No one will know how evil I really am
No one will know how evil I really am

Cause I like to wear disguises
And I like to disguise my plans
No one will know how evil I really am

And no one will know truly how I feel
And no one will know how I truly feel

Cause I can no longer differentiate
Between what is fake and what is real
I don't know how I feel

I was born in a hospital
My first two days were spent in the care of nuns
But my mother found it in her
To go ahead and take me back
And I love her

And I will always appreciate bad days like this
Because they grant me a point of reference
in regards to my happiness

And although I feel cold and empty
one day I hope I can feel warm and full
Stand with honor, and comfort, and dignity

i will drive my broke car
i'm gonna ride my biz-ike
i'm gonna walk my big feet
and i'd like to think things through

and i wanna have a big heart
i don't wanna play a small part
i know i had a rough start
but i'd like to think things through

and i think you think i lost it
and i think they think i lost it
and i think i may have lost it
well that just may be true
but i think they've lost it too

and i'm gonna love my children
i'm gonna love my children
i'm gonna love my children
in the hopes that they will too

i'd like to think things through
in the hopes that they will too
i'd like to think things through

I like to be liked by people I like
And I love to be loved by people I love
And I hate to be loved by people I hate
I love to be hated by people I hate

Hate
And ****
Hate and ****

Hate
And ****
Hate and ****

One for the hard drugs in my body
And two for the bad drinks in my tummy
Three for the evil thoughts in my head
Four for all the people that I wish were dead

Hate
And ****
Hate and ****

Hate
And ****
Hate and ****

Im gonna set your son on fire
Im gonna set your son on fire
And Im gonna choke him with a wire
Im gonna set your son on fire

Hate
And ****
Hate and ****

Hate
And ****
Hate and ****

Hate
And ****
Hate and ****

The devil told my grampa The day that he would die
And my grampa told my grandma And she thought it was a lie
Then the day came and my Grampa he lay dead Just like the devil said
A train cut off his arms and legs
And it's a story that my mother told to me
Some people say that it's too hard to believe, but
You gotta believe that my mother never lies
She's never in her life and my grampa he did die, yeah

My father he's hard-workin' man
The devil's never had a hand In anything he did
He's the hardest workin' man I've ever seen
But I guess his hardest work, It never worked on me, 'cause
He thinks I'm lazy and he
Thinks that I'm a shame because I haven't got a job any Money or a name and:
He's worried about me and what I'm gonna do
How I'm gonna live I hope the devil's worried too, yeah

My lover she's what keeps me alive
She's the only thing I like in this World that I despise
She sings and her voice is soft and sweet
She whistles in the shower and Somehow she loves me
My grandson asked me once, he said "Grampa are you crazy?" and I said "Just a touch" and
I Got out my guitar, I showed him how to play and
I Taught him how to sing the song a little out of key, yeah

And the devil sang with me, and the devil sang with me
On my shoulder like a friend that never leaves
And the devil sang with me, and the devil sang with me
On my shoulder like a friend that never leaves

In the holding tank I built for myself, it's feeding time
And I start to feel afraid 'cause I'm the last one left in line
The endless string of summer storms that led me to today
Began one afternoon with you long ago and far away

And someone leads the beast in on its chain
But I know you're thinking of me
'cause it's just about to rain
So I wont be afraid of anything ever again

In the cell that holds my body back,
the door swings wide And I feel like someone's lost child
as the guards lead me outside
And if the clouds are gathering,
it's just to point the way To an afternoon
I spent with you when it rained all day

And someone leads the beast in on its chain
But I know you're thinking of me
'cause it's just about to rain
So I wont be afraid of anything ever again

the cabbages that I will grow
one by one and row on row
will fatten in the spring sun
and breathe in the night air

you will hear them breathing
if you walk by at night
you may not hear them after all
but that's all right

I've set the table for two
I've cleaned the windows for you
I've got cinnamon from Jakarta
for making French toast
the doctor says that I've got
thirty days left at most

the cabbages that I will grow
the love songs on the radio
will deepen in the springtime
they'll be brighter than the stars

we live high, our love gorges on the alcohol we feed it
and it grows all fat and friendly, we have surplus if we need it
we hold on as hard as we can, our knuckles are white

we write letters to each other invent secrets to confess to
i learn foreign and exotic terms of endearment by which to address you
we feed fresh fruit to one another we stay up all night
and i am healthy, i am whole, but i have poor impulse control
and i want to go home, but i am home

we are strong, we are faithful, we are guardians of a rare thing
we pay close, careful attention to the news the morning air brings
we show great loyalty to the hard times we've been through
we are filled with riches and wonders, our love keeps the things it finds
and we dance like drunken sailors, lost at sea out of our minds

you find shelter somewhere in me, and i find great comfort in you
and i keep you safe from harm, you hold me in your arms
and i want to go home, but i am home

This song is for the rats
Who hurled themselves in to the ocean
When they saw that the explosives in the cargo hold
Were just about to blow

This song is for the soil
That's toxic clear down to the bedrock
Where no thing of consequence can grow
Drop your seeds there
Let them go

Let them all go
Let 'em all go

This song is for the people
Who tell their families that they're sorry
For things they can't and won't feel sorry for

And once there was a desk
And now it's in a storage locker somewhere
And this song is for the stick pins and the cottons I left in the top drawer

Let 'em all go
Let 'em all go

I wanna sing one for the cars
That are right now headed silent down the highway
And it's dark and there is nobody driving
And something has got to give

I saw you waiting by the roadside
You didn't know that I was watching
Now you know
Let it all go

Let 'em all go
Let it all go

I am so mad at you
for making me such a *******
giving me such high standards
I'm mad at you

But I'll find you
inside of someone else
even if finding you in of someone else
is hard to do

This never ending pursuit of happiness
is getting harder and harder to accomplish
the lies I tell myself
just so I can get by
are getting less and less convincing all the time

and I just can't shake the feeling
that I'll be alone forever
please tell me that's not the case

So I will go look for
things I find important
qualities that are unique
and traits I find attractive in other people

You will cough up crows that peck my eyes
And I will do nothing but go blind
But my heart
It has eyes
And my love
It has sight
Even though it may be
A little cloudy

And you will break my back for all the burdens I lay upon it
But I will never blame you for those bees inside this bonnet
And my lungs will grow cancers
And my back it will grow achy

I will buy us an acre
Of some land in the city
We could live there together
Or I'll live alone less happy
But I'll live
Unfortunately

Don't know if I believe in god
But sometimes I pray
Because the way I was raised
Keeps me afraid

A scientist that has to have his way
I subsist of a steady diet of shame

I hope I can forgive me
For having the nerve to exist
I hope someone can help me
Make some sense of this

I work a ten hour grave
From nine to seven
And I can't fall asleep
Until eleven past eleven

There's no drug that I can take
That will keep me from being awake
Past my, past my bedtime

Truckers are the blood in the veins of the body of America
States are the arms and the legs and the brains and the eyes
There's a disease spreading from ***** to *****
And you are the white blood cell that fixes the problem

You don't know your own power
You don't know what you're worth
You don't recognize your valor
And until you do, nothing you do will matter

it was raining outside so i cleaned house today
spent half of the morning throwing old things away
try not to get caught up, try to think like a machine  
focus in on the task, try not to think about what it means

can't get you
outta my head
lost without you
half dead

took my spot at the window, looked out at the road
dots and dashes of traffic like a message in code
and whole boxes of memories wrapped up at the curb
i sang songs to myself, didn't have any words

can't get you
outta my head
lost without you
half dead

stole out to the backyard late last night
pine trees frozen in the silvery moonlight
rising like giants from the cold earth
what are the years we gave eachother ever gonna be worth?

can't get you
outta my head
lost without you
half dead

This is just to say hello
And to let you know
I think of you from time to time

I know I never really knew you
But somehow I miss you
And wish that you'd stayed in my life

Making contact gets harder  
As the silence grows longer
And isn't it only me

Who'd like us to see each other
How I would hate to be a bother
The way we left it was you'd ring

I'm under no illusion  
As to what I meant to you
But you made an impression
And sometimes I still feel the bruise
Sometimes I still feel the bruise

Now and then I stumble
on What I've misplaced but never lost
An ache I first felt long ago

Though you've appeared and disappeared
Throughout these past few years
I'd be surprised if you now showed

Making contact gets harder
As the silence grows longer
And why would you think of me
When you were not the one in love
When you were not the dreamer
When you were just the dream

I'm under no illusion
As to what I meant to you
But you made an impression
And sometimes I still feel the bruise
Sometimes I still feel the bruise

I'll never be the comfort
you lost when you were nine or so
I can't fill those big of holes
Thought you knew that about me

I never want to wake up
living in your fake memory
I want to wake up in your bed
******* scared

Pushing through the *******
and working up the nerve to speak

I'll never fix your car
or find you another dead end job
So lets lay on this carpeted floor
and draw with crayons

the eye of the needle lies in the teeth of the wind
the mouth of the cave lies in the skin of the pearl
the dream is the door and the star is the key.

ALL CRIES ARE WAKING!
Whitest White of all White!
Blackest Blacks of all Blacks!
Shame and Son, Sun, and Shadow!

Stronger than gods, brighter than mortals!
Only He is Awake! Only He is Alive!

He Knows the Names and the Naming!
He Knows the Wait and the Waiting!
He Enters into every Star and Moon!
He Shines through their Shadows!

One Shape, One Spelling!
One Wraith, One Casting!
From Darkness, He is Armed!
From Light, He is Warded!

He is All Things! Drake! Liche! Theomen!
On rivers of fire he comes forth!
Through storms of dreams he rides!
With slivers of steel he pierces the Heart!

All Spells, Powers, Curses Broken!
The Chains are Shattered!
The Scales Fall Away!

I see you with MY EYE!
And all is SILENCE!
I Wake!
I Remember!
LORD!

THE DREAMER IS AWAKE!

I could go off the deep end,
I can **** all my best friends.
I can follow those stylish trends.
God knows I can make amends.
But I've got an angry heart
filled with cancer and poppy tarts.

If this is how you folks make art,
its ******* depressing.

And it's sad to know
that we are not alone and it's
sad to know there's no honest way out.

I'm afraid to leave the house,
I'm as timid as a mouse.
I'm afraid if I go on I'll out wear my welcome.
I'm not a courageous man.
I dont have any big, lasting plans.
Too cowardly to take a stand, I want to keep my nose clean.

And it's sad to know
that we are not alone in this,
and it's said to know there's no honest way out.

In this life we lead,
we can conquer every thing,
if we could just feel brave to get out of bed in the morning.

You and me
Go together like carrots and peas
We should be a happy family
Or a traveling travesty, at least

And love
Will **** us up
Love will **** us up

Breath in deep
Breath as deeply as you can breath
Breath deep til you're drunk with glee
Breath deep til you're drunk with glee

And love
Will **** us up
Love will **** us up

People are wasteful they waste all the food
People are hateful and people are rude
But god I love some people sometimes
Because people are very very special

People are impatient they don't know how to wait
People are mean yeah people are prone to hate
But god I love some people sometimes
Because people are the greatest thing to happen

People are people regardless of skin
People are people regardless of creed
People are people regardless of gender
People are people regardless of anything

People are my religion because I believe in them
People are my enemies and people are my friends
I have faith in my fellow man
And I only hope that he has faith in me

we stood near the cage of the prize-fighting ****
the sun cut through the clouds but the air pressure dropped
and I touched your hair for the very first time
I have that moment with me now
it's all mine
and you
showed me a thing or two about power in its purest form

a few minutes later you went back inside
and I stood near the clothesline where strips of beef dried
hanging in the noon-day sun
flies were buzzing nearby
and then your face in the window caught my eye
and you
showed me a thing or two about power in its purest form

things don't look much different now from where I stand
looking for you with camera in hand
someone's gone away
and someone's gotten taller
but the world stopped turning and the universe is much smaller
since you
showed me a thing or two about power in its purest form
yeah you
showed me a thing or two about power in its purest form

There's power in the name
But the name's been lost for centuries
There's poison in the water
But the water tastes like honey
And we're so thirsty we don't care where we wake up tomorrow
We don't care, the question can hardly hold our attention
And this is a song for your young men to sing when they run out of options
Yeah, when they run out of options

There's the faith you can give or withhold
And then there's the one true faith
There's the revolution you came for
And the one you're eventually going to get.
And there's a road that starts right here and leads clear up to Saskatchewan
And I brought a full tank and a '67 Mustang
And this is a song for your young women to whistle
While they're driving at high speeds down the highway

The wind up in the trees
The song on the wind
There's a message in the song
But the message is hopelessly complicated
And the words are written on water
And disappear before you can write them down
But I, I brought the Polaroid

And this the song
And everybody's gotta sing along
But it hasn't got a chorus
******* it all

the sun came out this morning i was wide awake
and i stumbled on down to the kitchen and i cut myself
a piece of my birthday cake
raspberry filling in the middle
and i thought about you a little

and there was a time when you wanted me so bad
it was eating you up inside
this time has gone away

i pour myself a tall glass of milk
it was deep and cold
and i checked my driver's license i was 23 years old

and there was a time when you wanted me so bad
it was eating you up inside
this time has gone away

you come around here when the lights are down low.
and you hang around for six or seven hours and then you get ready to go.
well, i remember when you used to kiss me without me asking you to
yeah i remember when you used to.

when i lean toward to you, you turn away.
it's a quarter past one a.m. on a warm saturday.
that's alright, that's alright, i hear you.
don't do anything you don't want to do.
but, i remember when you used to kiss me without me asking you to.
yeah i remember when you used to.

Black mollies in the aquarium
Darting back and forth as though an earthquake were certain
And I turned up the heater
And I ripped off my shirt

And I grabbed hold of my stereo
And I threw it out the window
You were in town again
You'd come around again
You were dragging me down again with you

Siamese fish flashing like sparklers
It started to rain
And the telephone rang a couple of times
I put a bullet through its cold dead brain

and I got out my photographs of you
and I put bullets though all of them too
You were in town again
You'd come around again
You were dragging me down again with you

i got your letter.
and i read what it said.
and i blushed with recognition at every word you said.
and you are my best friend.
and i have always known you.

i came to your house.
and i looked around.
and i felt the real rain falling down.
and you are my best friend.
and i have always known you.

Test a rope against the ceiling beams
I just want to live on in your dreams
Crush a vial into a *** of tea
I just want you to remember me

But I pour out the *** and
I work out the knot
Cause I know that it won’t make you stay
And I’ll be ****** if I can’t come up with some other way
Some other way, Some other way
Some other way to make you love me

Seal the doors and turn the pilot on
I just know you’ll miss me when I’m gone
Drive a fist into a window pane
There are things a letter won’t explain

But I pick out the glass and I shut off the gas
And I look to the oncoming day
And I’ll be ****** if I can’t come up with some other way
Some other way Some other way to make you love me

To make you love me...

They had a white face
They had black eyes
They had burns all over their bodies
They had love for my revulsion
And they kissed away my repulsion
They had a white face
And black eyes

The father came
From across the sea
To rescue, rescue
To rescue me

He said "If you spend all your heart
On something that has died
You are not alive
and that can't be your life"

Love what you can
Love what you can
Til it dies
Then let it lie
Let it fly
Away

Love what you can
Love what you can
Til it dies
Then let it lie
Let it fly
Away

He had a white face
He had black eyes
He had burn all over his body
And he was right

Hey, where's my pills?
They were right here on the window sill.
Should have known something was wrong
When last week you took my favorite ****.
Now it's gone.

You're messing with my drug life.
You're messing with my drug life.

Dimebags flash up the union square.
People walk in serotonin pairs.
I remember it was only play
Devil's ******* in the proteges.
Just shuffle off through the golden mist.
Take a number 'cause you're on my list
And later on, second avenue
If it comes down to the drugs or you
Baby, Its you...

there was a twinkle in my eye
as we watched the fish swim by
we saw the water going in and out
and you knew what i was thinking about

we watched the water
we looked right through it
and i let my hand rest a minute on your stomach
like there was nothing to it

three of them hiding behind a rock
and i got too nervous to talk
with your wondrous form all stretched out
right next to me as the fish swam about

we watched the water
we looked right through it
and i let my hand rest a minute on your stomach
like there was nothing to it

the room heated up the windows were closed
we heard the humming of the air hose
that ran into the tank and the fish swam in place
and i fixed my eyes on your beautiful face

we watched the water
we looked right through it
and i let my hand rest a minute on your stomach
like there was nothing to it

let the sails catch the wind.
let them grow fat and full.
set out the trawl to catch the animals that look like aliens.
the wooden floorboards let out a full and satisfying sound when you rap your fists against them?
let the sun become hollow.
let the heat from it wash down madly.
and let me have a minute of your time.

stop the flood from rushing through its usual motions.
let the rudder lie still.
let the water eat  though it.
let its color darken as the day grows older.
let the light break off the water like a bottle on the sidewalk.
let it break against the edges of all - everything.
let me have a minute of your time.

watch the current switch direction.
watch the lines there in the center twist and turn.
look back toward the shore where it was a while ago.
you know, i can't see it either. can you?
give me that much at least.
it is far beyond our reach.
the day has disappeared from view.
and let me have a minute of your time.

I'm on an island and that island is sinking.
That island likes to stay up all night drinking.
How could I escape it?
Do you think that I will make it out alive?

The other island is one that I'm well acquainted.
For three whole years I've been back and forth 'till I nearly fainted.
I loved that island dearly,
But I've hunted all the animals into extinction.

And I was born to sail away.
And I was born to live my life.
I think I should learn to swim or build a boat to love myself again,
To learn to be self-sufficient.

This is the revised final version

Who are you?
And where did you go?
And where are you from?
And what do you know?

You're in my blood And you're in the hair
You're in my heart And you're in the air

I met you, once, Over the phone
You sounded sad And you seemed alone
You left me, but I never left you
I never had the chance to

Music was the one thing
We would have had in common
You were my age when I was born
Would I have done what you did?
Would I do what you have done?
I'd like to think I'm a bigger man than that

You had some problems with alcohol
You took 12 steps And you solved them all
It took 16 years For you to call
What gave you the brave to pick up that call?

You played the trumpet and the drums
While my Mom sang at funerals
I play guitar 'till my hands are numb
You two are where music comes from for me

So thank you so much For not raising me
You spent your life on better things
You would have been an awful Dad
But thank you for those genes you had

I feel like im drowning
My head is pounding
My heart is quaking
I cant stop shaking

Im my worst enemy
Ill be the first to betray me
Why does she love me?
I can feel it when she hugs me

She makes me feel complete
But i cant stay on my feet
The way she sees me... I dont think i can compete

i will praise your eyes
for burning my house down
i am humbled by how they made the framework fall to the ground
i stood with you and watched you
as you made it burn and fall
in minutes it was almost like it had never been there at all

when the traffic on the street thins out for just a second
i will look into your eyes
i, i will not panic
i am standing on the corner
where you and i were standing
i am trying to look at the sky
there are too many colors surrounding me

i will praise your eyes
they have reduced this city to embers
i will see you coming
i will see your eyes through the cold air from a mile away

I see you sleeping and i stop to kiss your cheek
I stare down at you and long to hear you speak
Some things need to be said and some are for us to keep
No intruders its you and i alone, its freedom that we seek
you tremble when your worried but i know youre not weak
your eyes flutter and you begin to speak
What you say makes me want to weep

Is this the love i was after?

The chairs. The tables. All confused. We hear the words, and must speak them. We take them, and arrange them, but still, they will not be quiet.

Everything is wrong. This is not straight. This is too high. This is in my way. We must put them right.

You think what you do has meaning? You think you slay me, and I am dead? It is just dream and waking, over and over, one appearance after another, nothing real. What you do here means nothing. Why do we waste our breath on you?

I wanna tear apart my heart
Glue the pieces to my car
Crash it into a wall
I don't wanna feel at all
I wanna break apart my heart

Douse it in gasoline
'till the fire burns clean
Then flick a cigarette
Like that movie con-air
Doused in gasoline

And if you think you are better than me your right
There's no one to love, no one to trust
In my life

I wanna pick up the pieces
And plant them in the ground
And when a tree grows there
I want to chop that tree down

Build it into a boat
And float it into a lake
And with dynamite
I will explode the thing
That makes me make mistakes

Sometimes I get so lonesome I can't breathe
Sometimes I get so scared I can't speak
Sometimes I get so worried I can't hear my heart beat...anyway
Anyway

I wanna tear out my heart
And give it away
Too a person more deserving one day
If all I see is the worst in everything
Thats all I'm gonna get, it's all I'm gonna get

We communicate with smoke signals
A code neither of us understand
For you i pine but you dont have the time,
so you go your way and ill go mine
i hope we meet up later on down the line.

so years later we meet and now im a full grown child
and you a spoiled woman
i cant give you the life you deserve or the world you crave
so you go forward and ill go back
i hope we catch up with each other on the track

ten years later you pass me by without even a glance
with some dumb guy on your arm
he doesnt yet know all you do is harm
so you go upward and ill go down
ill see you in hell we when we die

Its A hot arizona summers day.
If i wake you there will be hell to pay.
The orange sun beats down unrelenting.
I close my eyes and dream of a long lost civilization,
I wake to a shout, and soon realize what you are about
And i think about that and i start to black out
Some things i thought i knew and some i know i do
we feed on each others fears and doubts
when i hunt down the vampires that made us this way
Ill rip out his heart with my hands.

I wont cry
i dont have the time
And besides i know
you are not worth it anyhow

I wana tear out your heart
And say look what i found
do ya want it back?
well to bad its mine now

And youll bleed
And youll plead
but ill throw it away
At the end of the day
just to show ya how it feels

I used to put my faith in you
but then i turned blue
Waiting for you
Youd already left me behind

So ill head up on my own
im not afraid to be alone
i can do it on my own

Feeling bogged down with the manotiny of my daily life
Feels like im reliving a car wreck of pain of strife
i try to slam on the brakes but the lines been slashed
cant stop or slow down i am going to crash

so i try to look inwardly and analyze the things that are troubling me
But all i see are reflections of me doing things i dont quite agree with

Today is the first day of the end of your life
It was over as soon as you looked me in the eyes
Now you're screaming and im laughing
if only you could find some way to be less afraid of me
you just might just enjoy it as much as i do

you came down from heaven to the branch outside my window.
your skin was the color of snow.
The dice were loaded against us ever seeing each other.
one of us had nowhere else to go.
in your eyes were all the colors that the rainbow forgot.
your hair was a foot long or better.
with your voice practicing notes from times own beginning.
you took apart the alphabet letter by letter.
and here where it all stops for good.
where the cool waters run.
I thought i saw someone holding your heart but it was only a skeleton.