laying here
can't sleep
clock ticks on
doesnt miss a beat
thinkin of you
someone mentioned your name
wish i could see inside brain
99 bananas didn't help
guess i'll lay here a while

i pray for the day i tell you
that i never meant a second
all your replacement mannequins
no matter how carefully crafted
or beautifully molded
will never hold a flame

someday they'll be clarity
when i'm soaring heights you'll never reach
in places you'll never see
your heart will be hammering
a loss you'll never comprehend

every lazy day that passes you
like clouds that never rain
the soul in you that breathes for it
your voice only a clap of thunder
lightning energy decays

don't get so mad
fists of regret
bruises will fade
new summer sky!
still I'm winter blue

So funny, hypocritical
All this time with blame
Myself I'm being cynical
How many times I learn
The hard way
Always trust yourself
Your gut, your instinct
Never let that sway
What you'd do to be me...
I'm not that unhumble
Jealousy's a hideous thing
I won't fight for things
That freely come to me
Even a rare commodity
Trusted you before myself
I'm so blind
Way too kind

Like a shot
With no chaser
I take you in
You warm me up
I could drink you
From a cup
Sick tomorrow?
Probably so
You make me burn
I'll take you slow
Glow inside
Can I have a little more?

Don't they make a pill for this?
Can I keep avoiding with sleep?
A lazy person's distraction
Let's pretend it didn't happen
Ignorance is so comforting
Locked in the back of my closet
To deal with another day

You think I didn't notice
Or maybe I made it up
I know what you said
I'd never forget
You're too special
Giving comfort ironically
Secretly, discreetly
Don't worry,
I won't tell

Rain pouring, pouring
Harsh words
I'm locked out.
Dizzy, cold
Sad, alone
You held me all night
Didn't let go
Rain, I don't mind
Incense clothes
You held me all night
The Devil's calling on my phone (he won't stop)
I gotta go...

I thought I saw wolves in her eyes
The older I get
They look like gray skies
Now I broke out the worry beads
Hide beneath my pillow
Cause this whole thing is beyond me

i need a break
but you never called
i need a dream catcher
for my nightmares of you
trees lit like fire
i'll hold on
let it slide

If I had tripped
I would've fallen for you
To say I hurt you
Is a hypocritical crime
Squeeze me until I can't breathe
And kiss my eyes when you tell me
"You're misunderstood baby
So misunderstood"
I swore you were there
I heard your voice in my ear
"You're so beautiful when you sleep"
I wonder if it's possible
To haunt someone's dreams

thoughts of you
racing
hands get wet
face gets red
how can I ever
face you again
you know everything
eyes looking through me
I have no defenses this time

choked on pizza
lost my voice
you couldn't hear me anyway
I wanna lay here in a catatonic state
let me handle it my way
when is it appropriate
the right time to mention it
just wanna keep my mouth sewed up
it's your fault
you broke me
tiny shards of myself
now its your fault
now I take the easy way out
I would if I could
go back in time
roller coaster
without the climb
such a waste of time
you hunted me
hunted me down

Now I know what you mean
Let's go back and not tell
Cause my plans never stay on track
Are these the rantings of someone crazy?
I want to tell you everything
Pride is your only friend left
You'll have to live with your regret

I pick flowers when we walk
Up the street useless talk
When did it get so ******* dark?

am I awake
is this a dream
reality seems to me
awaking bright and shattering
things never what they seem

You are my wolf
I'm scared, it's dark
Hot night, humid air
Thick with distrust
Pitch black suffocating
Not even a star to guide me
Icy air down my neck
Your eyes glow bring
My heart beats faster
The forest rustles
Whispering warnings
"This feels like doom"
Trust forever waivering
Stomach butterflies
Really just moths...
I can't have you
My turn to run away

just like a movie
the world stopped spinning
a drug tried for the first time
you fill the room enough
to get a contact high
I see you sitting hood up
in a dark room, red tint
like photos developing
glasses clink
butterflies fly inside out
in the room they hang
I forget myself
gotta have you
in all the memories
the air is so thick
always so thick
I can't breathe
without you
just like that you got me
just like a movie
you make the world stand still

just like you
i can fake it
but i’ll send a message
across the sky
like meteor showers
floating by
i meant it then
i always will
i’ll bury you
beneath sandcastles
a secret like the
sand at night
a shooting star
you light up my mind