i asked her to lie to me..

so she told me she loved me

with a blank face

..expresionless

emotionless..

straight from the heart

and it broke mine into a million pieces

left for me to pick up

and piece back together

but this distorted heart is nothing like the original

although it beats the same

the sound it makes reminds me of your name

a sound that kept me alive for this long

but now its gone..

he is there by my side

not living but fully alive

seeing what i see

feeling what i feel

manipulating my fears and making them real

i fight the temptation

but resistance is futile

i am over come by the sweet words he whispers in my ears

he is me, and i am him

i fight the one who dwells within

deep inside of everything im not

the part of me that everyone forgot

or plainly overlooked

he turned my longings into addictions

and now im hooked

i am tired of his twisted intentions

he takes over my world and forces me into another dimension

turning my longings into obsessions

but he will not have the last laugh

he is me, and i am him...

i've had enough

let the battle begin

Open the gates to my subconscious..

gaze at my deepest darkest secrets in awe

you will see horrors and wonders that will drop your jaw..

make you open your eyes to all that i am

and all that I'm not

a one hit wonder

like a head shot

with bullets loaded with truth

stand back and watch the darkness ooze..

ooze like a never ending river filled with all our childhood fantasies

and breaks off into a pitiful stream that is all of our realities

and dries up into nothing..

nothing is what is waiting for all of us at the end our journey

i promise

look into my heart and learn that i am honest

take a glimpse of all that i have loved

love..

and will love

take a look at who i am in the inside

maybe that way you can tell me who i am

because i have no idea..