dainty wrists

dainty wrists Dec 2013

I need a shoulder to cry on
I need someone to talk to
I need someone to hold me
I need someone to tell me it's going to be ok.

Where is that someone?
I feel like I've been searching forever
and it's really getting to the point
where I can no longer search

dainty wrists Dec 2013

Eating

I try to eat
but calories consume me
just looking at them make me feel full

disgusting, worthless
and fat
why did I look at all of those calories?

disgusting, worthless
fat pig
stop looking at calories
and don't eat a thing

I'm really sorry if people find this poem triggering but its the thoughts that are going on in my head and well poetry is my way of venting.

dainty wrists Dec 2013

Failure

I've been a failure for as long as I can remember

Never been happy
And honestly never will be

Failure at loving myself
Failure at an education
Failure at being happy
Failure at wanting to live

Been having a hard few days so haven't had chance to put any of my poetry on, more will come tonight x

dainty wrists Nov 2013

nothing

never loved by others
on my own all of the time
thinness is what i crave
how can i become skinnier and prettier
i don't want you to leave
need you here
gone

I have no idea if this is even any good, but yeah x

dainty wrists Nov 2013

dying

dying to be thin
dying to fit in
dying to be loved
dying to be pretty
in the end
I'm dying to die

dainty wrists Nov 2013

what is beauty?

what is beauty?
I have no clue.
but then again
does anyone?

beauty isn't crying yourself to sleep every night
beauty isn't slicing at your own skin
beauty isn't wishing you were dead
beauty isn't skipping meals

this isn't beauty, so
what is?

dainty wrists Nov 2013

i'm jealous

you're so beautiful and perfect
and I love everything you say
you make me smile and make me laugh
in every single way
but it's such a shame
you live so far away
and I'm jealous,
so very jealous
of all the people you meet
who get to see you everyday