The first time I ever kissed a boy
I remember the sinking feeling
No rainbows or joy
There was no romance
No sparks or magic
Or fireflies that danced

The first time I kissed a girl?
Now that's a different story entirely
I felt a sudden explosion
Take place inside of me
I tasted happiness, serenity
I savoured passion and certainty.

I swear I felt the stars fizzle on my tongue
For the first time in my life
My heart understood
Where it should
Belong.

I cannot make light
Of it - is gone
In dark, grey is white
We've over drawn
Clumsily while night
Dies in the dawn
Sinking in the bite
Beneath a yawn
Responsive invite
That came out wrong

Windowless laughter
The ringing, gone
From a retreating
Right moved along

Concerted after
clinging so strong
Drums a repeating
yes, you belong

I cannot make light
Of it - is gone
I cannot make light
Of it - is gone
I chose not to fight
Knight with a pawn
Rope burns, lost the kite
Dug heels in lawn
Damning line too tight
To walk upon

I cannot make light
Of it - is gone
Verse whispered recite
replaces brawn
Determined polite
close liaison
I cannot make light

      Of it - is gone