laying here
can't sleep
clock ticks on
doesnt miss a beat
thinkin of you
someone mentioned your name
wish i could see inside brain
99 bananas didn't help
guess i'll lay here a while

i pray for the day i tell you
that i never meant a second
all your replacement mannequins
no matter how carefully crafted
or beautifully molded
will never hold a flame

someday they'll be clarity
when i'm soaring heights you'll never reach
in places you'll never see
your heart will be hammering
a loss you'll never comprehend

every lazy day that passes you
like clouds that never rain
the soul in you that breathes for it
your voice only a clap of thunder
lightning energy decays

don't get so mad
fists of regret
bruises will fade
new summer sky!
still I'm winter blue

So funny, hypocritical
All this time with blame
Myself I'm being cynical
How many times I learn
The hard way
Always trust yourself
Your gut, your instinct
Never let that sway
What you'd do to be me...
I'm not that unhumble
Jealousy's a hideous thing
I won't fight for things
That freely come to me
Even a rare commodity
Trusted you before myself
I'm so blind
Way too kind

Like a shot
With no chaser
I take you in
You warm me up
I could drink you
From a cup
Sick tomorrow?
Probably so
You make me burn
I'll take you slow
Glow inside
Can I have a little more?

Don't they make a pill for this?
Can I keep avoiding with sleep?
A lazy person's distraction
Let's pretend it didn't happen
Ignorance is so comforting
Locked in the back of my closet
To deal with another day

You think I didn't notice
Or maybe I made it up
I know what you said
I'd never forget
You're too special
Giving comfort ironically
Secretly, discreetly
Don't worry,
I won't tell