cursed

cursed Oct 2013

When the time stops,
            I would remember every inch of you. The way your eyes meets mine, the way your cheeks rise and the way your eyes squint when you smile - how could I forget it? Especially your smile. It just lift the whole burden in me when you smile. That Tuesday night when I talked to you, and everything seems right when you comforted me.

When the time stops,
           I would still see you in my dreams. I would still remember that day I met you, or the day I meet you after months apart. That table at the corner where we always sit, I would go there once in a while when I miss you. Sometimes it is a cup of tea, or a cup of coffee if I have not taste one in a while, but it is always a cup of tea that is on the table. Because it is always coffee for you and tea for me. That book you always read to me once in a while, I found a copy of it. But it never felt the same as when you read it for me. I am like a kid waiting for their mom to read their bedtime stories, you once said. How could I forget that - especially the view of you just staring at me with love.

When the time stops,
           I would, *******, miss you. I would miss your laugh - even though my jokes are  not that funny. The way you show your teeth when laughing, I will miss those. Sometimes you chuckle when I furrow my brows. Sometimes you laughed at how easily I get bored. Now, tell me how can I forget those?

But now that time stops,
           *Would I be able to do those?

(n.a)

cursed Oct 2013

embrace

Knowing someone
Someone close to you
Could hold a part of you
Knowing a part of you
That no one knows
Then
Would we appreciate them
Would we hold onto them
Like they hold onto us
Would we embrace their heart
Like they embrace ours
But would you have the guts
To let go?

cursed Oct 2013

Fault

After the darkness passes,
Can you promise me you would not cry?
After your tiring day,
After all the things you have been through.

When the storms hits the earth tonight,
Can you promise me you would not cry?
Like the rain that follows,
Do not hide,
Please do not cry,
I could not promise,
But I would try to be there.

When I end that call,
Can you promise me you would not cry?
After all the shouting,
I know I have been bad,
I know I haven't been a good lover,
But please do not cry.

If the darkness ever swallows you up,
If the storms ever strike you bad,
If the rain ever made you cry,
If I ever shout at you,
It is all my fault, remember?
I take the blame.

Because I love you, remember?
From the day I embraced your heart,
From the day you embraced my heart back,
Until the day we lose our grip,
It is all my fault.

It is not really your fault, darling. You're the best that ever happened to me. **
(n.a)

cursed Oct 2013

Give Life

Spend your weekdays with assignment,
Homeworks,
Stress,
A bit of fun,
A time with your friends,
A time to stare at your crush,
Keep it real.

On Saturday morning,
Wake up in your bed,
No way you would get up early,
Have breakfast in bed,
Read some books,
Write something,
Go for morning walks,
Watch the sunset,
Make some time for a dinner with your parents,
Hang out with your friends.

Just give life a little meaning even if you're alone in it.

When life seems so dull.

cursed Oct 2013

Ready

I could tell you I'm not ready,
But every ounce in me,
Tells me,
To just prepare,
For those happy moments,
For those bad moments,
For the time we lost the ones we love,
For the time we lost in chasing our dreams,
And,
For the time to let go of everything.

So here it is. I made it in 2 minutes. May have errors.
(n.a)

cursed Sep 2013

My Dear

Along the roads in my heart
New flowers bloom every time I see your smile
Along the roads of my mind
Seventeen new memories stored in it.

Fine, bright man
Ignited the love in my heart
Rust that covers the walls of my heart
All gone as I see him laugh
Some smile you have there.

Sometimes I feel obsessed thinking of your funny faces
All the times we joked together
Untouched heart since my past lover
Dear, I feel so new with this foreign feeling
It would not leave me alone anymore.

Let it all in, my mind said.
Or not, my heart said.
Vital signs had shown, my dear
Emitted from your own heart and mind,

You are in love, my dear.

(n.a)

cursed Sep 2013

The Sun, The Moon and The Star

You are the sun that warms my heart,
Lighten my day.

You are the moon,
The prove of the Sun’s love to the moon.

You are the star,
I could not help but stare all night.

But you are the Sun,
Blinding me whenever I see you,
Giving me hope.

But you are the moon,
You left me for someone,
When the day comes.

But you are the star,
Another version of the Sun,
Blinking at me,
Showing me some signal,
But all you did was stand there.

(n.a)