i will love you
with everything
i have left.
my heart has been through war
but
even with wounds
i will kiss you with air.

this moment it's gonna be alright,
this time i'm gonna be ready,
you’ve fallen in love like a hundred times
and
you’ve got all upset
and
realized they were wrong for you
it's just a phase
it's just a phase

hi, how are you? im sorry for reaching out to you but it seems i just couldn't get it outside my head even though i will get over it, eventually. i just wanted to say im sorry for making you feel ****** the last time we had a conversation, it was never my intention to do so. i never expected that we could just end that way, and im sorry. i know you were so mad at me about it but really i never thought of you that way, its never across in my mind ever. anyway, thank you for making me the happiest person in a while even though it was really short. thank you for the calls, laughs, and time. i just wish we had a better breakup. i hope you happiness always.

on a fine day,  i would take you to the beach so we can sit and eat and we could just order so many takeouts from a Chinese restaurant.
on a fine day, i would take you to a park and i will teach you how to skate.
on a fine day, i would take you to a pottery class and we could make ugly art together.
on a fine day, i would take you to a dog park so we could play run and catch with Lulu.
on a fine day, i would take you to a coffee shop and we would just be sitting next to each other while reading books together.
on a fine day, i would just pick you up and drive to nowhere listening to songs.
on a fine day, i would take you to museums and i will hold your hands while we're passing some arts we sure we don't know anything about.
on a fine day, i would take you to concerts and we could just dance our *** off.
on a fine day, i would take you to an airport date and we could just be anyone we wanted to be.
on a fine day, i would take you to nowhere so we could spend some time watching movies and play games.
on that fine day, i would make you the happiest person in this whole world.

i always hate when its raining,
i hate how it smells
and
how everything got so soppy.

but then,
we were driving back and forth
and
that day wasn't that bad
and it turns out that was one of my favorite afternoon.

partly because you were in there with me,
partly because when you talk everything stops and there is nothing more beautiful than how you describe things you like,
partly because your eyes sparkled when you sing the song that you like,
partly because when you smile my heart skips a beat.

You turned 24. You died at 23. Suicide. You used to left me a voicemail message, telling me how much you loved me. You died down the street from where we first really talked and got to know each other again after so many lifetimes of being apart. You promised me your blood, your fealty, your heart. I gave you everything I never had. I love you. Forever. I'll come to see you as soon as I shake loose this mortal coil. I love you. Goodnight.

and no matter hard i tried
no matter how hard i really tried
at the end of the  day
its always you
and maybe you don't care anymore
you don't want to know any more
i love you
in silence without everyone have to recognize
and it's fine
because watching you from the far
is some kind of a whole new level of love
and i don't care if you still
but i will always love you
always
in my silence
always
always
always