If you were a word you would have no definition
How can one describe that which is indescribable
The breeze smells sweet when you walk by
When we clasp hands the warmth burns my soul in the best way
You say you're filled with darkness but I only see light
Brighter than the sun, it burns to look at you
But I wouldn't dare look away from something so beautiful
Everywhere we go is a land of milk and honey
You'll never be a word
Since I've turned you into poetry

Lullaby my baby
Sing me straight to sleep
I could drown in your brown eyes...
Time,
And time,
And time again
The days are hourless
And I am powerless
I lay me down, and close my eyes
While you sing your lullaby...

If only you knew
My heart beats only for you
Love unrequited

It's easy to fly
You just have to spread your wings
Then take the big leap

Make it easier on me
At least take the pain away
All I have is a memory
And I fear it's here to stay

I remember you lying there
Your favorite floral dress cut up the middle leaving your chest bare
I knew they needed an opening to use the chest paddles and yell, "Clear!"

But I couldn't help thinking How could they dare?!
Leave her lying there,
In the open air,
Wearing nothing but her underwear?!

And her eyes were open...
Blink... ... BLINK!
Just tell me you're joking
I'll forgive you, I promise! I won't sit around moping
I'm wishing, begging, praying, hoping...

This is all your fault! Why couldn't you just stay?!
I was just sixteen, It was mean to leave that way
Especially when I had so much I never got to say...

Like "I'm sorry I stuck my fingers in your homemade Thanksgiving pie"
And "I'm sorry that I broke your T.V. and told you a lie"
"I'm sorry I faked sick just to stay out of school"
"I'm sorry I said '****' in front of you once because I thought it was cool"

"... ... ... I'm sorry I didn't sing at your funeral when it was all you really requested...
But afraid it wouldn't be perfected,
Your one request rejected,
I choked.
And by my own cowardice, I was bested"

So many memories and regrets swirling in my head...

"I Love You Mommy..."
That's what I should have said...

I've seen you before
Sad one
You think you're nothing
That this world in you're absence will become some bright flowery garden of eden
Peace will fill the land
And cup will overflow with milk and honey...
But no...
In reality the world would crumble into a vast wasteland of sorrow and darkness
The world of a Mother
Who went through 29 hours of natural birth just to hear you scream for the first of many times
The world of a Father
Who swore by God no harm would ever come to you
The world of a Sibling
Who lookS to you as an example and a mentor
The world of a Best Friend
You know, the one you've known and grown with since K-1?
And lets not forget dear old Spot
Who will sneak him treats under the table?
You see?
If you leave not only does the world not get better
But you actually destroy a magnitude of precious Worlds in the process
So please...
Take off your coat...
Stay a while.

You like me, right?
We're going to be together forever
We'll build a home together
Raise a couple kids
Embrace them as we see them off to college
As we exhale for the very last time
We'll be hand in hand
Never leaving each other's side

You love me, right?
This is how it will be
When you're through ******* me?
We just have fallen so hard in just moments
That you can't resist me anymore...

Right?

But I know this isn't the truth
Clasping at a nonexistent shred of hope
This isn't passion
There is no love here
But I mix denial with benefit of the doubt

And deep down I know what you, like all the others, want
I don't want to give it, but I let you take it anyway
I feel every ****** in my soul
Dignity and Pride dying slow
I said yes

But ... ...