You don't always have to act tough,
You don't always have to look rough
You don't always have to keep in the tears
The dam might break after keeping all your tears for all those years.

Darling, scream out in pain
It'll help you keep you sane.
Darling, you're not immune to pain
You don't need to act like you are.

Even the dauntless cry.
The pain and the tears remind you you're alive.

- F.T. 01/18/17

When you wake up in the morning,
Feel the sun's kiss as if it will be the last time you'll ever feel it.
Let the wind carress your face,
Let it ruffle your hair.

Listen to the chirping birds as they mesmerize you with their beautiful harmony.

Go for a run, run as if it is the last time you'll feel your legs;
As if it's the last time you'll feel the bumps on the pavement.

Breathe as if every breath is the last.
Look at the sun as if it's the last time you'll see its wonderful glow.
Look up at the sky as if it is the last time you'll see its pink and blue.

Don't be afraid to say "I love you" to the ones you love.
You'll never know when they need it the most.
Mean it with all your heart.

Say and do everything as if it is your last chance to do it.

These things are blessings given to us every single day, we just fail to see them.
Don't take these things for granted.
Treat everyday as if it is your last, cause you'll never know when it will be.

- F.T. 01/16/17

"I've been trying to find the courage to talk to you.

But what does a clumsy little candle say to the staggering sun?

I melt as you approach."

-ctto

We hugged
And I felt
pain
In my
Back
She stabbed
My heart
From
Behind.

- F.T. 01/15/17

I've been so scared
of being happy,

I've mistook firework sounds
For gun shots.

- F.T. 12/29/16

My dad once told me that our hearts are like machines.

He told me that the way to slow our heart rate down is to do it slowly,
That we had to do it in levels,
Push the buttons one at a time.
To pull the levers slowly,
For it to function properly again.
For it to work normally.

With those information in mind, I thought it worked with feelings, too.
That in order to stop myself from liking you, I have to do it slowly.
Baby steps.

So I tried to find reasons,
reasons that I could use to stop my feelings for you.
So I stared at you.
I stared to try and find your every flaw.

I studied your every move,
and tried to find something I don't like about them.
But as I continued to stare at you,
I didn't even realize that I was starting to learn you,
To read you like a book.
I found myself wanting to read every page.
I wanted to know more about you.

I found every move that I don't like,
I found all your flaws.
But, I also found myself loving every single one of them.
You became my favorite book.

I pushed every button in my heart to stop it from going haywire when in your presence.
I pulled every lever slowly to make my heart beat normally again.

But nothing worked.
My heart still beats a hundred and twenty four miles at the mere sight of you.

My feelings never faded.
I even began to like you more.
I thought that pushing the buttons and pulling the levers and would make my heart beat normal again.
But it didn't.

Turns out humans are far from machines.

-F.T. 12/22/16