you cut me deeply
with your dishonest love
now i'm bleeding out

do you remember
lying on the green green grass
dreaming together

looking right at me
you exposed a comely breast
a blithe seduction
driving me to distraction
letters falling from my hands
at a total loss for words
scrabble forgotten

large green eyes
honey coloured hair
and cherry lips
she moved with cool grace
dressed in a jump suit
that clung to her curves
like sugar to pie
looking as gorgeous
as queen Marlene
of the silver screen
and when she did speak
her words flowed softly
a swiss german lilt
so i engaged her
in conversation
for two years

a gentle rustling
a blur across the sidewalk
a bumblebee mouse

snow sparkling, drifting
down through the darkened wood
a grouse drums, unseen

you lied to me
so very many times
i forgive you
for i can see inside you
and the pain that burns there
horrible wounds incurred
as an innocent child
please understand these truths
i am afraid for you
i am not judging you
i will not desert you
i will always be here
and i love the real you
but i have my rights too
and at this painful time
i need respect and truth
and solitude