I know this wasn't a wise choice.
But I had to do something,
And release the truth from my voice.
No matter what trouble it would bring.
Night after night, I dreamed.
Trouble, confusion, lust.
Each one was harder than it seemed.
But I had to do what I must.
A spark was ignited first,
And I know not how or why.
Ridiculous, I thought with a curse.
Yet, the truth came slick as a lie.
I did not want to face this.
My ties were already bound.
But even I saw what was amiss.
That was when he shook the ground.
Hiding myself away, as did before,
I couldn't just let go.
Consequently my emotions craved more.
A plan in mind that I didn't know.
When I told you, I thought myself foolish.
He doesn't see the same as you.
But our plans, it was a game I had wished.
However, you thought the same too.
I do not know your mind.
But I know that now it cannot be made.
Your words I believe true, even if hard to find.
**I still expect that promise you told me, to be paid.