Don't you know I'm walking on air

I look at you and I stop
I would die for you that's how much I care

I know this is not out of the blue
But I want to watch the starts with you
Out on a blanket on a warm Sumer night
Nothing more than total delight

Romantic and charming crickets in tune
No one watching us but the man in the moon
Shooting star in the night sky
I see it so clearly in my minds eye

Making a wish on that shooting star
Time spent with you is the best by far
Please take my hand on a warm Sumer night
Cause being alone doesn't feel right

What is the cost for love
The type that comes from God above
Pure and simple and complete
Always perfect forever sweet

What is the cost for love
The kind we have all dreamed of
Thoughtful and respectful always true
Never try's to smother you

What is the cost for love
The kind that your in awe of
Always makes up for time that's lost
Consistently gracious never cross

What is the cost for love
Only one price I think of
Is it the price of abstract art
True love will cost a broken heart

You are a beautiful woman
You know I more than tried
Explain these feelings for you
Now I keep them hidden inside

All the days I set alone
My mind is owned by you
Hide my feelings in my heart
Nothing else that I can do

You know how much I love you
I could give you so much more
I could give you more than feelings
Don't want to hide it anymore

You belong to someone else
I know he cares for you
Hide all the love I have for you
Something I have to get used to

If you could only feel my love or see how much I cry
Take a look deep in my eyes and you'll know just why
The key to all the answers are locked inside my eyes
The love I have for you should be no big surprise

I would do anything to have you by my side
The love that I have for you I never want to hide
This desire to love you has seized my weary mind
Just how much I care for you can not be defind

I am lost with out you and wander aimlessly
Do anything to be with you and do it shamelessly
Your my reason my hope my every little thing
And when I hear your name my heart begins to sing

Will to swallow my pride for you
I would even live and die for you
It's difficult to explain just how I feel
To live my life with you I know to be unreal

Every now and then when I look at you
Your beauty still catches me off guard
Pure seduction in your eyes and smile
I try to hold in my feelings but it's hard

Absolutely helpless when I look at your hair
As my heart beats much faster
Please forgive me but I can't help but stare
Hiding these feelings I wish I could master

I still hold that candle and it burns for you
My heart leaps from my chest
And all of this is true
To hold you in my arms is my only request

All this drinkin I am doing
Won't make your memory fade away
I've drowned myself in Kentucky Wiskey
My thoughts and feelings in disarray

This heart of mine has fell to pieces
A million shards laying on the ground
No doctor in this world could put it back together
So drinkin is the only hope for me in town

Every night I try to fall asleep cryin
But I'll just pass out again
I want to wake up with no lack of tryin
But I'll just come too again
I've played this game of love before
But your the one that I fell for
Now I'm drinkin with a broken heart

My friends say that I need to be careful
Cause I'm drinkin way to much
I'm head over heals *** over tin cups
Over you but clearly way out of touch

I have never drank like this before
But your the one that I fell for
Only wish that you could see
Now I'm drinkin with a broken heart

Every night I try to fall asleep cryin
But I'll just pass out again
I want to wake up with no lack of tryin
But I'll just come too again
I've played this game of love before
But your the one that I fell for
Now I'm drinkin with a broken heart

The snow is falling outside my window
Soft and easy like a melody
Though the cold comes off the window
The warmth of the snowfall is there for all to see

The moon is shining outside my window
Adding to the melody
In the silence of the of the moon light
Is a quiet snowfall for all to see

Outside my window the snow rests on the ground
Like a new warm blanket
Wrapping itself around the landscape
Bringing comfort for all to see

What's missing outside my window
Is a couple walking hand and hand
And their love that warms in the snowfall
That love for all to see

If you could see inside of me
My weakness for you is plain to see
My heart is as loud as a beating  drum
This devotion to you I can't escape from

The emotion for you runs through my veins
Passion and wildness are what they contain
Please look at my heart it's beating for you
Take hold of my hand and please pull me through

I'm in a trance and it's all cause of you
This affection for you do not misconstrue
The kiss of true love Snow White did look for
It's all waiting for you to knock on my door.

Every time I look at you
I feel it running through my veins
Your perfect smile your eyes of blue
My love for you remains

Your my unblemished Angel
Sent down from the sky
I share with you my everything
To you I tell no lies

I want you as my lover
But need you as a friend
That way I will always know
Our affection will never end

It's sad to say I do know
Someday that we will part
But my friend let me say
Your always in my heart.

Woman you show me wonders
And you shake my mind
You live so free and easy
Want to be with you until the end of time

Your heart is wild as horses
Your life is flowing like a stream
And when I lay down at night
Your are running through my dreams

Your as sweet as honeysuckle
I can feel you in the wind when it blows
Can you feel my love for you as it starts to flow

And I’ll be there when the morning comes
To hold you by your hand
Your cornerstone to comfort you
To tell you I'm your man.

She knows as she walks by me
That she's all I see
Now there's  an empty stare
She's looking worse for ware

As she turns to me
Again she's all I see
Now she speaks in tongues
Her words they come undone

She walks away from me
You know she's all I see
I have to say it straight
She's in a fragile state

I want her to come to me
Because she's all I see
But she's lost in the dark
She's got a heavy heart

Now she's leaving me
But still she's all I see
All I can do
Is hope she makes it through

You most likely know this
But I think of you fondly
Each and every day

The warm scent of your hair
The sound of your voice
The strength that's in your eyes
Please know that I love you
Each and every day

I hope that you know this
I desire to love you
In oh so many ways
Each and every day

A walk in the park
Slow dancing for hours
Washing your back
When we're  in the shower
To take care of you
Each and every day

Maybe it's crazy
But it's all said an true
I honestly love you
Each and every day

Where did it begin
Tell me where did it start
That one precious moment
Where you captured my heart.

This is not something
Like a school boy romance
Show how serious my love is
If you gave me the chance

I can tell you it's not
Some physical ploy
What matters to me
Your hearts not a toy

I will help you to clean house
Even help wash the car
Cuddle up on a blanket
While gazing up at the stars

Mucking the horse stalls
Washing your cloths
The sweet kisses I give you
No one will know

I know it's a long shot
To have you by my side
Please know that I do love you
Something I never will hide.

Today is your birthday
And I hope it will be
A day you remember
Something special you see

May it bee filled with joy
And people you love
And may you be blessed
By the Man up above

Let there be lots of laughter
And warmness to share
With heart filled greetings
From people who care

But today on your birthday
The gift I give you
Is my love and my friendship
One that will always be true

I never knew a woman so beautiful
As beautiful as you
A woman so wonderful
That's part of your beauty  to

I never knew a woman so understanding
Who could feel the way I feel
Just always know what to say
Never fake but always real

I never knew a woman who cared for me
Not quite the way you do
Never ever lead me on
Every word from you is true

I never knew a woman as desirable
Your smile leaves me wanting you
Leave me short of words and of breath
Weak and shaking too

I never knew a woman who can break my heart
And I would still be by her side
I'll be the one to never leave
My love for her I'll never hide.

It's 7 AM and again
Your not with me
But you don't live here
In another bed is where you"ll be

Warm and safe there
I know you will be
It's your mind and emotions
That need protected you see

But you'll never leave
Because he is  all you know
With him such a long time
Your afraid of letting  go

You'll feel like a woman
If you were with me
Gent-ally pampered
Like a woman should be

It's  7:15 now
And your not with me
Unless something changes
That's the way it will be

There is a chill in the evening air
As I stand alone in the moon light
Feeling your presence your everywhere
A comfortable feeling that's so right

As the moon light shines on me
I can feel your very existence
There are questions of what I see
Visions of you in the distance

I hear your voice in the breeze
As I look out over the landscape
Your image floats through the trees
You are everywhere I can't escape

The stars shine big and bright
Just like your beautiful blue eyes
And they dance in the moon light
Take me to uncontrollable new highs

And as I stand still in the night
I reach out wanting to hold you
Feelings so strong and so right
Woman I can not forget you

Well here
Here  I am again
I'm laying in my bed
With you all in my head

Not sure on what to do
About these feelings I have for you
Just where do I begin
Cause I don't know what to do

And  I'm in so deep
Not wanting to let go of you
You got me from stop to start
Why can't I be locked inside your heart

You can tell its true
I'm such a fool for you
You could wrap me around you finger
Run my heart through the wringer

There's not much more to say
That I didn't say yesterday
Well here
Here I am again.

It's not a sad tale you find in a book
What's not been lost they came and took
Hanging on by a single thread
Knocked down drug out left for dead

There's now a cold stare with out a word
Tears in my eye the only thing heard
I know it's not a way to live
Knowing there's nothing left to give

On a road that goes nowhere
Broken down in need of repair
Under a strong and evil curse
I'm moving forward stuck in reverse

They say loves flame will never die
There are only so many tears you can cry
We've seen our share of ups and downs
Oh how quickly life can turn around.

Taken from me without a trace
As the tears continue to fall from my face
Life without you is a lonely place
My heart will never be the same.

On the bottom part of lonely
Drops of frozen tears I can't see
As I wander through our memories
I'm exhausted by the misery

Trying hard to hide my heartbreak
Every night I feel my bones shake
Imagine all that will never be
And all the secrets that are killing me

You know my heart is but an open book
And all the pages that you've over looked
You wrote the chapter with the bad dream
The only one that makes my soul scream

Devils and demons they whisper to me
An arrow less Cupid is crying for me
The queen of hearts will not set me free
This crush of love will be the end of me

Even before I wake
My mind anticipates the shake
Even before I am out of bed
My hand shakes like I said

Even before I am on the go
The shake follows don't you know
Even before I am out the door
Here comes the shake I can ignore

Even before the Meds kick in
I can't stop the shake from within
Even before you ask why
I have Parkinson's don't give me the eye

As I watch the sun set
The stars a magnificent sight
And your on my mind
On such a beautiful night

The night air is so clear
Fire flys in full flight
I wish you were here
On such a beautiful night

There's a delicate breeze
That feels ever so right
But your not with me
On such a beautiful night

This night is not perfect
Only one way it could be
To have you here with me
On such a beautiful night

I can feel you blushing
As I write these words
Not trying to embarrass you
Just wanting to be heard

You know I think the world of you
You know I more than care
My feelings are so strong for you
You got me floating in the air

I can feel your heart beat
From a mile away
I can feel every inch of you
At the start of every day

I feel a strong connection
Its part of you and I
We may never be together
But I will love you until I die

I was born in a place
Where friends and family interlace
I am a good and honest man
Trying to live my life the best I can

But I can't walk away from what we had
Tell me how did it all go bad
The best of love I gave to you
Goodbye on a note pad I came home to

Goodbye goodbye
It was written there plain to see
In red ink you said goodbye to me

I have known many women
Maybe even loved a few
But I never love any woman
As much as I love you

And I came home to see

Goodbye goodbye
It was written there plan to see
Right there on a note pad
You said goodbye to me

As the day turns into night
Something doesn't feel right
Your so far off again
But I'm not like other men

Here killing time you see
Needing you here with me
But your so far away
That ain't no perfect day

And tonight it's going to be
Your absence killing me
But I will never walk away
Love for you is here to stay

My love is not a passing fad
Give you more than you ever had
If you could only  be
one night here with me
It would be the best you ever had.

Woman your are my Angel
The apple of my eye
But you belong to someone else
Now all I do is cry

I want to hold you in my arms
Make love to you soft and sweet
Give you all I got to give
Make you feel complete

Hand and hand I'll walk with you
To have all your love would be a thrill
If your going to be with me
It would have to be Gods will.

I know that you love him
This I know is true
But  I love you from a distance
It's all that I can do

You've  been with him a long time
You have a life with him
Providing for your two girls
That's why you stay with him

Give them something you didn't have
This I understand
I'll never try to change that
I hope you understand

So I'll love you from a distance
That's what I have to do
But  I am just an old fool
Hopelessly in love with you

See the questions that surface in my mind
And see the mistakes that I have made
Begging for a change for my lonely soul
Full speed emotional I'm losing control

Vanishing memories of what I said    
Apear to me In a vivid dream
Where I am in over my head
Not having you makes me scream

There is a chill in the morning air
I make a *** of coffee set down have a cup
In my morning meditation, ask the Man above
To watch over you, give you my love, let you know I care.

I ask that He protect you and keep you from harm
Give you all of His blessings, protect all that you love
Give you His strength and His wisdom
To change the things that you can, to rise up above.

I ask that He bless you with all that you need
Let your heart prosper, your soul fill with joy
Tell you that I am here and I love you
And may He tell you, I know your hearts not a toy

With all of my heart and all of my soul
I ask that He guide you on your journey today
I finish my coffee and look up above
Please Lord take care of this woman I love

Like water through your hands
Through your fingers like desert sands
It all just slipped right threw
It had to happen I always knew.

Something  that could never be
Love for her still burns in me
And I won't stop her
From walking away you see

Free to go her own way
Now my heart is a castaway
Stranded here for ever more
Like so many times before

You can walk away
But you will never forget
You will see my love for you
In every beautiful sunset

I said a prayer for you and me
To live our lives in harmony
To show each other respect and love
To have the blessings from the Man above.

I pray our friendship grows stronger everyday
To help each other in a number of ways
Give each other our heart and soul
To care for each other be the goal.

There will be days that I'm not around
But in your heart I can be found
When your troubles are set aflame
I will be there just call my name

Pray He bless the love that I give to you
Bless the love coming back from you
To give to each other strength and love
That's what I asked for from the Man above

I will never have to explain why
All you need to do is try
Look inside my heart
You will see the tears I cry

These words I have written down
Come straight from within my heart
The intensity of my emotions
Have been a blasé here from the start

Born from beautiful emotions
Theses feelings can not be bad
Overwhelming pleasure and weakness
Their like nothing I ever had

The strength of these feelings
Are rushing through my veins
Positively honest feelings
Her beauty fans the flames

I am talking about my love for her
Simple plain and true
I know that this is love
Thats the way I feel for you.

When my time is done
Will there be anything left undone
And will I have left a mark
Before the day that I have to depart

When my time is done
Will they see the man I have become
Will they see inside my heart
And all that I have overcome

When my time is done
Will they see the bad things I tried to outrun
And all the even deeds that I have done
Will they see how much I tried
And when I failed how much I cried

When my time is done
Please burry me at sea
No need for a head stone
No one will remember me.

I would never have the need
To keep you on a leash
Free to be just who you are
Why would I want a leash

Free to grow and free to be
The person your meant to be
Never to be your keeper
Cause you mean the world to me

Love is what would connect us
Our hearts would beat as one
That's what would keep us together
Never be under my thumb.