what an amazing find you are to sore eyes in the middle of deliberate storms
what's even more astounding is the way you hold the reins of words and pour into me
then shock comes when I see you made a find

you found yet another slice of me
you scare me so with this alarming skill you have
spiking paranoia like big balloons in sky, waiting to pop

there must be sides of you I do not know
and keepsakes that you keep from me
but I do know that I will not FIND another *you

a chest that tightens, a hold that grips
a life that slowly dies while still breathing
all I really need is for someone to be there
just to confirm I'm not alone in this struggle
wrestling with things that force the locks of sanity

we hold on, we conform
but if we let go of expectations, how easy it could be
the battle to maintain claims a severe price in time and soul
can we just be there for each other, dear?

thank you for being there, for breathing

don't utter the words then
for fear i may go deaf

don't write it in a letter
for fear i may go blind

don't pluck my heart strings so
for fear i may go mad

fear not, i'll try not to worry
your heartbeat gave me the answer

place the poem in a bottle
set it upon the Atlantic

nay, my dear friend
cast dreams into the sea

i will find your message
in the next lifetime

meet you in the next..

you keep doing this
break the thread we build as if harm waits in my every move
bring your heart out into the open
and let me free to fly my ***** into the wind

you want me to taste you
(and I have, when you were sleeping)
who's really the wicked one here?
we both long to be
but something keeps us back

you brake
I brake
this creamydish vehicle
and we break away


until the next time again
see you, my love

how can I be just what you need?
soft words easily spoken fall out the ear eventual
gooey hugs make things sticky and sugarcoat what's real

what I need to be is
soil just right
for your flowers to grow in and thrive
you have to agree to take the knocks and life bruises
after all, everyone knows where the best compost comes from

(so glad to see you, my love)

tremendous power in your gorgeous eyes and (h)(e)(a)(t) on your tongue
that word would catch fire in your mouth
it's better to approach right after a shower
for fear of igniting in your entrancing stare

you are (f)(i)(r)(e) kindling my woken want
and I'm getting dryer now


(the deep forest catches that untainted downpour)


maybe I too
like playing
with fire
(yours)

I follow what you say

you're stepping gingerly through someone else's  fracas
pieces strewn all about
how can there be place for me?

you're asking me unambiguously to step back a little
very hard to do
where to place this gift of love?

you're struggling to find ways to keep breathing
as am I
here, you can have my heart

so you can breathe

on leaves you peck off with the lightness of ease
sunspots pierce through and green light shines
light rains fall
and its regular beat goes in time with mine

I'm glad for your will that bends
means you make room for another
namely, me

may light rains fall on
and give relief to your sad but beautiful heart

what was said that made you mad?

silence shrouds the me of you

place the sauce in pan

pick up the sizzle



and you **** the you of me

so distant

this calculating game feels hard

get me on board and coax my fears

then so easily, cryptic break



you said it all - without a single word

t(ouch)é