My life has changed direction
Which way I do not know
Who can tell what happens
What tomorrows seeds will sow

My mind is playing tricks now
The changes I see unkind
She sees things no differently
The things I want too blind

She wastes away her final days
Sat rocking in her chair
Always fumbling with her hands
Her mind just doesn't care

Insanity strikes my thoughts
As each day comes and goes
The blank expression on her face
Is the only world she knows

My life has changed direction
Which way I do not know
Who can tell what happens
What tomorrows seeds will sow....

My mother has dementia. I will never leave her X

Always and forever you change just like the wind
Lost in your world with feelings I have sinned
Whispers of your love tease through the night
Awake in the morning you live in my daylight
Yearning to find the place where you might be
Solitude in this world I live, forever empty
Agonising emotions are with me all day
No tablet for relieve never going away
Drained emotionally my life on my own
Freezing winter winds chill to the bone
Only you can fulfil my true love’s destiny
Rekindle my soul’s love for an eternity
Enriching my heart with love to be filled
Visions in the past my hearts blood you spilled
Endless games with the feelings I have sinned
Realizing always you are invisible just like the wind


Title of the poem spelt down the spine of the verse.

A mother’s love will last forever
Sweet children fill her with pride
As a child you know so well
In your mother you can confide

She is always there and loves you
In the good times and the worse
And will always listen to your needs
Pick you up when your hurt

Sometimes things may seem unfair
You have to withstand this test
She is not doing this to hurt you
With love she only wants the best

A mother’s love is meant forever
And it shows with all her tears
You will always be her baby
She will wash away all your fears

David Swinden © 1/7/2016

I wait for you on a cold winters night
My breath visible in the stillness
But patiently I wait for your warmth
Your smile... Your touch... I want...
Each piece a part of a special puzzle
That enraptures and fills me with delight

In the shadows I see you approach
I want to rush over to you and embrace
But this one single moment I wont encroach
My heart begins to race my breath more visible
To hold you in my arms this moment unlivable
I wait.... You smile.... as you draw closer.....

I cherish this special moment within my reach
Sapphire eyes and crimson lips in moonlight
I trace my fingers down your face.... so beautiful
My body shakes with just one touch.... precious delight
Savoured.... Cherished.... special moments adorned
Before the kiss on your crimson lips a new love is born

David Swinden©

The smile and pain you show outside hides the pain within
It hides the drink and smoking till you commit another sin
Cancer is your many demons it invades your soul and heart
An invasion of your world and it rips your life till you depart
The demons never leave and each day it will surely change
But deep inside your hopes fade and the demons still remain
With every new day that starts a new hope will now begin
But before the new day has ended you commit another sin

David Swinden © 19/9/2016
Fictional I don't smoke.

Memories never fade since the day you past away
Ashes scattered amongst spring flowers that sway
It was your favourite place you spent time in summer
With dad now the two of you are together dearest Mother
In those beautiful Ornamental gardens ice cream in hand
Behind the trees you hear faint music from the bandstand
Birds singing all day and squirrels forage amongst the grounds
A symphony of natures beauty brings peace to those around
Now the two of you are together again I have nothing left to do
The only memory I have left is a photograph of you

Fictional for now. My mother has Alzheimer's.  

David Swinden© 23/2/2016

If you ever had the choice
From two rainbows in the sky
One was filled with money
Treasures of such delight
But in the second rainbow
Is where you'd surely go
A rainbow filled with so much love
You could surely not say no
Now take a look over there
There surely is no need
The people in the first rainbow
Driven by selfish greed
But now that I have chosen
The gift that I bestow
Now make your choice and tell me
Where you chose to go?

As I watched you slip away
I hoped we would meet again
Through all the pouring rain
There was a ***** of light
And you where shining bright
I held you in my arms once again
And I hoped this love would remain
The love I so truly cherished
Spoke of which such merit
Cradled and whispered I love you
To you I gave my heart so true
I dreamed of all the times we shared
And my heart I gave to you and bared
I wanted it to last forever this time
And together we would always remain
Then one day you left me all alone
Freezing cold like winter to the bone  
As I watched you slip away
Emotional turmoil once again
Again……

David Swinden 23/1/2018

Glistening in the radiant display
Are memories of the man she lusts?
In the shop where eternity was bought
Her memories now turn to dust

Tears swell up in her eyes
Heartfelt pain echoes in her life
A love that once blossomed
Of being his loving wife

Fate can wear so many disguises
And fate has many twists and turns
But in the end her true love was lost
And in the end her heart got burnt

Broken Heart

No words of wisdom spoken the silence said it all
I knew it was coming when I took your call
My heart broke in two, I always loved you
No more warming embrace, emptiness in it's place
I will never love anyone like you again
For now in mourning the poets pen remains

20/11/14 David Swinden©

Light My World

Your beautiful and serene as the oceans
Causes my heart to race, fire up my emotions
You light my world with your radiant grace
I dream to gaze at your beautiful face

14/11/14 David Swinden©

Vanquished Of Love

A soul with no love starved of all feelings
Cast into dark stormy seas tattered and reeling
The tide and the waves draining its blood
This poor dying soul vanquished of love

22/4/2006 David Swinden©

The Last Beat of the Heart

A heart torn apart Broken and battered
With life’s dreams utterly shattered
Dark days with biting ice cold nights
Where dreams face a death with no more light
Here it lays suffering devoured of its life
With one last beat begone all of the strife

22/4/2006 David Swinden©

No words of wisdom spoken the silence said it all
I knew it was coming when I took your call
My heart broke in two, I always loved you
No more warming embrace, emptiness in it's place
I will never love anyone like you again
For now in mourning the poets pen remains

David Swinden©

The clock it ticks but time never moves
I live each day writing my darkest poetry
And when I sit and pen my muse
I ask in life, what has happened to me?  

I long to write something beautiful
But loneliness keeps my heart in prison
The darker nights they will soon arrive
I ask what kind of life am I living?

My body is worn and deeply scarred
With each day I feel more drained
With my heart ripped from my chest
How long in this life will I remain?  

I wish the cards could be re-dealt
I just don’t want to be by myself

David Swinden©1/10/2016

Cancer my barriers you are breaking down
I keep on swimming until I drown
Biopsy results with cell abnormalities
Is it the start of another fatality?  
Again I'm waiting for more test results
I keep on searching... is it all my fault?
So many questions but silence remains
In emotional turmoil I feel the strain
As they continue to run more tests
I will remain under constant threat
It's a question of time and falling down
I will keep on swimming until I drown

4th February Cancer Day

Today a review with the Doctor took place
She looked on unknowingly smiling face
She now needs twenty four hour care
For her to stay at home would not be fair
He suggested I look at some care homes
Soon it will be an empty house, all alone
It’s out of my control and nothing I can do
But remind Mum “I will always love you”
I want her at home, no other place to be
Now all I can do is write my feelings in poetry

22/12/2016 © David Swinden

Tomorrow from home it will be our last goodbye
Already I can feel the tears swell in my eyes
It will be a  difficult  day but its one I have to face
Memories of many good times that I will retrace

Your Memories are vague now day is night and night is day
As time has passed dementia has made you this way
It pains me but the doctor has left me with no choice
I will cradle all your past times and hear your voice

One last night and It already feels like you know
Although not everyone else seems to think so
The care home looms like a big dark cloud
The emotions inside, I want to scream out loud

When tomorrow arrives it will be your final abode
A one last I love you one last loving hug and hold
After six years of loyalty to the Mum I have loved and cared
Rebuild my life, wipe away the tears, on good times we shared

David Swinden © 7/2/2017

Poetry pen name Emotional Man

Changing places finally bursts my bubble
My childhood school has now turned to rubble
Memories where good in the 70's at Birchfield School
Learning to swim in the down stairs pool
Free milk during the morning break times
Mr Blackmore plays songs of rosemary and thyme
At Christmas the hall would fill for the pantomime play
The school has gone now but the memories never go away
But now on Facebook friends share memories old and new
Those childhood days so precious to us all in Liverpool

David Swinden© 20/10/2016

A little poem about my childhood days at Birchfield School

In the cycle of life a new born will breath
And depend on it's parents for all it's needs
A precious child will learn to speak and spell
And build friendships at school that eventually gel
One day they will grow into a young man or girl
Learn to live independently free in this world
Build loving relationships and have their own child
And some will split up and others reconciled
And as years pass by we slowly grow older
The cold winter nights will seem even colder
In this cycle of life we all live and breath
And our day will come when it's time to leave

2005 David Swinden©

Wish I could write something new just not happening for now.

The darkness in her eyes
Hides fire that burns within
Tears will not prevail
Her anger is her sins

Festering in her thoughts
Gripped with bitterness
It hides her true identity
Of sensitive tenderness

Until she opens up her heart
And the tears begin to flow
She hides all her feelings
In a world no one knows

3/9/2015

Ground-hog Day has arrived once more
To breakdown my dreams scattered on the floor
Same old feelings into poetry I pour
Days when I sink like a stone

Chasing lost dreams till four in the morning
In pictures I keep memories, my souls does the hoarding
I walk in the daylight with my heart still in mourning
Days when I sink like a stone

I live my life to the same old tune
To the sun and rain and the midnight moon
I keep on smiling and repel the gloom
Days when I sink like a stone

Well after midnight my feelings in writing
Putting down words, in life I keep striving
Head above water just barely surviving
Days when I sink like a stone

Dear loved ones move on to another life
To begin again in a different light
Out of my reach and out of sight
My heart now sinks like a stone

Inspired by a Tears for Fears track called Ladybird
13/10/2012 last edit. Written 2007

Last week we went on holiday to Denbigh
And just for a few days my mother came back to me
Not leaving any food everything on the plate was gone
With my two friends she even said “look that’s my son”
She couldn’t stop talking although she didn’t make sense
It brought my mother back to my heart I felt less tense
I have never seen her like this for so many years
Rekindled many memories almost brought me to tears
She was answering simple questions clearly to my friends
It was a week to rejoice and enjoy I never wanted an end
But where back home now just the two of us in solitude
And even in one day I have noticed the changes in her moods
The week in Denbigh is where she was evacuated as a young girl
Now I can see her drifting away again into her dementia world
It was a great time that we had but this still breaks my heart
But there is nothing I can do as once again we drift apart

David Swinden © 23/10/2016

With it just being the two of us she misses the benefit of a group of people.

Remnants of life scattered afar
Heart broken, burnt and charred
Fragmented thoughts, emptiness
Desolated by others sinfulness

Mole hills turn to mountains
As light turns to night
No one hears me shouting
As I slowly lose the fight

Desolation is my name
Betrayed in stormy rain
Wrapped in the devils chains
It always ends the same

Only for now will I remain
In someone else’s game
Slowly my life begins to drain
I can't take this emotional pain

Desolation remains my name

Forever...........

5/11/2015

Forlorn and ashen faced he sits on the bench
Tears in his eyes and a personal hygiene stench
From his bottle of whiskey he gulps and swigs
Eyes bloodshot hands shaken for another fix
Shoes with gaping holes and shirt sleeves stained
Memories dissipated in a constant haze he remains
A coat with buttons missing and his collar is tattered
Yesterdays young dreams utterly shattered
His hand shakes as he reaches into his pocket
To reveal a bottle of tablets, one last suicidal rocket

But help is at hand with a police station over the road
No more darkness like a dreary song by Depeche Mode
We need to fill in some paperwork the officer says
Ask you some questions, some more pen pushing delays
Listen this man is going to **** himself I said
His blood will be on your hands if he ends up dead
I walked out and sure enough an officer was deployed
This needless pen pushing paper work makes me annoyed
Overpaid political dinosaurs out of touch with reality
Another number brush it under the carpet, just another fatality

Through the passage of time we live in another world
In another dream we believe our plans are now unfurled
We cannot touch what's not there for us to hold
Changing water into wine.. turning silver into gold..
Life can be so confusing.. and with no answers inaudible..
Emotions then take over for all to see uncontrollable..
When there are no words there are feelings that show
Private to us.. it's a part of us we don't want nobody to know

Yet when we lose someone close and we feel the pain
All the voices of condolences we hear bring more tears of rain
And life still becomes more confusing as every second ticks
And there is no way to reverse time and fix the things to fix
Clouded and blurred my words may seem to all that read
But for me it starts to heal the pain and scars.. 'it's what I need'
Just for now I will live in another world alone a place so serene
Till I feel the time is right for me.. to live another dream..


3/8/2005
Emotional Man is my poetry pen name on another website.

I want to share my love so deep
If I gave you my heart
Would you give me yours to keep
Bringing us together across these miles
Filling this void with endless smiles
For eternal love never to part

Feeling your warmth is all I dream
Caressing all your love
Sent across this great big stream
A special feeling from way up high
Like the stars in the midnight sky
Together we’ll meet and bond our love

So when the day is finally here
And your standing by my side
I will whisper gently into your ear
And make it all so perfectly clear
Your the only one I would shed a tear
The thought of losing you tears me up inside

So keep my heart and hold on tight
There is no such word as never
Everything will all come right
Just know there will soon come a time
I will be yours and you will be mine
So think of us as love that lasts forever

2001 my first ever collaboration CJ now posts on here check her out :-)

Forgive me some days are better than others
I have a problem with less supportive brothers
They do very little and live in there own bubble
Can never be found with the first sign of trouble
Only complaining about monthly financial figures
Interested only in mothers passing, what will it deliver?
Truly pathetic as this is supposed to be about family
Yet others look in and see how dreadful they can be

David Swinden © 11/12/2016

Nothing is hidden it's all there to see
Every living breathing fragment of “me”
I can't hide my feelings they show for all
It's who I am from standing to fall

My heart is made of glass and on display
I hope my words will heal “me” someday
It's a dark sided show for all that read
Writing verses as my glass heart bleeds

Poetic darkness as you watch “me” fall apart
It could only be “me” with my glass heart

David Swinden 25/12/2014 ©

He played his Eko Ranger twelve string guitar
As he puffed away on his capstan cigars
Finger tips stained a colour of yellow
This placid man always remained mellow
Bob Dylan hits he would often play
All through the night and into the day

~~Bob Dylan Songs~~

“Don't think twice it's aright”
“I'll be your baby tonight”
“Subterranean homesick blues”
“Tonight I'll be staying here with you”

Often he would travel from Harwich to Liverpool
His mother lovingly prepared vegetarian food
Dedication to his family in so many ways
Committed forever, till his final day

But now in silence his guitar remains
No longer caressed in heaven he plays
In peace with god his songs he will choose
We didn't know it was you we would lose

It was so sudden, over all these years
We never knew we could lose someone so dear
The pain amplifies into the stars above
Our hearts will always be filled with your love

Always endearing memories will never leave
I hear your songs from within my heart I retrieve
One last goodbye sent to above and beyond
For one last time we play the goodnight song

Dedicated to my brother John who passed away 11th September 2008
Written 2009

Paradise that lives in the heart of a poet
Verses that spill forth don’t you know it
It’s a mystical beauty changing all day
From morning till night on this peaceful bay
From scent of the waters and the cry of a gull
The far distant ship the grayness of it’s hull
Cloud painted patterns from an artists brush
The words of a poet with sweet words of love
Home by the sea brings all kinds of emotions
Like the flow waves a rhythmical motion
From the seashells on the gold patterned sands
Two lovers strolling the beach holding hands
With pen and paper it’s my only place to be
My perfect place to write is home by the sea

David Swinden © 23/3/2016

If love was like the wind
Always changing directions
Mysterious and unexplored
Adventures into new realms
Held captive in your heart
Your imagination explodes
Hand in hand shared thoughts
Love's an adventure for both
Often rocked by storms
To test faithfulness to extremes
To see who is true with love
And who will weather the storms
Staying together the prize
Of true eternal love from the soul

But alas not all survive the test
And true love is not always meant to be
Sometimes the damage is done
And nature takes its own cause
Separation and heartache is the recipe
That brings to an end, broken love
Bitter is the taste and hard to swallow
These changes bring new adventures
And new lives and relationships
But new adventures bring new challenges
Always changing direction
If love was like the wind

I’m still here even though I’m no longer by your side
Living in the care home, you never leave my mind
This house is empty but your chair is still in place
Every time I close my eyes I forever see your face
Your bedroom is cold the wardrobes are now bare
You may not be here but I will always love and care
If I had one wish I would forever bring you home
I feel the guilt without you here living on my own
The days that pass by some are good others bad
I look through pictures old they make me feel so sad
Your health became to much you could not stay with me
And it breaks my heart so I pour my feelings into Poetry
Tomorrow is Mothers Day, I will bring you some cheer
Please don’t think that I have gone, for I’m still here

David Swinden © 25/3/2017

Hope you are all having a lovely weekend take care :-))))

I have waited for so long
Its been a long time coming
Same old day and routines
That arrive with each morning

Same old typical weather
Nothing ever seems to change
Life still goes on around me
And in my heart you still remain

Everything seems to have stopped
But people keep running around
Who is left to pick me up
When I fall and hit the ground

Naked is my soul bared
Fragile is the hearts desires
But the devil is making my rules
And everyday he breathes fire

With poetry deep in hibernation
Poetry has been my lost in me
My outlet has seen barren times
Like a ship that’s lost at sea

David Swinden © 13/8/2017

Every night that I pass you by
I just let out a heartfelt sigh
I want you to feel my pain
That you left inside my brain

I took your pain I want it all
But like a fool I want some more

With all the pain and hatred
That you instigated
Leaves me feeling capitulated
With my heart you infiltrated

I took your pain I want it all
But like a fool I want some more

You knew which buttons to press
You had nice touches to impress
But I could never understand or digress
That you would not confess your evilness

I took your pain I want it all
But like a fool I want some more

You have your ways to tie me up
You just cut me up and spill my blood
In your evil ways there is no love
I suffer in pain of tears that flood

I took your pain I want it all
But like a fool I want some more



Sometimes a song title inspires me to write a verse only sometimes...

My heart is broken and it will remain the same
I will never recover through all the wind and rain
Darker times are here forever till my last breath
The tears I cry will bleed until my own death
The place called home is like a graveyard
It will always be your home, it tears me apart
Everywhere and everything is a part of us as two
I close my eyes and empty mind, but I still see you
You never leave me I want the pain to stay forever
It would never feel right anyhow now we're not together
Do not think you were not loved, just see the tears I cry
You know when you're in heaven, I will mourn for you till I die

David Swinden © 29/4/2017

I knew how bad you where feeling
With your heart so full of pain
The tears filled up in your eyes
Till they flowed like heavy rain
I gripped you tight in my arms
To share your pain so bad
I wish that I could do much more
Now the two of us are sad
But I will never let go
I'm the type that always stays
For I'm not the type of man
That will turn and walk away
I will never leave you in darker days
Just when you need a friend
For when you need me by your side
I will stay until the end

2005 David Swinden©

Her room is now empty, no longer here
The mother I love and hold so dear
She has moved out, into private care home
In this big empty house I now live alone
In her vacant bedroom there is a Jewelry box
On the table are her old winter socks
I open the box and take a peek inside
Trinkets and bracelets fill me with pride
Inside the box I find letters from her past
From dad saying our love will always last
Written in the 1940s he spent many years at sea
He fought for his country in the Merchant navy
So personal she kept them all these years
Her whole life in this box brings me near to tears
Her memories may be gone in Dementia she is lost      
I will forever treasure her life in this Jewelry box

David Swinden © 13/2/2017
I love you Mum forever

“**** yourself” you *****
From the drivel in your mind
It's in your human nature
Apart of your design

Showing a side never seen
From the venom you spouted
A character that's truly evil
From the words that you shouted

It's perfectly clear for all to see
With my brother like a puppet
You pull the strings, he dances
And you really truly love it

His selective hearing now kicks in
With a blank expression on his face
And his verbal lack of words
Only to diarrhoea he can't relate

Your both a waste of space and time
I cannot see the point any more
I speak but nobody can hear me
I'm banging my head against a wall

Your a son to be ashamed off
And the saddest thing is my mother
You show no compassion or love
And your supposed to be my brother

10/11/015

This poem is for my dearest trusted friend
For when my life finally comes to an end
Over the years we had times good and bad
Your always there in times when I felt sad

In recent times I've been losing all my hope
Let down by my brothers I just cannot cope
It's not your fault you always did your best
Through everyday life we both had our tests

I keep on trying and I think I have more to give
But some days I feel I have lost the will to live
It's painful and I don't wish to make life hell
I just cannot find the words to you I can tell

You had times as well my dearest trusted friend
To stand by you as you felt life had reached it's end
Over the years we had times good and bad
But I was always there in times you felt sad

My dearest mum I can't even look you in the eye
I see Dementia tare you apart, and it makes me cry
I see you slowly moving towards another place
And that will be the day that I cannot face

My dearest sister over the years we had difficult times
Other family betrayed me, drinking alcohol was my crimes
But these last few years you always been around
With your visits to put my feet back on the ground

It's everyday life and who knows what will come next
If we can face any more of this and life’s daily tests?

Be happy in life nothing is perfect
Enjoy the world it really is worth it
Many barriers faced make you sigh
Sometimes you smile when you want to cry
The journey you face is your little world
So open your heart be it a boy or a girl
You will have days filled with heavenly bliss
The embrace of a lover with the sweetest kiss
Days with the loss of family or a close friend
Your heart breaks in two and you wish for the end
It’s life’s journey with many twist and turns
Sometimes you will find your fingers get burnt
It’s just everyday life with it’s ups and downs
Some days you swim others you will drown
Just be happy in life nothing is perfect
Enjoy the world it really is worth it

David Swinden©27/5/2016

A city to be proud of are nick name is Scousers
Do you remember The Beatles in flared trousers
The Soccer and songs of “You Never Walk Alone”
So many songs include “In My Liverpool home”
Two great Cathedrals that light up in the night
And John Lennon airport where you catch a flight
With two big soccer clubs there is intense rivalry
But when it’s all over there is plenty of camaraderie
It’s a city of culture with museums and History
It’s my Liverpool home, where i'm proud to be  

David Swinden © 6/1/2017

Freshly ground coffee beans scented in the air
Drilled workers wait for the train without a care
A clock ticks towards the nine o’clock start, the essence is time
Regimented to the days work everyone is primed
On the London underground, the rat race crushes on the train
Nobody utters a single word, in silence coldness remains
Ignorance is blind; society has made peoples visions blurred
And on each week day blinkered people live on undeterred

When I have visited London I really hated the place.

My life has faced some hard times indeed
An emotional roller coaster made my heart bleed
When darkness arrives on my final day
It’s “goodbye dear world” last words I say

My final journey is to heavens gates
My road ahead is all our fates
The day arrives light shines from above
God is waiting to share all his love

Past friends and family are waiting for me
Many tears where shed when I was lost at sea
In heavens world all pain is banished
My past loved ones whom had vanished
They wait for me with tears in there eyes
It’s a different world full of surprise
It’s a world of beauty to have and to hold
Where every second is precious as gold
I look over my shoulder at dear mother earth
I shed a tear for loved ones still down there
One day you will share the same journey as me
When it arrives together we will be
It’s a place of beauty love is everywhere
We speak of memories the good times we shared
On the final time that you sleep in your bed
It’s the final journey “it’s your road ahead”

David Swinden© 19/2/2016

I find it hard to write these words down
My world is empty now your not around
I only wish to continue with my life
But it’s difficult with the pain and strife
This house is a cold and lonely place
All your past memories I constantly retrace
I turn and look at your empty armchair
My world is broken now your no longer their
In the good times we would talk and confide
But now your gone my heart has finally died

David Swinden © 9/3/2017

With each moment that passes
I would wait but only for you
All the colors of a rainbow
Describe your personality true

Always thinking of you and dreaming
I just sit and wait through day and night
Waiting..... Yearning.... my soul burning
Wanting..... Hoping.... My feelings churning
To feel your touch that brings me light

On the edge of forever but still I wait
Dreaming of no more tomorrows
Hurting.... Hoping.... Wishing.....
Emptiness I feel pain and sorrow
But still I dream it's never to late
But still I wait but only for you

2005 David Swinden©

Open your heart
Like a wall chart
Let me read you
Am I getting through
Words are hard to find
Difficult to define
Champagne on ice
Cuts my heart with a knife
Until my love flows for you
Fall into my arms
I will just say
With you I stay
Till my final day
Our favourite songs we will play
All through the night into the day
Memories of the past
No longer last
This is the start
Open your heart

1990 one of my first poems

~Past~
I remember the times when we first met
I couldn’t understand your childhood threats
Jekyll and Hyde your understanding was a mystery
Sometimes left me in tears with feelings of misery
Then I remember my darkest times in teenage years
I felt so lost in a world I never knew, tears for fears
You where there my friend as we slowly grew older
Always there when I carried burdens, with your shoulder

~Past~
In the later years of the past you had many different contrasts
Like the typical British weather the sunshine it never lasts
And tears where cried with a love that became broken
Always with your heart you laid your feelings open
And if it only happened once then that would be all
But twice in a lifetime caused more tears to fall
Life brings many twists and turns lots unexpected
But that's everyday life and nothing is perfect

~Present~
I suffered the lowest point in my life, you know well
My world took a different turn to the very edge of hell
But with each and everyday you where always there
In the hospital by my bedside you sat in the chair
Never leaving my side before this and after
When my whole life was completely shattered
So glad to have a friend like you for forty three years
So many ups and downs with laughter and tears

~Future~
I feel a lump in my throat with what's coming next
And I know it will break my heart to take this test
Saying goodbye to mum I feel the tears begin to swell
This time I will need you more than any words can tell
I have to let go a care home will be her final resting place
The guilt and pain I will feel for one last embrace
In the emptiness and silence of this three bedroom house
I will sit and pour my heart out in poetry quiet as a mouse
Writing and remembering my verse about my brother John
This one will be for my Mother another goodnight song
I can rest assured that you will be there my dear friend
As life continues it's turmoil that seems to never end.....

David Swinden 12/12/2014

When you go to bed at night
And slowly fall asleep
Reflecting on the days turmoil
All the pain and grief

You sometimes wonder how
This life could do you harm
It’s the way the cards are dealt
When all you want is calm

Some days are better than others
But it always seems to rain
And you always carry on
In this life you still remain

You stay loyal to all
And you often wonder why
There are no smiles on earth
You could find peace in the sky

David Swinden © 3/9/2016

Finally after six weeks with writers block a new poem!!!! please don't leave me again poetry

I used to know this guy called big Sam Bellamy
Made many mistakes in life, his own worse enemy
Not a true friend in the world to share his lonely life
Has no children to speak of not even a girlfriend or a wife
People in the streets would laugh and point there finger at him
Always behind his back they where laughing and bickering
But then one Saturday evening he bought a ticket for the lottery
And as the numbers came out, what happened he couldn't believe
Big Sam had all the numbers his ticket was a massive jackpot
Not bad for someone who was treated like a loner or a crackpot
Now all the sad people with two faces want him as a friend
They say 'Sam you are my true friend' in disguise they pretend
And poor old Sam thinks these people are so honest and true
When they say 'Hey big Sam we have always loved you'
Needing love and so open for warmth, Big Sam Bellamy
Made many mistakes in life, his own worse enemy

Please will you smile
I'm in heaven with my feelings
Is this just a dream
Cos seeing is believing

Please I want to hold your hand
Lets dream as we run across the sand
All I want is to look into your eyes
With beauty as deep as dark as night
My hands will caress your Dark hair
I will love you and show I care

For one little kiss
I will give you all this
For you it's my duty
My so perfect beauty

I hear the rain when it falls
I feel the sun when it shines
I will be there when you call
I will always dream you'll be mine

Rewrite of a very old poem. 7/10/2015