When at that point in my life
I came disconnected to the dream of it, my life
It feels as if I became a leaf falling off of a tree
Picked up by the wind before being grounded
Carried to a myriad of places with no control
Stopping but briefly
When in contact with a point to cling to
I know not where I go next
Never seemingly with who it will be
As time makes it seem that it will last
The fates blow hard
I am loosed
To drift alone until I am next caught.

Dan Gray  
December 23, 2020  11:30 PM

When one travels through out time
Whether in reading or research
You are learning from peoples past actions
Adding it to our present knowledge
While forming it for others future reaction.
The past is not dead;
It is the seed to what comes next

                                               Dan Gray
                                                January 4, 2021

I sit here many a night
For no reason tears escape from my eyes.
I don’t know for sure why they are there.
I seek within my soul
I seek within my heart
I seek within my being.
Answers don’t seem to arrive.
No matter how deep I seek.
No matter how I feel.
I can not find an answer.
I have been alone for most of my life
And maybe this is the center of the problem.
My past,
No matter how much I try to deflect
Bounces around my mind
Twinging my heart
Pinching my soul
I guess the source is,
I have been alone
For most of my life.

       Daniel Gray
    February 3, 2025

I admit that I do miss being held;
As much as I miss doing the holding.
I do enjoy listening to another’s thoughts
As well as discussing what is happening.
The touching of minds gives almost as much
As the physical touching of each other.
The planning of a traveling times objective
Brings a smile for the trips speculation.
If one can not keep ones mind busy,
Loneliness  can make ones mind; stale.
I have spent close to sixty percent of my time,
Alone. Walking, shopping, planning, surviving.
Empathy is, at times, a terrible thing to  possess,
For feeling other peoples problems can deflect,
But not resolve the quirkiness of just being,
With one’s self all the time.
I will continue to keep my mind and eyes open,
As I may find a mind and body out in the world,
That enjoys talking, holding and jointly planning.
Perhaps, if this happens, Empathy will not be a hindrance
But lead one person to help another, with each other.

                                                         ­        Dan Gray
                                                            ­                           April 19, 2025

I have been thinking back over my years
Trying to figure out for who I am looking.
I am not looking for someone to walk in front of me,
I am not searching for someone to follow me,
I am seeking someone to walk beside me.
To be able to tell tales both tall ones and short ones.
The ability to discuss what has happened in ones life,
And the two of us able to adjust to what was discussed.
To be able to laugh and raise ones hearts feeling.
Having the ability to cry enough to empty ones pain.
Doing things together whether big or small.
Having a hobby or two that both can share.
To have the knowledge on how to look deep into the others eyes
While being drawn deep into the others soul.
To walk hand in hand,
Where ever we are walking together.
Being able to sit quietly,
Listening to music,
Watching the television,
Reading books.
While never worrying what the other was thinking.
To be one but also be an individual.
The want to please the other,
Before themselves were pleased.
I have been looking for someone just to be with
And I have been doing this since I was 15.
Thinking more than once that I had succeeded.
But so many, many years later
I am still looking.

                                                    Dan­iel Gray
                                                            ­      February 4, 2025