If every atom of my being was once that of another
and when i die
they will become atoms of another
than i have had near infinite lives
and will have nearly infinite more

if my conscious
is formed by chemical signals in my brain
each chemical made of atoms
atoms shared between beings
than my conscious is made of others
and others will be made of mine

since no matter, no energy
is created nor destroyed
than my energy and the matter of my body
is constructed of the universe
and all being’s energy and matter
is constructed of the universe

I am one with this universe
we are all one with this universe
every bit of my conscious
is one with the universe
all consciousness
is one with the universe
my body and all bodies are one with the universe

There was a time
Not so long ago
I held my head a little higher
I felt more inspired
The little things never brought me down
nothing would nock me to the ground
My mind was on my spirit
I was finding my self, I could feel it
I was connected, in tune, in harmony

Now I'm out of touch
Isolated from my self
From my spirit
My mind tortures my body
Im losing control
Anger surges inside me
Hatred for my self
Resentment of those around me
Distain of passers by

Every day I wait
is just another day waisted
yet Im caught in a web indecision
I fear that If I initiate the change
the change I think I want
when It comes to be reality
it wont be as I thought
and that change I'll come to regret

So the fear consumes me
paralyses me, ***** me dry
just as a spider does to a fly
so what the **** am I to do
I'm being stretched like a rubber band
soon I must snap

Something destructed
the alteration from last year to this
is killing me
most would say
“I got my life
on the right track”
but its not the right track for me

my nights of running through forests and bogs
from security guards and cops
and stumbling into my room late at night
not know how  I got home
have faded away
the animus of the party
replaced by a nothingness
by a drull, by routine
like a drought
my life is drained
of excitement and adventure.

She sought my forgiveness
but I denied her
the one who I loved
had hurt me so much

She was the cause
reason for my discontent
for the metastasis
of the animosity
that was a tumor inside my being
malignant and growing

Love and hatred
dissolved in each other
so when she told me she was sorry
that she loved me
that she wanted me back
I couldn’t accept her
I wanted to punish her
for her to feel the pain and illness
inside me which I held her responsible for

But time goes on
my hatred faded
my love stayed intact
I came to find
I had only punished myself
hurt myself further
each time I time I pushed her away
I dug my pit deeper

Now I stand at the bottom
of my expansive crevasse
staring up at the love I once knew
and could still have
if I had only forgiven her when she first asked

traveling on my own no longer have a home
got nothing to my name but a ticket for the train
I see you sitting  there all alone
buming for change
upon on a milk crate throne
I want no money
want no fame
all I wanna do is to be with you.

come on lets go
we can postpone the future
so we can have ourselves a grand adventure
just you and me we can travel the world
before every bit of it gets ******* sold
if we get lost we can find our selves
lets live a bit slower so we never grow older


you say you rather be all alone
you think you're better off on your own
give me a chance, I’ll prove you wrong
the trains gonna leave
believe in me I'll believe in you
just come with me you’ll have no regret
and the rough past I promise you’ll forget

Words
larger then the letter
which make them up
their meaning
their essence
far more expansive
then their definition

each word
the condensed state
of the idea they represent

People
far more complex
than the body
our worldly manifestation

every person
a condensed state
of who they are

like words
our bodys are simply
vessels
of entities and essences
too expansive for this world
fore everything is greater than it seems