If we met by chance, on some warm and windy day
Would you still remember me? As you went on your way
Would you still recall my face, or would you walk on by
Could you notice silent tears, descending from my eyes
To think you wouldn't notice me, and know me from the start
Might rip away my dreams, I fear the breaking of my heart
Passing me without a glance, and I knowing that you
Would force me into sorrow, as I watch the avenue

And though you look at me sometimes, you don't know my name
What has caused creation of this cruel, heartbreaking game
To stand here in my window, days and years of time have passed
I've stared upon the life you live, my memories never last
In rain and winter's wind, I have watched you walk along
I stand, bathed in artificial light where I belong
No word from you, no joy, no smiles there in your heart
It seems that windows keep us close and yet, so far apart

I know you think of love sometimes, but never that of me
To you I seem as nothing as for myself, I will agree
But knowing what I do, I think of love in my own way
The love of life and freedom, from this hardened heart they've made
It saddens you to think about the loves that you have crossed
Myself, I have no sadness, having no love I have lost
These windows keep me in, but they hold me out as well
Outside the world passes by, how long?.. no way to tell

You travel through your world, but I live within myself
Isolated as I am, from items on a shelf
You look my way without a thought, at sedentary eyes
Then look away to far above, and clearing summer skies
But I see only you, and it is you that I may love
Not knowing what the meaning, not advised in concept of
It seems to me, as I look out upon the avenue
Those who love are saddened, by the kind of love I view

Winters come and summers pass, the autumn leaves will fall
I desire once to close my eyes, a witness to it all
I've seen you pass a thousand times, I, still unknown to you
Alas! emotion lost to me, my thoughts I know, untrue
Perhaps someday you'll notice me, with someone else in mind
And enter my transparency, to make the choice you'll find
I'll watch you walk away once more, then... I, Mannequin
Shall pack away my hopes and dreams,
to be a man, again.

Dean Evans
3-4-08

Some said it was the angel in her eyes
Lost within the faded moonlight, evil in disguise
Broken hearts and wasted time, believing in her lies
She'll break you then forsake you,
though refusing is unwise

Somewhere in the starlight shines the answer
As you quickly go from agony to laughter
Your mind is weary, following the dancer
Her deadly touch that brings with it,
the cancer

She opens up the gate
you step inside to find it's much too late
To save yourself
You crawl the streets on hands and knees
you feel the pain you have the need
And somwhere in the cold, cruel dawn you see
But it can't be...

In long lost dreams she flies on through the night
Don't want to see her face again,
though you try with all your might
Longing for the one who brings your visions into light
It seems that this was meant to be

But it don't seem right...

She can look straight to your soul and sell you lies
Lost within the sliver mist, stands horror in disguise
Broken dreams and wasted lives
She cries....she cries...
The Angel hides the Evil in her eyes....

Dean Evans
7-24 2013

Id like to say I love you... but I don’t
I wish that it would fix the things gone wrong, but honey...it wont
Life has been unkind to us, I’ve lost those things my heart can trust
I’d like to say I love you...but I don’t

I’d like to say I’m sorry...but I’m not
We’ve left each other here alone, with the sadness that it’s brought
The things we said or left unsaid, still hurt my throbbing, aching head
I’d like to say I’m sorry ...but I’m not

We each made our mistakes my dear...It’s true
But all of mine belong to me and yours belong to you
Things have happened along the way, that caused the light to lose the day
Sorrowful mistakes were made...It’s true

Wasted years behind us...can’t you see?
Years we spent together, have destroyed the “you and me”
It took so long to fall apart, it crushed my bleeding dying heart
And wasted years behind us...set us free

Free to live my life in pain...for now
Free to cry for what once was, and maybe to survive somehow
The house is empty, rooms are dark, loneliness has left it’s mark
Free to cry within the rain...for now

You see.....
I’d like to say I love you... but i don’t
I wish that love could save us, although I know it won’t
Heartache here has found me, and my tears will someday drown me
So I’d like to say I love you...but I don’t

It didn’t have to end this way.......

Dino Evans
12-07-13

These old trees know my name
A thousand times they have seen my passing
A soft hello from me old friend
Another tearful goodbye...

The time has come to rest
Old legs are weary, the miles I have come
Just to see you again, and then
Too soon I must go... too soon

I wonder.. will they look out for me?
For a thousand seasons, awaiting my return
Only to silently weep their autumn leaves
In my memory...

Dean Evans
2-23-10

Your heart, like stainless steel
Cuts into me like a knife
To leave my bleeding heart unattended... dying
The phone doesn't ring...it's you
The mail doesn't come...it's you
The pain never stops...it's me

Day after unending day I die
With no one there to save me
Nothing can stop it
No one cares...

The pain of watching my love flow out of me
Onto the cold dark ground
Is torture to my lonesome soul
When...Oh when
Will my dying end...

Dean Evans
11-11-07

Listen to me children, to the tale I now recite
There are strangers in the dark, within the cold embracing night
They watch you as you walk along , there...
standing out of sight
To take away your happiness, and steal from you your soul outright
And though you may believe that I am leading you astray
Believe me when I tell you that they stand in silent, silver gray
Mirroring your every move to slowly rip your faith away
To leave you lost in turmoil, and the things these words cannot convey

Demented thoughts will haunt your mind, and so your heart as well
In the midst of what you once believed that Heaven would foretell
Insanity has found it’s way into your thoughts and there will dwell
You find your name upon the list of lost, and lonely clientèle
Nothing to perhaps remind you what has left you here, forlorn
Thoughts that now belie your mind, it’s madness now that does adorn
Your hollow faith in grace of God, upon remote and golden borne
Turn away my friends... before the lowest point of no return

Perhaps my thoughts misguided, mistaken, incorrect
It’s possible that I may be the only one with hope subject
I tell you this please understand, I do so now with all respect
I feel I must impart these warnings, heed my words without neglect
For if you do I fear that you may fall into the cold abyss
To find you are forever lost, your dreams of Heaven hence dismissed
Hell may call you out, and you will find that you cannot resist
Sleep eludes me yet again, and so my thoughts of fate persist

So listen to me please my child, I have not left the time
To tell you how things sadly are within the realm of my decline
Forgotten now are days of light, far lost inside a troubled mind
These feelings that cannot be felt among the words of dreary rhyme
It seems that now it’s much too late for me to warn you what is there
I wonder if the days ahead will find you still so doctrinaire
I beseech you do not follow me, to leave you with unanswered prayer
I leave behind my footprints...
in the burning sands of my despair...

Dean Evans
5/ 13/ 14

I may have drifted off that night, but it was only for awhile
Perhaps it was some fleeting dream, that came to comfort and beguile
But there I caught a glimpse of you, then I…
admiring your style
Awoke to sad uncertainty, and nothing there remained worthwhile
My room became a place to just lament my broken, shattered dreams
Where thoughts come much too rapidly, and desperation reigns supreme
I exist within the iron gates of sorrows deviltry regime
With no escape from hopelessness,
at least for now that's how it seems

I cannot comprehend these things within my mind, that are
I cannot help but feel that it is good and evil, still at war
The meaning for my every thought is lost and trapped, in the obscure
Time passes as the ages, and leaves me here no hope of more
The clock continues spinning on it’s violent descent
Down to the day my dreams are gone, and all desire has so been spent
The moment actually may provide me peace…at least
to some extent
I only hope the memories of you and I, will not relent

To leave my mind unable to recall those thoughts of you
The times now past, that my poor heart continues to pursue
To never see those moments shown,
in memorial review
Too many tears.. too many years... my heart cannot see through
And so I hope to drift to sleep, if only for a while
To sit and watch you come to me, admiring your style
Although I know these dreams of mine will end with dawns revile
And only those split seconds will remain...
And to Beguile.

Dean Evans
12-08-14