Ask me,
Ask me now daddy.
What I want to do when I grow up.
I want to be happy.
No, not happy
I want to be happiness.
I want to be joy and cheer and admiration
Confidence and peace and optimism

I don’t want to be like others, no, I want to be love.
The smile that comes across your face when they say your name,
The look that makes your heart skip a beat,
The song that makes you rethink every second you spent together.
I don’t wanna be the poem, I wanna be the emotion behind it,
Not the first kiss, let me be the nerves,
Not the dance, let me be the excitement,
Not the Officiant, let me be the vows.

When I grow up, I don’t wanna be a doctor mommy.
I want to be the feeling when someone’s told there’s a cure,
Or when a parent finds out their child will live to be a teenager,
Or maybe I want to be 3 in the morning when a mother holds her child for the first time.

I want to be affection and adoration and passion
Oh, I want to be passion.
Let me be passion.
So that you cannot do without me, because nothing without me has meaning.
So that when you are playing the final strain or scoring the winning goal,
Or writing the last chapter or finishing the last paint stroke,
You will think of me.

Maybe I’ll be allegiance or devotion or respect.
I won’t be the soldier, I’ll be the loyalty.
Or the surprise in a child's heart when their dad comes home early,
Maybe I’ll be the feeling when a father meets his baby for the first time,
And the child already knows his name.

I want to be piety and faith and worship.
I don’t want to be the pastor, I’ll be the lesson.
Maybe I’ll be the obligation behind the first baptism or first communion.
Maybe I’ll be the words when someone so low is told someone loves them.
I’ll be the salvation of the gospel,
The redemption to the guilty,
The forgiveness to the sinners.

When I grow up,

I want to be the opposite of sorrow,
The antonym of misery,
The reverse of fear,
The contradiction of rejection,
The antithesis of disappointment,
The inverse of insecurity,
I want to be the alleviation of anxiety,
The ease of pain,

When I grow up,
I want to be happy.

Do you remember Mexico?
How old were we then, twelve?
That place was so loved
It smelled like dust and slow-cooked beans
We caught a toad
We painted dorms
El Sauzal, the willow, the willow
A beaten-up concrete playground
Bright, yellow sun
Red, sticky Fanta
Worn-in smiles adjusting to the smell of strangers
I fell in love with a Mexican boy
We didn't even play soccer together
Watched a movie in a language neither of us spoke
Climbed trees with leaves that needed a rake
Cleaned a nursery room
Told scary stories around a red campfire
Letting the world seep into our veins
Saw the dolphins when we camped at the beach
Named and re-named the tick-ridden dogs
The water was wetter
The air was headier
The sun shined more unrelentingly, more heavenly
The blisters harder-won
The rain more of a blessing
The life so much more tangible and delicious

Eres mi rosa prohibida
Siempre te amare
Tus espinas me gritan
El dolor que sentiré

Y aunque mis manos sangran
Como el rojo de tu piel
Eres mi rosa hermosa
Y siempre te amare

No se de que manera decirte lo que siento
Tal vez no tenga la fuerza, tal vez no pueda
Por eso ahora en silencio te escribo
Quiero que sepas lo que mi alma piensa
Aunque tengo miedo, te escribo
En silencio te lo digo

Y en silencio dejo que mis
Sentimientos te griten al oido,
Que mi silencio te suzurre un canto escondido
Aunque no te hable sientas que me muero
Por estar a tu lado
Ser tu fiel confidente cuando necesites
Que te escuchen de repente.

Quiero que me escuches
Que escuches el temblor que vive adentro
El temor de mi cordero

Quiero que me escuches
Que escuches mis pensamientos latientes
Los bailarines de mi mente

Yo te puedo amar, amar
Yo te puedo amar, amar sin hablar

Mis sentimientos más profundos
En silencio se revelaran.

Imprinted image of you, in all of your astonishing glory lays upon my heart

Life would ne'er hold such great meaning if you hadn't been a part of its journey
O'er the course of just over a year we've created an unbreakable bond
Very much so, you're the greatest addition to my life. I couldn't and wouldn't trade you for all the riches hidden within this earth
Emmanating such amazing warmth from your soul, I wish to forever bask in it like my own personal sun

You are the center of my universe, perhaps you truly are my sun beyond metaphor
Obscurity be gone! The clarity of the day leads my heart to yours, my hands to yours, and my smile to your eyes
Unconditionally my love for you, my goddess, remains swirling within my heart bringing about a myriad of emotions, all of which lead me to stand before you and say this much...

I love you

Oh sweet mythical beauty
How I long to embrace you
Feel the surge of powerfully passionate emotion
As not only our two persons meet
But our two souls as well

Perhaps the days are growing fewer
Between now and reunition
But they drag on and on
With such monotony

Days fade to grey with pure amnesia
As my last clear memory is our last
The day you too faded
From my eye to my mind

But, you approach my eye once more
Eager yet timid
As I reach out and you take a step back
And I urge to you come forth
It's safe here with me
I promise you that
And I love you

Never ceasing to shed light upon my dreary days, you're the sun to my sky, the flower to my garden
Endlessly loving and caring, feeling and seeing, you have the heart of an angel and the face of a goddess; divine duality
Vast degrees of beauty emanate from you, meet my eyes, and melt my heart
Early hours of my mornings are filled solely with thoughts of you such as this moment while I compose
Rarity, uniquity, you're one of a kind my rose. You hold a place in my heart that no other can hold simply because nobody else is vaguely comparable to you

A** lthough the earth is treacherous and destructive to your pristine beauty, I have great faith that you will remain purely innocent
Loneliness should never be felt by you for if you look to your side I will be there whether in spirit or in body
Olfactory senses tingle with delight as you draw near; your scent is one I have yet to forget
Never fear the night for I will stand guard with a lantern in hand: no demon shall trespass your glorious soul; even if the cost may be my life, I shall fight for you to my last breath and beyond
Every day I'm here with you, oh it is so so true look around, you're *never alone

Ayer  era así oscuro
Viví sin la sonrisa
-El sol- de mi diosa
No pude ver el futuro
Respirar estuve demasiado duro
Necesite mi mujer hermosa
¡Por Dios! Ella es preciosa
Soñé sobre sus belleza infecciosa

En eso sueño, floto en los nubes
Los ángeles cantan y bailan con amor
En Al alto de mi corazón, Te engarbes
Nuestro es más hermosa que un ciclamor

Being lonely
He beats the gong again
The guard of kabiya.

        * kabiya: cabin in which kabi (fire to frighten noxious animals like stags and wild boars) is made in autumn.