When you miss
Everytime night turns darker
Gloomy soul and uncertain heart
Trying to fix the shattered pieces into one.

Connecting all the dots
Over thinking, tiring mind
Regrets and sadness shall leave
There always room for believe.

Happy and smile degraded
Where you’ve been missing dear?
Only if anyone, anyone ever understand
That I’ve been living better and able to stand.

Love, I still couldn’t find you.
But I’m sure you’re the most I need to go this through.

There is no exist regret
I believe this is not the end yet
Thank you dear ego
You win again ever since 22 years ago.

Her thoughts dangling everywhere
Thinking, wandering, whinning
And it seems she won't lose
If she never tried different voices.

Now it's your lost dear
Who else to tell, who else to hear
Fighting over the fine line near the border
Again, shouldn't be regret over wasted tears.

I once created you for her dignity
Now you growing stronger over her pride
I still shall not trying to get rid of you
You worth there saving her from falling apart.

Is this a fight over yourself?
Is this a lost over somebody worth a lifetime?
The feeling remains dormant
Quiscent till it is open by the fate written.

There goes another chance blew away
When words going astray
Left unspoken
Hope what's in heart never break apart.

What the truth speak
What the liars did
Honesty kills
Another games of spinning wheel.

When everything were merely bitter
Who knows the smile hide the thousand tears
The unpredictable prayer goes for the better
Just another curtain of life of hers.

The smirky smile,
Stay, *yours truly.

I believe everything written with bless
For You the only One who never left
Never let the hidden part of yourself
Sunk under what people said the best.

Who am I again
Crawling through unexpected obstacles
Trying to escape the bitter reality
Living in the world of nostalgia and melancholy.

Will you stare at the mirror
See through someone you never want to know?
Will you stand over the decision
That you never thought you will win?

And again no one will listen
No one to share
I'm here praying to only You
I will handle myself with care.

Who speak about trust
When it's just a word lose over a lust
Who speak about love
When you know it's nothing like a story of two doves.

This is the reality
This is just a dream
And exist the *'You and I'
A final hope to try
When the right time comes by.

We ******* up
We messed up
We tear apart
We break a heart.

This will end soon
Night replacing the noon
Day goes on and on
And for all the chances left
All I hope to bless this mess.

You give me those feeling of love
Whenever I go through You
You give me those feeling of miss
Whenever I thought of You
You give me those feeling of happiness
Whenever I spoke about You.

Just a clean white love
Just the plain blank paper
Just an empty black space
And when the day comes
Let us fill it with light and beautiful sight.