sensation of sepulchral chasm inside my chest
threatening to devour me from inside out
knowledge is power, they say
but this I don't want to know
too late! the genie is out of the bottle
never to return
knowing can't be unknown
I turn to dust inside
I'm done

existence is perception
colored by opinion
  tainted by influence
modified by judgment

  you are my soul
living outside of me
  feeling my sensations
mirroring my love

It's good to be alive
  no matter worries, struggles, surviving
    breathe in, blood pumping
You are loved by someone

It's good to be aware
  inter-connected, a ripple in the pond
    stream of consciousness
You have value in this world

It's good to be alive

Swallowed up by feelings, needs, wants, wishes
stifled thoughts beating against ivory cage
muffled heart beats, ka-thump, ka-thump
pure emotions puddle, then drip through your fingers

moments apart are an eternity
    hours together are a blur
        wrap space and time fabric
            around us forevermore

a single tear rolls down my cheek
I see your life in focus
a world I thought that I'd fit in
now knowing that it's hopeless

surrounded by a quiet grace
there's love, and peace, and laughter
I have no business in this place
no happy ever after

I stand outside your happy hearth
ashamed for my mortal sin
forever doomed to be the one
on the outside, looking in

In love with two hearts
such a cliche
should I go?  should I stay?
it wasn't supposed to be this way

love that's steadfast, know it's mine
love that's stood the test of time
love that's passionate, burning true
love that's fresh and wild and new

no easy answers, no right or wrong
melancholy timeless song
life thrown into disarray
it wasn't supposed to be this way