you ask me if I am fine
and i tell you i am
but my words
have always been a scam

for everyday is a game
a game you make me play
i smile and act like im fine
although its all a lie

you beat me
wear the bruises wont show
long sleeve shirts and jeans
is how i am cursed

will i ever be able to wear a skirt
or have friends
only god knows

im cursed in a hell
where i always wear a mask
but who will ever know
since its permanent

why should I be nice
when I was betrayed by someone
I trusted

who left me in the dark
like a nail
to be rusted

"treat others the way you want to be treated"
is a golden rule they say
then why did you break it and leave me
a fool
a stray

tears are pointless
because this is not sadness
nor is it anger
nor happiness

it is freedom from a demon
but also disappointment  
another angel fell from heaven
once again

your not family anymore
after what you did!!

my best friend is forbidden
she is forgotten

not welcomed
im no longer her home
she is forever closed from my world

but i will always remember
my best friend
who was always there

she still is
and always will
but she is forbidden
she is forgotten

i miss you
my dead friend