amya s: Poems

Jun 2017 · 224

amya s Jun 2017

boy i know that you love me
so whats the issue
baby i love too
ill make your dreams come true

were not running out of time
baby whats the issue
i just dont understand
you said we had a thing
boy were you lying
cause when i was asleep
i heard you confessing
all your feelings

are you just not a man
or is it that "friend"
that you thinks not a friend
i just dont understand
are you just not ready
i thought we were steady
i thought we were strong

is it me
or is it you
baby whats the issue
do i need to change
do we need a brake

cause im so afraid
i just dont want to lose you
are you setting me free
baby whats the issue

i think he's going to end. this is kind of a song more then a poem . it can go both ways.

#goingtobeheartbroken

Jun 2017 · 336

who do i ask

amya s Jun 2017

who do i ask

who do I ask?
about the sky u call heaven
who do i ask?
about the god that never answers my prayers
who do I ask ?
about the demon under my bed that never lets me sleep

who do i ask?
about my tormenting nightmares
of demons who can cry
whom feel sympathy
who dont know how to lie
who do i ask?
           there is no one
      no one to ask
so i still have dreams about
                                                     demons
              who can cry
                   who feel sympathy
                        who dont know how to lie
it goes against everything I've ever known
but with no one to ask
im on my own

who do ask questions to when i have no "trusted" adult.
honestly who do i ask.
im all alone

Jun 2017 · 185

my funeral

amya s Jun 2017

my funeral

i see my brothers and sisters
at a funeral that is my own
crying crocodile tears
cause their glad that im gone

its no surprise
im not
disappointed
nor am i sad to leave

for i plan to travel oceans
rather then
cry
lakes that im deceased
or ill visit god
if there is one
my "family" is already the past
none of this haunting business
there is nothing i miss to go back

so ill visit my best friend
nautika whom i love
will use our old nick names cheesecake and dove
i have her and she me
forever living in paradise
we will be

Jun 2017 · 239

u will never know

amya s Jun 2017

u will never know

you ask me if I am fine
and i tell you i am
but my words
have always been a scam

for everyday is a game
a game you make me play
i smile and act like im fine
although its all a lie

you beat me
wear the bruises wont show
long sleeve shirts and jeans
is how i am cursed

will i ever be able to wear a skirt
or have friends
only god knows

im cursed in a hell
where i always wear a mask
but who will ever know
since its permanent

#abused

Jun 2017 · 118

not to be trusted

amya s Jun 2017

not to be trusted

why should I be nice
when I was betrayed by someone
I trusted

who left me in the dark
like a nail
to be rusted

"treat others the way you want to be treated"
is a golden rule they say
then why did you break it and leave me
a fool
a stray

tears are pointless
because this is not sadness
nor is it anger
nor happiness

it is freedom from a demon
but also disappointment
another angel fell from heaven
once again

your not family anymore
after what you did!!

Jun 2017 · 120

my best friend

amya s Jun 2017

my best friend

my best friend is forbidden
she is forgotten

not welcomed
im no longer her home
she is forever closed from my world

but i will always remember
my best friend
who was always there

she still is
and always will
but she is forbidden
she is forgotten

i miss you
my dead friend

i wasn't allowed to hang out with a girl whom i loved like a sister. Are friendship lasted 10 years then we got in trouble together and
my parents no longer welcomed her into our house. I miss you cheesecake.

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