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Mar 2012 · 825
Passions Flame
Dark Paradox Mar 2012
When did my fire go out?
The flames sizzle in the pain?
Anger dousing my passion.

The feeling of being a woman...
The wanting you as a man...
Distant memories, fading desires.

Are the embers still there?
Can they be re-lit with care?
I want to want you again.

To kiss your sweet face
To hold you in loves sweet embrace,
But how do I forgive?

How do I gather up the pieces of a broken heart
Shattered and scattered.
And fan smoldering passions dying flame.

Tears threaten again and the hurt is so much
They dampen the still glowing spark.
There is so much to forgive.

Where do I start?
I must begin with my own heart.
Before I can hope to regain passions flame.
Copyright Peggy Montgomery 3/8/2012
Dec 2011 · 947
Conundrum
Dark Paradox Dec 2011
Open mouth and out fly lies.
Truth is much easier.
Habit perhaps.
Why?

Trust destroyed here.
Truth required to rebuild it.
Just continued deceit,
And repeat.

Tears and heartbreak overwhelm.
Your heart pickled by abuse.
Do I stay?
And cry?

I see the you that once was.
The you I loved.
I want that one back.
Are you gone forever?

Habit that I stay.
Truth that I love you.
Lie that I can’t leave.
Heartbreak.
Dark Paradox - December 12, 2011
Dec 2011 · 609
Pokerhand
Dark Paradox Dec 2011
Pain.
You rule my world, my nights, my dreams.
What I wouldn’t give to be without you for a moment;
To be free of your hot grasp for fleeting seconds.

I would sell my soul to be free of you, almost.
It has not come to that point yet, but still….
You have ruined the person I once was,
And stolen the romance away from my life.

The dreams I had for my golden years have been erased.
There will be no second chances now.
Ahead, for me, is only agony.
Which will end when I do.

The question is…when will I fold and make it quicker?
Dec 2011 · 732
Carole
Dark Paradox Dec 2011
The last time I saw you,
Hope shown from your eyes,
A smile lit your face and you were ready.

The last words I heard from your mouth were
“I love you”.
I said them back as the elevator doors were closing.
We smiled at each other and waved goodbye.

When I heard you were gone the next morning
My world stopped for a moment.
There would be no hope for you now.

But also no more pain.
No more suffering.
God had taken you home.

I still miss you so much.
My best friend, Carole, died November, 2004 after a short battle with pancreatic cancer.  The night before she died, she was waiting to have a surgery which the doctors hoped would add a few months to her life.  She died that night from a blood clot.  I guess God had other plans.
Jul 2011 · 729
It Was So Hot
Dark Paradox Jul 2011
It was so hot I was afraid to breathe,
The air so thick, there was nary a breeze.
The sun fried down, trying hard to bake
Our dusty town into a caramel cake.

No birds in the trees, no kids out at play,
Only sound you could hear were the a/c’s that day.
The weathermen gloating about a record high,
Who cares about that when we’re all about to die?

What is that we see?  Off in the distance there?
Could it be a cloud on the horizon?  Do we dare?
Hope builds as do the clouds in the sky,
Only to crash as the rains go rushing on by.

It is too hot for any rain to fall here.
It gets dried up before it even gets near.
So we continue to sweat, to moan and complain,
And wish for winter, when we will be missing summer again.



Copyright  Peggy Montgomery  7/30/2011
Jun 2011 · 1.1k
Summer Sensations
Dark Paradox Jun 2011
Ice cream melting too fast,
Can’t even catch the drips.
Twilight squeals of little kids at play
Outside my window.

Sultry summer breezes cooling my skin,
Cool splash of water at the pool.
Sippin’ a Mai Tai in the afternoon shade;
People watching with my man.

Time seems to slow down
Just a tiny bit
As the sun warms the air.
Birds sing. Lawns are mowed.

Summertime.
Livin ain’t easy but life seems
Just a little less frantic when it’s warm.
Apr 2011 · 1.2k
A Warrior's Sonnet
Dark Paradox Apr 2011
My hero, my heart, in your arms I sigh,
To listen to you breathe, your pure passions heat,
In creamy dreams of sweetness long gone by,
And taste your precious kisses; wild wonder sweet.

To open mine eyes in moons’ silver light
And see your face next to mine in our bed;
I would shower you with love in deep night.
Beautiful warrior; who chose me to wed.

But alas, I lie alone and in tears,
Dreaming of you in my arms through night dark.
For a warrior goes to fight without fear,
Leaving his love pining for his sweet spark.

I will wait forever, in this, my fate.
For you, my hero, my lover, my mate.



copyright 4/25/2011  Peggy Montgomery
Apr 2011 · 1.3k
A Mother's Love
Dark Paradox Apr 2011
A mother’s hands cool fevered brows,
Warm little hands when cold winds blow.
A mother’s hands wipe away tears of pain,
And applaud the actions that joy brings.

A mother’s heart grows with each child,
Making room for each new life.
A mother’s heart knows soaring heights,
As well as the most anguished pains of night.

A mother’s smile can show such pride,
Or hide the disappoint from her child.
A mother’s smile is the warmest around.
To bask in one is worth heavens crown.

A mother’s love is a special thing,
Offering acceptance, comfort and peace.
A mother’s love cannot be earned,
Tis’ a love that blooms before a child’s birth.

And when a mother holds her newborn babe,
The love she feels explodes in her heart.
Each mother makes this very same vow.
To protect and love forever whether near or apart.

Happy Mother’s Day to all the Mother’s around the world.


copyright  Peggy Montgomery 4/26/11
Apr 2011 · 2.5k
The Dark Side of Midnight
Dark Paradox Apr 2011
It sings to me
On the dark side of midnight.
The deep, throbbing song
Courses through my veins.

It robs me of sleep
With its hurtful music;
Woven throughout me a
Sadistic opera of pain.

Screeching aria’s fill my
Head with brain-snapping sound,
While the chorus accompanies
With low, deep down thrumming.

Once begun, this opera of horror
Will sing for hours at a time.
No breaks allowed for this
Captive audience of one.

It sings until satisfied
My body won’t be worth a ****.
Wrung limp from the awful music
Of the tortuous performance.

Sung to me from the dark side of midnight.


4/1/11   (c) Peggy Montgomery
Mar 2011 · 810
SPRING
Dark Paradox Mar 2011
The willow tree with buds of green,
Doves busy building a nest in her branches.
Early in the morning now, the birdsong awakens me.
I think there is a change that will soon be seen.

Newly green blades of grass are trying to grow in the yard.
The lilac bush in the corner there has tiny buds pushing hard.
Wasps, those evil stinging things, have awoken from their stupor,
It’s time to find their hidey hole and get them while it’s cooler.

Soon, everything will be back in bloom,
Mother Nature will don her robe of newly minted colors.
It is time to awaken from our winter blahs,
Spring is replacing winters cold and gloom.

Warm, sunny days and cool, spring nights,
Gentle rains bring forth petal’d delights.
The hills change from brown to green,
Oh, I am so happy that it is Spring!



3/20/2011,  Peggy Montgomery
Mar 2011 · 896
For Japan
Dark Paradox Mar 2011
Mother Nature shakes
Giant waves crash against the land
In awe, our hearts weep.
Mar 2011 · 972
Fire and Ice
Dark Paradox Mar 2011
Why does your hot touch send shivers down my spine?
A cool glance sends hot tears;
What strangeness, Lover mine!

I can’t eat, but I crave you,
Your kisses so sweet and soft.
Are you even aware of this; the magic that you do?

My body melts in places low
When you walk in my room.
A glance in my direction, Love, and molten desire flows.

My body is cool and yours is flame
When we meet in our bed of passion,
Fire and Ice, steamy love, my mind all but insane.
Feb 2011 · 2.2k
Cotton Candy Thoughts
Dark Paradox Feb 2011
Wispy cotton candy clouds of thought
Form in my head.
Some form together to make thoughts I
Can hold onto.
Others float quickly away before I am able to grasp
The meaning that they were forming.
Frustrated, I try to grab onto them, but like clouds, they
Melt away at my touch.
This is more than a walk into the room and forget why I am there fear.
This is an Am I going to Forget to be Afraid One Day fear.
With a body that is broken, my mind is all that I have left.
And it is leaving me in wisps of cotton candy thoughts that
I cannot grasp.
Fear grows and I hold onto to that fear.
At least I still know why I am afraid.
2/13/2011
Jan 2011 · 650
That You Love Me Still
Dark Paradox Jan 2011
There is much to be said for mature love
Comfortable love, secure love.
Knowing with one look at your face your mood.
The conversations we have with only our eyes.
Ah, yes, My Love, some may yearn for the chase, the newness,
But not I.
I long only for your arms; to hear your heartbeat under my ear.
There is no shyness between us, no secrets.
You know my hearts greatest fears and hopes and I yours.
I know the real you, the one I love.
And you love me even with all my quirks and demands.
And that is what amazes me,
That you love me still.
1/29/11
For my soul mate and my husband.
Jan 2011 · 506
Alone
Dark Paradox Jan 2011
She awakens to an empty room
Alone.  He left hours ago.
Her children grown with lives of their own
Her days spent alone.
Young enough to still be able to work,
But that choice taken from her.
Friends promises to stay in touch
Fallen by the wayside.
She understands but feels so alone.
He comes home late in the evening
Makes a half hearted effort at conversation
Then takes out his phone.
She is still alone.
She lays next to him in their bed, listening to him sleep
Crying silent tears and has never felt lonelier in her life.
1/20/2011
Jan 2011 · 538
Gray
Dark Paradox Jan 2011
Gray skies, gray slush,
Cold gray day outside.
Wraps me in a gray cocoon of pain
Wishing it would all go away.

Feeling like the eye of a thunderstorm
Chilly to the bone
Waiting to get warm
Counting the seconds between the lightning strikes of pain.

If it were possible to be in the flames, I would be,
Still the chill clings because it comes from within.
Bones ache and muscles scream,
No one hears but me.

Tears seem to find their way down my face
I am not aware I am crying.
The pain and loneliness just squeeze them out of me
Like an overly wrung sponge

If I mention it to you
There is always that silent eye roll and sigh
Before the question, “Can I get you anything?”
Just some of your time, only time.

There is nothing you can do
But a warm, gentle hug would sure feel nice.
But in my gray world, it is asking too much
To feel warm arms around me.

Retreat is sounded in my head
Nowhere to go but back to my bed.
There I won’t be seen as a constant reminder.
Of whom I’ve become; this cold, gray cocoon of pain.
1/18/2011
Jan 2011 · 651
Snow Day
Dark Paradox Jan 2011
Watching the talking heads
Tell me how cold it is outside,
I am very glad I am warm in bed
And don’t have to join in that ride.

Snow has frosted our part of the world
With its cold, icy topping of white.
Cars are crawling slowly to work
Hoping not to become part of a giant ice rink.

Some kids get snow days and some have to go,
I wonder who makes these unfair decisions.
With my own long grown I just hope they are safe
And don’t have any icy cold car rink collisions.

So for my own snow day I will stay warm and play
At being the writer I’m not.
I’ll fill my day reading then sleep a few hours away,
And count the few blessings I’ve got.
1/10/2011  This is what you get before caffiene hits the brain.
Jan 2011 · 898
Romantic Symphony
Dark Paradox Jan 2011
Awakened by your gentle touch,
Your fingers playing over my body.
We have played this symphony before
Each note plucked from your memory.

The high notes are brought by the caress of my *******
You carefully bring the melody;
Flutes play as my ******* are kissed.
It’s getting harder and harder to breathe.

Sleep still feigned I enjoy your symphony as your
Hands conduct the musical torture.
Trying so hard to stay still as I can
When you head south of the border.

I sigh as you follow with hot searing kisses
Trying so hard to awaken me.
I peak at you and a giggle escapes.
Well, my little hoax is all but over.

Down to the ******* you go,
Determined to have your way.
You dip your fingers into the pool of desire
And I float willingly away.

You play my body like an instrument of desire
A maestro of passion you are.
The years you spent learning to play me well spent
I sing the hallelujah song like a choir.

A diva I am and always will be,
You give me a standing ovation.
My maestro gives a contented sigh,
And rolls over and goes back to sleep.
1/6/2011
Jan 2011 · 513
Times Gifts
Dark Paradox Jan 2011
The cool touch of time skims over my face.
Another year looks back in its place,
Tiny wrinkles begin at my eyes and my brow,
Signs of times passage. No escape will allow.
My babes are all grown. Men with their own families now.
Grandchildren come and go on their way,
Filling our lives with joy and laughter each day.
Time may be leaving its mark behind
But what gifts it has brought to this life of mine.
A love so true I am amazed by this gift.
My children safe and happy, what more could I wish?
So while I see wrinkles mar my once smooth, perfect skin.
I wouldn’t trade a moment of the time that I’ve been given.
01/05/2011
Jan 2011 · 644
Love Rebooted
Dark Paradox Jan 2011
In the unexpected silence
I lay wrapped up in your arms.
Remembering the times before when we would lay thus
Before life took away this simple charm.

We talked of simple pleasures and of good times we had had.
We laughed like new, young lovers,
Just enjoying our time alone.
No one bothered us for a few hours. It was me, you, and no phones.

Remember when our love was new and we would talk for hours?
It seemed like there was nothing we couldn’t say
And my feelings for you bloomed and flowered
Into the love we share today.

It takes a simple thing like the power outage of yesterday
To remind one of the simple things that brought us together anyway.
The talking into the early morning hours about any and everything,
The why I fell in love with you; it was because of those long hours.

Life gets so busy and so hectic for us all.
Those few precious hours I’ll remember for a while.
They brought back so many memories
Of the early days of love,

Our love was rebooted yesterday,
By a power failure of unknown cause.
A few hours spent wrapped in your arms.
Just talking with my love.
1/3/2011
Dec 2010 · 692
Mortality
Dark Paradox Dec 2010
A brush with mortality
Makes one re-evaluate one’s priorities.
Things, stuff, crap; all can be replaced.
But You?  You cannot.

The frailty of our human condition
Hammered home with frightening images.
I cried in fear, in love, in despair.
For You.  Only You.

Helplessly waiting for this thing to abate,
Heart pounding terror at the numbers.
Trying hard to be tough, strong, failing miserably.
My strength is You.  My rock is You.

Tears again, but this time in relief,
The Reaper turned away at the door.
More time has been given for us to be living.
For You, My Love. For Me.
12/13/2010  Dark Paradox
Nov 2010 · 608
Final Call
Dark Paradox Nov 2010
A warrior was laid to rest today,
Amongst a sea of brown and blue.
He died doing the only thing that mattered to him.
Protecting me and you.

Taken too early from a grieving wife and family,
By a bullet meant for another.
He knew the risks that he took every day
He and every one of his brothers.

In a room filled with grief and despair
From men hardened by years in this war.
Tears fall unchecked from almost every eye
As they gather from near and afar.

Each man and women who wears the uniform
Knows it could be him or her.
It is a risk they willingly bear again and again
Every time they walk out of the door.

The final call is sent out over the air
As mournful pipes echo the pain.
His fellow officers stand in pride and honor
For the warrior who will ne’r fight again.
11/29/10  Dark Paradox
This is dedicaited to all the men and women in law enforcement and especially for my husband.  May God continue to watch over him.
Nov 2010 · 1.0k
Hollow
Dark Paradox Nov 2010
Hollow pain-filled eyes stare into mine
Surrounded by wrinkles and bags
I want to look away from this face
Such suffering too private a thing to share

I keep looking back, curiosity drives me
What kind of life lived does that to another?
A rattled cough breathed out in distress
The exchange almost too much to bare.

I look at her hands and see red, work worn skin.
My own are pampered and smooth.
Fingers knotted with arthritic misery
The cold will be hard for her.

I meet her eyes once again and see
She watches me as I watch her.
What must she make of this pampered woman
Whose eyes sweep over her in questions?

Shame and sympathy sweep over me
But only for just a second.
I shake back my newly styled hair and leave.
So thankful that I am not her.
11/22/10  Dark Paradox
Nov 2010 · 907
November Winds
Dark Paradox Nov 2010
Cold November winds blow
Sending icicle daggers through my coat.
Gray skies trying hard to snow
To blanket this barren land.

Stark naked trees reach beseechingly to the sky
Begging for their wintery coat of white.
Dried leaves dance mischievously through the streets,
Freed from their prison of branches.

Bundled up munchkins still play outdoors
Sent outside by frazzled moms.
Squeals of laughter drift into my thoughts
And are reminiscent of times long since past.

Sledding and ice skates, tubing and hats,
Hot chocolate, mittens and scarves.
November may be a month of gray,
But it ushers in winters wonders and fun.

Soon a blanket of white will cover the trees
The leaves will no longer dance
The wonderland transformed into a playground of white
As winter takes over the land.
11/19/10  Dark Paradox
Nov 2010 · 656
Thrills of Maybe
Dark Paradox Nov 2010
Little thrills of maybe
Lead to daydreams of possibilities.
The dark desires of wantonness
Interspersed with heady lust.

Memories of lips meeting hers
So much told in that first kiss.
Passion, tenderness and hot molten desire
All told as lips meet for the first time.

Smells of desire intermingle with perfumed skin,
Hot, fevered touching in the night
Whispered exchanges of half words and moans
As lovers climb the ladders toward fulfillment.

Heavy breathing exhausted lovers lie in each other’s arms.
He holds her close and she hears his heart
Knowing it belongs to another; grateful for the few moments they spend together.
He dresses to leave and takes another small piece of her heart with him.

Easy promises made in the heat of passion
Broken quickly by her faithless lover.
Still, she waits for the thrill of the maybe,
That lead to her dreams of what is possible.
11/15/10  Dark Paradox
Nov 2010 · 1.1k
Glance
Dark Paradox Nov 2010
It starts with just a glance,
A look of love to start romance.
I see the fire in your eyes
That starts the slow burn of my own desire.
A wicked smile sent for you to sense
The wickedness of my intent.
The art of flirting is not lost
The smile, the moves, the eyes, the hair toss.
All signals to my mate, my love,
It’s time to take this dance above.
My movements slow to a sensuous pace,
My heart, however, the tempo, a faster race.
I taste your lips, your eyes, your ears,
Your touch like a brand on my skin, it sears,
A path of tingling as you mold my breast
Into your hand, pulling me closer to your chest.
Loving the feeling of your skin on mine
The way you drive me crazy and take your time
Moving slowly over my body with your kiss
Closer and closer to that heavenly bliss
I touch you where ever I can
But you have driven me mad with desire and
The me that was is no longer here
Just a bundle of sensations and feelings linger near
Until the explosion releases my mind
And I return to us and to you and I find
The love shining out of your eyes into mine.
Mmmm, now tis your turn, my love.
I give as good as I got from above.
And when I sense you can take no more,
I take you inside me and feel you at my core.
Slow, gentle movements change to a frantic pace
I watch the changes wash over your face
As you reach the final bliss of your own.
I laugh at the look on your face as you collapse
After all these years, I’m pleased cause I can still make you do that.
You know what I mean, make that funny *** face
Then we both fall asleep, me securely wrapped in your embrace.
11/10/10
Nov 2010 · 849
Feelings
Dark Paradox Nov 2010
**** feelings.  They only bring more **** feelings,
The painful kind.  The heart hurting kind.  
The, I’m going out of my own **** mind, kind.

I don’t want to have a conscience anymore.
I want to do as I please and the hell with the consequences.
Sleep with whomever I want and just get up and leave.

No false niceties, just bodies slapping together in mindless bliss,
Then out the freakin door.  No, don’t call me and I won’t call you.
And No, you weren’t the best I’ve ever had.

I don’t want a mortgage or a car payment.  I want to take the bus
And to sleep where ever I can find a place.  I want no ties to anyone.
I want to go and to do.  I want to try whatever vice I please.

I feel too much.  I empathize too ******* much.  I feel your **** pain.
I hurt every freaking day and I would **** to spend just five minutes to be pain free.
Is that so **** much to ask?  Just five Minutes??

I look at you and know if you are having a good day or bad,
I don’t want to care anymore.  I just want to be me.
The Real Me.  Not this painted up version of me that the entire world sees.

Oh God, I just don’t want to feel anymore.
Nov 2010 · 600
My Heart
Dark Paradox Nov 2010
You take my heart, the one in your hands
The one you promised to hold and protect
And throw it on the ground.

Why is that one promise so easy for you to break?
So easy for you to unmake?
So easy to unbound?

You know it is as fragile as fine china
Because just like china once shattered
The strength once had is no longer found.

With an unkind word or just a glance
You shatter my calm so easy.
Makes me wish you weren’t around.

I’ll gather up the broken pieces and try to put it back together
Again.
Make it whole, make it sound.

Place it back into your hands
For you to love and protect
Until the next go round.

But one of these days
I’m not gonna find all the pieces.
Will that be the day my promise to you is unwound?
11/5/2010   Dark Paradox
Nov 2010 · 762
Sister
Dark Paradox Nov 2010
I see you in my mind’s eye,
So small
Hair flying as you ran laughing through the grass,
“Wait for me, wait for me.”
As we grew, the years between us prevented much,
The fights we had amounted to little,
You were my sister.
When I was a teenager,
Lost in my world of boys and cars,
You were never the pest that some others were.
I watched out for you and shared some of my world with you.
Then you grew up.
And I lost you.
Slowly at first, but more quickly as the years past,
And now I am an only child.
You still live but I have no sister, not any more.
I miss that little girl so much, the friend that you were before angry
Words took you away.
I have my memories.  
“Wait for me, wait for me.”
I’m waiting.
11/5/10  Peggy Montgomery
Oct 2010 · 1.0k
Trick or Treat
Dark Paradox Oct 2010
Autumns chill breathe blows over the land;
Dry leaves dance and whirl in glee
Escaped from their tree bound prison.
Like evil imps they whisk and frolic
Oe’r dry grass and dusty streets they go
Leaving tiny dust devils in their wake.
Halloween haunts peep out of their front door steps.
Heavy bags hang loose now, but soon
Will bulge with sweet delights.
Bundled warmly against the winds chill
Little ghosts and goblins rule the night,
As they whisk and frolic o’re dry and dusty streets
Blown to and fro much like the escaping leaves
From house to house they go.
Trick or Treat is here
10/31/10  Peggy Montgomery
Oct 2010 · 878
Unlock Me
Dark Paradox Oct 2010
I love you, Babe.
I want to love you, touch you and squeeze you.
My apologies to the band
I can’t think of their name off hand,
But I do!
I want candlelight, **** not there nighties, and That look on your face.
I want to feel your gaze burn my skin as you take me in
With your eyes.
I want to feel the shiver that hits my middle when you touch me with your fingertips.
A graze of your lips and an ocean of desire
Sets me afire.
Wanton desire.
How could I not want that?
Never doubt what you do to me.
My man.
Those words are powerful.  You are mine and I am yours.
Because we chose.
We fit together so well.  My body was made for yours.
I curve where you swell, and I am in where you are out.
Lock and a key
Open me.
Set free the woman I am.
Your lips on my breast and the rest
Is expressed in sighs of desire and breathes of passion.
Higher and higher; you know how to play me.
Your instrument of pleasure I take inside.
The ride is a smooth one, made rough when I ask.
My pleasure is always your main task.
We hit heaven together and linger awhile.
Sweet words of love are exchanged.
My hand is tracing the path of your making
On bodies made hot with love’s wanton desire.
I love you, Babe.
Sleep now and know just that.
10/28/10  Dark Paradox
Oct 2010 · 753
Love So Profound
Dark Paradox Oct 2010
When first you hold that new babe in your arms,
You vow to protect him from all evil or harm.
No love like this have ever you known,
Until you hold this new life, this babe, your own.

The years pass by and with every scrape and tear,
You pull your small one close and hold them near,
Wishing deep in your heart you could take every pain,
Make it yours to withstand, but alas, this wish is in vain.

Our babes must hurt, must suffer and grow,
All the while, we watch, our hearts aching so.
We do what we can to protect them and yet,
In spite of us, somehow, they grow and we fret.

We worry when they are late from a date,
We imagine them lost to the worst kind of fate.
Eyes rolling and with huge sighs at our concerns,
They ignore our admonishments and skip up to their rooms.

Even after you have both lived through those teenage years,
Filled with drama, angst, heartbreak and tears.
When they have become adults on their own,
That protective feeling is there where’re’ they may roam.

And when you hold their young babe to your breast,
The protectiveness renews itself with the little one’s breathe,
The circle of life goes on and the love is revived,
When your babe becomes a young parent. This is good.  This is life.
10/17/10  Peggy Montgomery
Oct 2010 · 686
Figure it out
Dark Paradox Oct 2010
H ey, Did you see what that witch just did?
A ll come hither smiles and soulless eyes:  who is she trying to kid?
L ord knows, she thinks there’s not a man on earth can resist her,
L ook how she prowls around this room, looking for her next mister.
O h no she did not do what I think she did!
W itch better watch her backside before this knife between her ribs gets slid!
E veryone knows that’s my man she’s looking at.
E vil better not even think about messin with that.
N ever gonna take my man away from me.  He knows heaven and exactly where it be!
10/11/10  Peggy Montgomery
Oct 2010 · 2.2k
Dark Day
Dark Paradox Oct 2010
Outside, the sun shines brightly
The sky is blue and life moves on.
Inside, my world is dark, my outlook grim,
No hope, no spark.
I am so tired of this dreadful pall
This darkness which takes over my mind.
“Cheer up, smile, It will get better.”
Empty, well meant words fall on my last nerve.
The pain that is physical causes pain that is mental,
It does not get better than this.
Of course there are good days and then days like the dark ones
Days just like this one today.
I only want sleep, I don’t want to be.
Just hide under covers so no one can see,
The pain that is squeezing my mind.
Compressing it, depressing it,
Making tears for no reason.
Making me ache for relief from the phantoms that be.
Dark, dreadful days like the one I’m caught in,
Searching for the light in the darkness,
Looking for relief,
Eluded.
10/4/10  Peggy Montgomery
Oct 2010 · 776
Velvet Night
Dark Paradox Oct 2010
Velvet night falls,
Peaceful night sounds call.
Sleep eludes me tonight.
Quietness surrounds,
Stars shine down,
Small points of light in the canvas above.
I am alone but not lonely,
Thoughts tumble and churn
In a mind too awake to slumber.
My cat purrs at my side
Content to just be;
Not demanding, just here in the moment.
Peaceful and serene
No loud noises to ruin my dreams.
If only I could close my eyes
And slip away.
copyright 9/30/10 Peggy Montgomery
Dark Paradox Sep 2010
(HORROR & FANTASY FICTION)

My face in the mirror stares back with stranger’s eyes.
Terror is there and so is surprise.
I glance at the clock on the table to find
Hours have passed since I was last in my mind.

Red paint is splattered everywhere I look
Who did this to my perfect house?  Who ruined my perfect look?
I look back at the mirror and see
I have that red paint splashed all over me.

Oh, God help the person who did this to me!
I always look good. No one can ever see…
Where is my husband?  I know he is home.
I made his favorite dinner.  A huge steak, a T- bone.

“Baby, where are you?  You need to see this mess.
They ruined my makeup, my hair and my dress.
Oh, there you are, Sweetie.  Get up off the floor.
Why don’t you answer me?  Baby?  I have more…”

“Good Lord, why is that knife in your back?
Get up, get up!  I might get attacked!
You are so stubborn!  Just stay on the floor!
I’ll handle this my way, while me you ignore.”

“I’ll clean up the paint and make our home right.
I just wish you always didn’t have to fight.”
“The steak is too tough and the potato is cold.”
You made me do this.  You made me act bold."

“You lay there now all cold and all dead.
While I’m all alone, a lady in red.
I don’t look good in this color, it washes me out.
See what you did when you started to shout?”

“You made me lose my lady like self.
I remember now.  I took the knife off the shelf.
You laughed at me and called me a *****.
Well, whose laughing now, you cold *******?”
9/18/2010  Peggy Montgomery
Sep 2010 · 581
I Wait
Dark Paradox Sep 2010
Slowly I awaken and reach for you
Finding only the pillow you left behind.
Pulling it close I take in a breathe
And smell the scent that is uniquely your kind.

Dreamily I remember the night before
And snuggle the pillow closer to my heart.
The love we share is something rare.
It has grown from the very start.

I close my eyes and dream of you
Gone out into the world.
While I laze about in our bed alone
And wait for you to come home.

Some would say that you spoil me,
But they don’t know all of our tale.
The years we have spent together
Struggling, we weathered each gale.

Now is our time to enjoy one another,
To laugh and love and to play.
Our job as parents is done and now
We act like young lovers every day.

Our dues have been paid
Our hard times are over and done.
I wait in our bed for you, sleepy and sated,
I wait for you. Come, let’s be one.
9/14/2010  Peggy Montgomery
For my Love
Sep 2010 · 542
I Remember
Dark Paradox Sep 2010
I Remember:
Thinking I was watching a horror movie,
This couldn’t be happening, not here, not now.
I Remember:
Reaching up to find tears on my face
Calling my husband to ask him if this was real,
And his awful answer; “Yes.”
I Remember:
Staring at the television all day long,
Not daring to leave, afraid to move, so afraid.
Watching those planes fly into the buildings over and over again.
I Remember:
The eerie silence that night as no planes were flying.
The fear I felt as we heard a fighter jet fly low over our house.
I asked my husband, “Is it ours?  Is it ours?”
His arms tightening around me.
His answer.
“I hope so.”
I Remember and I Will Never Forget!
9/10/2010  Peggy Montgomery
Sep 2010 · 867
Hells Fires
Dark Paradox Sep 2010
The fires of hell are burning near,
Eating the hills alive.
Things alive have had to run,
Hoping they will survive.

The moon hung blood red in the sky last night.
An ominous sign of death.
Brave men and women are fighting the flames,
And fighting to catch a clean breath.

The smoke curls over the city
An evil veil of doom.
Shrouding its work and hiding the death,
Until winds reveal the blackened ruin.

The sun tries to shine but weakly,
Through the thick smoke it shows
A thin pallor of its normal glory
Weakened by the smoke below.

Brave men fight on and will eventually win,
But at what cost will this fire bring?
Death, destruction, blackness and ruin,
The roar of hells fires now sing.
9/2010
Aug 2010 · 586
Autumn Returns
Dark Paradox Aug 2010
There is a hint in the sunlight,
It is not as harsh as it was a few weeks ago.
Now it seems kinder, softer, and not as bright.

You can taste it in the air.
Warm, lazy days are still here,
But at night, just a taste of coolness is there.

Green leaves and grass still flourish on trees and ground.
Every now and then a soft breeze blows and you can see
Yellow and gold, hidden yet, but ready to astound.

School bells ring and children rush to learn.
Warm days and cooling nights bring a smile.
My favorite time of year; Autumn is on the return.
8/31/2010  Peggy Montgomery
Aug 2010 · 724
Mourning Passion
Dark Paradox Aug 2010
Where did it go, that wonderful feeling?
The anticipation, the ache, the need?
Desire, Passion.
Mourning its loss, you and I.

I know it is there, buried under the dishes,
The laundry, the cleaning, the shopping,
The pain, the arguments over nothing.
The us that once was.

I see the longing in your eyes;
I feel the want in my own heart;
We stand on opposite sides of this chasm
But no bridge is there.
What do we do, Love?
What do we do?

You think I don’t feel the same as you do,
But you were never more wrong.
I miss that oneness, the desire, the passion.
I just don’t know how to rebuild the flame.
The ember still glows here within my heart,
It just needs a fan to flame into being.

How do we bridge this chasm between us?
How do we fan the flame in my heart?
I need to want you, to desire you once more, Love.
I hate this feeling of growing apart.
8/2010
Aug 2010 · 711
Ghosts
Dark Paradox Aug 2010
HEY, You there, hiding in your squalid digs,
behind the towers of pizza boxes and empty beer cans.
Your only ******* with the world through that screen,
What gives you the right to be a downright ***** pig?

I’m not talkin’ bout how you live, that’s your choice,
but I do have a voice when it comes to what you say,
day after day, spewing hatred on us folks who try to bring
beauty to this world.  In words.
You rant and you rave in hate filled blather
how we don’t know what the **** we are doing.

Easy to say when you hide away behind the screen of anonymity.
Come out and face the world, ******.  Come to my house and talk.
NO?  Then you would have to face ME!!  Writer of words, holder of truths,
You, too afraid to be seen.
I hate people like you, cowards all.  ******* cowards!!  Go back to your
empty, pitiful lives and spew your bile some more.
I know where my delete key is.
8/2010   Not to anyone in particular.  Just tired of people who hide behind this screen and use it to be ugly for no good reason.
Aug 2010 · 1.9k
Mask
Dark Paradox Aug 2010
The smile that you see
Was painted on this morning,
Right after my makeup and hair were done.
The finishing touch, the mask is in place.
Now no one can see what is inside of me.

The laugh that you hear, the normal chit chat;
All made with a herculean effort.
When you look in my eyes
Do you see light shining there?
Or does the darkness still wait where no one can see?

The effort to live grows more every day,
As the pain takes over my life.
To move, to do, to just even breathe,
At times, is almost more than I can bear.
I want to stay here in my dark world alone,
Alone, so no one can see.
8/2010
Aug 2010 · 797
My Muse
Dark Paradox Aug 2010
In my mind’s eye I see him;
Lazing on some distant shore,
Warm breezes caressing his cinnamon skin
As my calls he chooses to ignore.

In disgust I ball up the paper,
And throw it into the trash.
I send out another plea for his help,
As my ideas continue to crash.

My muse is a heartless soul.
Only showing up when he deems fit.
As you can see by this little ode to him,
He was nowhere around when I wrote it.
11/2009
Aug 2010 · 1.6k
The Darkness
Dark Paradox Aug 2010
Tis the witching hour and I am once again locked in a battle with you, my old foe.

My love lies sleeping, unaware of the fight raging around him, and I wish it to remain so.

What has it been?  Ten years now that we fight, and each year you gain a little more ground.

You have stolen bits of my life over time, some of my joy, returning to me pain and darkness, trying to keep me down.

My face and body look young still, but it is my soul that bears the scars of our war.  You do not fight fair.

The weapon you wield most often, pain, comes and goes and the sneak attacks you use with flair.

But your ultimate weapon, The Darkness, has done the most damage and I fear it is that one thing that will allow you to win.

When The Darkness has me in his evil grip, I have no strength with which to fight the pain or his dark assault and life is at its most grim.

I long for the brief periods of time when the pain is only a dull ache and I can pretend I am again well.

But too quickly, too fast, you pounce again and we return to our war and my life, again, is hell.

One weapon I have against you is to write you out on paper.  Some may see it as complaining.

I say let them come join me in my war for one battle.  See how Pain and Darkness over my life are reigning.

Yes, Tis the witching hour and the skies dark and stormy. Your preferred time and weather for attack.

Well enemy mine, I’m awake and writing, trying hard to attack you right back.

I know who will be the ultimate winner in our war of pain, darkness and fright.

But tonight, you won’t win this battle, old foe.  I’m writing you out of my night.
4/2009
Aug 2010 · 1.8k
Obsession
Dark Paradox Aug 2010
Through the darkness in my head
My obsession has once again risen.
While in the throes of madness unleashed,
The evil within, unbridled, free rein was given.

What havoc was wrought and damage was done,
When society’s norms and politeness were no more.
Friendship long cultivated and relished by me
In my darkness, was damaged to the core.

Things were said, I know not what.
Things not remembered, in the darkness in my mind.
Only a message received from one held so dear.
“You overstepped the line, Friend, our ties no longer bind.”

Gone now, forever, someone once so dear,
While in the darkness, the madness, hidden in my mind.
I’ve since asked forgiveness, but the damage was great.
When caught in obsession, in madness, I was unkind.
1/2009
Aug 2010 · 864
Deja Vu
Dark Paradox Aug 2010
This déjà’ vu’ we call life
Makes me feel like drowning in sadness.
It is all happening again,
Same way, same anger, same blame.
Is it even worth fighting for anymore?

Bruised and damaged, bandaged and ******
This thing we once called love.
It is gone from your eyes now.
Only anger remains; anger and accusations.

I feel the way I did then,
Fighting a losing battle,
Swimming upstream
Slowly drowning in my tears
Knowing in my heart what is to come.

Am I afraid?  I don’t know anymore.
I am not angry.  Just tired.
Some things are worth fighting for,
But how many times do I have to fight for you?
10/2009
Aug 2010 · 809
Rear View
Dark Paradox Aug 2010
So long ago, the day we met,
It still brings a smile to my lips.
Me; hard at work in that small ER,
You; cocky and hot in your blues.

I was already seeing someone that day,
I wasn’t that impressed with you.
But you had such a cute view from behind,
Yeah, your **** is what attracted me, Dear.

When we finally met again and went out,
I liked your laugh and your hands.
I liked the way you missed your kids and
The way you held me in your arms.

We talked through the night and
Found in each other, the person we
Both had been searching for.

Now 24 years later I still get a thrill
When I see you in your uniform of blue.
Just turn and walk away from me, Babe.
Yeah, I still like that rear view.
7-2010
Aug 2010 · 1.7k
The Ride of the Huntsman
Dark Paradox Aug 2010
The Ride of the Huntsman


The Queen of the Sidhe has given her command
The Huntsman gathers the hellhounds,
All of Faerie feel the shiver go round
The hunt is about to begin.
The wild Sidhe feel the call,
The joy of the hunt fills their veins,
They will run with the hounds over hill and dale
Until the creature is found.
The Huntsman blows his mighty horn,
Gathering his Fey to his side.
He mounts his fire breathing steed of night
And into the dark they will ride.
NonFaerie folk know nothing of this.
But something is making them quake.
Into their homes they quiver and hide
The realm of the Fey roam outside.
Through the night they run never stopping to rest,
The creature must pay for his crimes.
The Queen has issued the death hunt,
And tonight, something will die.
So tonight, if something calls you outside
To run with the wild Sidhe hunt
Do not disobey the Huntsman call
Or the Hellhounds will take you to ride.
10-2009
Aug 2010 · 2.2k
Driven to Excellence
Dark Paradox Aug 2010
The warm, chocolate gaze in your eyes,
promises safety, love and home.
Laughter lives in there, too, but also pain,
and mysteries of unknown size.
While quick with a smile or a laugh
and born to protect,
at times, when unguarded, your face reveals
heartaches, kept hidden away.
On rare occasions, a word will be spoken
and a glimpse into the pain is shared.
Callous, ignorant remarks made to a small
impressionable child.
Scars carried over time through the years.
Shaping. Molding. Into the man you became.
Even as an adult, racial slurs slung absently about
by so called educated men.
Always driven to do better, be better than everyone else,
because of one thing.
Always harder on yourself than anyone else.
Driven to excellence by prejudice.
8/2009
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