Wise Sage Woman
Won't you tell me your secrets
Why do you smile like that
When you have seen it all go
Wise Sage Woman
Will you tell me your secrets
Of why you stand here
With your loving eyes
When you have seen loved ones die
Wise Sage Woman
Will you tell me secrets
Of where we all go before we die
Wise Sage Woman
Sitting there smiling at me
Please tell me your secrets
So I may finally be
She says young woman
Yes, Woman
Sit next to me
I'll tell you tale
Of witches and warlocks
Of fights, blood, and demise
Of true love, of love
Of conquer of pride
I've seen it all
Lived it all
And when it is time for me to go
I will bring it ALL with me
Because life's lessons are the biggest gifts I have ever recieved

Forever I denied the loveliness of wildflowers. Never wanting to admit I admire their wild beauty at play or that I felt like I was one of their own. So I took a long slumber that lasted more then winter always denying thy name. Ever changing and ever growing deep inside my earthly darkness. Creating weeds and spreading external havoc across fields luscious and green. Believing wild to be a treacherous thing. All consuming and never steady, never perfect as a rose tended in a garden. But then I awoke one day from my slumber and looked across the wondrous sky. Seeing for the first time all the beautiful colors that wildflowers create- pink, blue, yellow, and golden orange mixed into seas of green. I knew then and there I was claimed. Forever growing, forever being- beautifully imperfect like a wildflower. Wildflower I sang- at last accepting my name.

There's  a gentle softness
And it all seems to melt away
Oozing bliss in the cauldron *** of love

I tried to fix it all
but there was nothing to fix
I tried to be it all
but there was nothing to be

Then I looked into your eyes
And I saw the light
there it just was
there it just is

It scared me
to know a love like that
to meet it

So I ran
I ran so far away
Into the shadows

There I lost myself
There I found myself
But I still kept running

But you cant run from Love
Because love IS

Crying isn't just crying its waterfalls and oceans colliding creating massive thunderstorms

Getting angry isn't just getting angry it's eruptions and explosions wiping out buildings and burning down towns

But laughing isn't just laughing its full on bursts of happiness and joy
loud and echoing down hall ways

And being happy is never just being happy its the feeling of dancing on clouds or seeing the most perfect sunset

Feeling is never just feeling it can't be described by one word- one emotion, it's deeper, it's uglier, it's prettier~

I've walk the horror lines
I've had shadows take and break me
Bending me to their will for years to follow

I've told horrid lies
I've been deeply hurt and hurt others deeply
I've been consumed by the darkest of hell's madness
And I've been spit out- only to plunder further

But I thank God for all these moments
Sometimes even praise Her

For I have seen the prettiest of sunny skies
And felt the richest of earths
I have been brought to my knees in absolute joy, on several occasions
No pill- only real life ecstasy
I've sobbed in absolute love to the Heavens with my arms thrown high
Being consumed by how perfectly-imperfectly e truly is

I've laughed and danced with Angels
Racing them down mountains
Feeling their soft kisses tickle me while I pass them

I've sat whiling eating pancakes- chatting with Buddha about Jesus
I've held the wise hand of Pallas Athena
And feel her tall- glorious form continuously by me

I've felt the intoxicating- purifying of Divine love
Of All That Is and Greater
I've felt Her arms sweep around me and through me-
Hugging me to sleep
I've given Her a million kisses while she continues to give me a million and one

And,

I could ponder over and over again about the agony- the anguish
Stay **** in the unbearably horrifying moments
The ones that seem to rip my heart into a thousand unmendable pieces

Or,

I could smile at them
Release them
And let them go

I choose to wake-up and continuously swim in Heaven's pool of absolute magic  
Welcoming all that is humanly unknown to persist and exist

For -I- know, in All that is true and holy
I'll meet the laughter and feel the Greatest of love
Beyond forever and forever more ~~

There are words that haven't left their lips
Dark red oozing from their tongues
Waiting to exhale
To let all go
Reputing like volcanoes in ever lusting passion
Collapsing-swirling red ashes upon the living floor

The words that have been kept
Afraid to reek the havoc they've made
But lust consumes the sweet evergreens of earth
Wanting to explode and become the madness

A floating a red dream
Part of their firey density
Here they gleam in magnificent
Feeling so **** in the dark red dress
Exploring all their desires
Colors- twirling and whirling dancing in the fire

Oh beautiful red earth
Brush upon the skin now
Release from the finger tips
Spreading across the million red skies
Joining All to One time

Words do not escape like warm honey
They gather up like black molasses
Entrapped for all of time

Dare not speak them
Too prideful
To name would be to admit
To confess
Love fallen and no regret
To love without promise of  love
To fall in the infinite
Knowing not if one will be caught
Or bathed in pure bliss

Unspoken words are bottle up deep inside
Causing pain, anguish and sadness
An unfathomable hole of darkness
Awaiting recognition of it's true nature  

So lost in the illusion of what once was or could have happened
Too busy avoiding and hiding to pause and let the darkness unveil
To let it name itself for what it is
Only moving day through day with the undeniable need to unleash the madness

With the vial pulled over
The search for unknowable answers persist
Falling victim to loving others who do not love themselves
Lost in delusions
Constantly trying to escape truth
That will only be revealed when paused and left to be undefined