you called her baby,
once honey
sometimes it’s coldness,
she was always clueless

my inside is gloomy,
and it’s raining heavily,
still, i think of you clearly,
clearer than the sun
when it’s shining at me

my friends and i saw a girl,
confused, we continued watching
as love don’t change was playing,
she was probably your loml,
it was public,
i became your side chick

you made me a clown
yet i’m giggling now,
my angels witnessed
how my body was shaking
while my attempt was sending
—it was extremely thrilling
and in a millisecond,
you got me screaming,
singing “but daddy i love him”,
i was mad for trying
still, i got nothing

he made me pray,
for once i believed,
someone could make me stay,
and turn the way i’ve lived
but here i am, writing in dismay
and for the seventh time,
i’m finding words that rhyme
these mixed feelings i could hardly say

i lived in a dream,
it was lively, now it’s dim
i’m going back to sleep,
don’t come along
good night, so long

a beggar of your time,
an intruder in your heart
when would i ever hear
the sound of a welcoming chime?