Why is it so hard sometimes
to wear the smile everyone knows
Why is it so hard to talk to people.
Why can’t I seem to do a simple fact in life.
*Live

Are you running to fast?
trying to keep up with the leader?
but the people you want to watch,
are looking the other way?
you glance up to see there
encouraging smiles
but one stairs off into the distance
the other on the phone.
Do you wonder if they see you about
to take first place only to trip and fall
because you looked to see if they
were watching you.

Afterwards they don’t even
ask about the fall.  
they congratulate you,
after you lie to them
saying you got first.
They go back to their business.
You go to your brothers meet
they sand up yelling and screaming
at him to go faster and critique him
at the end of the day
and you wonder do they even see you.

When you swim no one can
see the tears they just fill
your goggles lap after lap
tell your eyes are dry
nothing left.
It’s your world no one to
ask the questions you don’t want
to answer the things that
creep around and scare you
the things you are running
from inside.  

But what if your tired
or running, with no stop
you want someone to
dive in and find you
and pull you out.
To not be alone in the
world anymore, to have
a hand to hold, someone
to hold you, before the
screams come.