He played his Eko Ranger twelve string guitar
As he puffed away on his capstan cigars
Finger tips stained a colour of yellow
This placid man always remained mellow
Bob Dylan hits he would often play
All through the night and into the day

~~Bob Dylan Songs~~

“Don't think twice it's aright”
“I'll be your baby tonight”
“Subterranean homesick blues”
“Tonight I'll be staying here with you”

Often he would travel from Harwich to Liverpool
His mother lovingly prepared vegetarian food
Dedication to his family in so many ways
Committed forever, till his final day

But now in silence his guitar remains
No longer caressed in heaven he plays
In peace with god his songs he will choose
We didn't know it was you we would lose

It was so sudden, over all these years
We never knew we could lose someone so dear
The pain amplifies into the stars above
Our hearts will always be filled with your love

Always endearing memories will never leave
I hear your songs from within my heart I retrieve
One last goodbye sent to above and beyond
For one last time we play the goodnight song

Dedicated to my brother John who passed away 11th September 2008
Written 2009

In a childlike state of mind
Slowly my mother drifts
Her thoughts are hard to find
As the sands of time sift

With the loving mother that I once knew
In the hard times she saw me through
But now her mind drifts to something new
To a place where I can’t find “you”

I see a lost “you” with your childlike eyes
As you drift towards a dementia side
Not realising the pain you left behind
Soon the mother I will no longer find

In a childlike state of mind
Slowly my mother drifts
Her thoughts are hard to find
As the sands of time sift


Slowly losing you to dementia Mum I will always love you X

Freshly ground coffee beans scented in the air
Drilled workers wait for the train without a care
A clock ticks towards the nine o’clock start, the essence is time
Regimented to the days work everyone is primed
On the London underground, the rat race crushes on the train
Nobody utters a single word, in silence coldness remains
Ignorance is blind; society has made peoples visions blurred
And on each week day blinkered people live on undeterred

When I have visited London I really hated the place.

Always and forever you change just like the wind
Lost in your world with feelings I have sinned
Whispers of your love tease through the night
Awake in the morning you live in my daylight
Yearning to find the place where you might be
Solitude in this world I live, forever empty
Agonising emotions are with me all day
No tablet for relieve never going away
Drained emotionally my life on my own
Freezing winter winds chill to the bone
Only you can fulfil my true love’s destiny
Rekindle my soul’s love for an eternity
Enriching my heart with love to be filled
Visions in the past my hearts blood you spilled
Endless games with the feelings I have sinned
Realizing always you are invisible just like the wind


Title of the poem spelt down the spine of the verse.

At the graveside the grieving man knelt
Remembering the feelings that he felt
And in all the grief and all the pain
In this painful time on his knees he remained
Face to face they had never even met
But for a year they chatted on the internet

The tears flowed down from his eyes
Some would never understand or be surprised
How can this poor man have a broken heart
When in his life she has played no part
Although face to face they never even met
But for a year they chatted on the internet

Friendships blossom relationships grow
Where will they lead? Nobody knows
But this poor man's grief that's in his soul
Has opened up a gaping hole
Even though face to face they had never met
Once upon a time they chatted on the internet

2003

The darkness in her eyes
Hides fire that burns within
Tears will not prevail
Her anger is her sins

Festering in her thoughts
Gripped with bitterness
It hides her true identity
Of sensitive tenderness

Until she opens up her heart
And the tears begin to flow
She hides all her feelings
In a world no one knows

3/9/2015

My life has changed direction
Which way I do not know
Who can tell what happens
What tomorrows seeds will sow

My mind is playing tricks now
The changes I see unkind
She sees things no differently
The things I want too blind

She wastes away her final days
Sat rocking in her chair
Always fumbling with her hands
Her mind just doesn't care

Insanity strikes my thoughts
As each day comes and goes
The blank expression on her face
Is the only world she knows

My life has changed direction
Which way I do not know
Who can tell what happens
What tomorrows seeds will sow....

My mother has dementia. I will never leave her X