My eyes do not gaze upon who you are
they see the person you will become

I do not hear your words that time will forget
I listen to your heart

When my fingers tingle your skin as they move down your body
I do not feal the scars that life as given you
I feal the memories that you gained in that life

The aroma that comes oozing from your body
is not that of sweat but of your soul

As our lips touch and we kiss for the first time
I will forever remember the taste of strawberries
for it takes all 5 senses to know a person
My eyes to see you for who you are and who you'll become
my ears to listen to your beautiful voice
touch to feel when you are cold
my nose to smell the perfume you brought
and my taste to really appreciate the meal you worked hard to make
it takes all 5 senses to know a person

You say you're worried
but where were you when the rain lashed against the windows
and the clouds turned black.
The darkest time of my life
where were you then.

The day that the hope drained and the darkness creaped in
when the sun set and the winter came
you say you're worried
but where were you when my heart crumbled
and the tears wouldn't stop.
The darkest time of my life
where were you then.

The day I realised I was alone in this world
when the sadness creaped in
it never left
so you say you are worried
but where are you when you're needed
where are you when I'm screaming out for your help.
The darkest time of my life
where are you then!

Sunlight shining off her vanila like skin
and birds whistling to welcome us to the early morning
As she slowly opens her sleepy eyes
I muster a smile but she knows
My smile goes and her head drops
what can you do when your wife is dieing
what can you do when the doctors tell you it's not worth trying

The room begins to fill with sounds of tears
and the sunlight which only moments ago lit up her face is now gone
the birds that sang so loud is now only a whisper
and all that remains in this shoebox room are the tears that I wipe away from my wifes face
I hold her close, it is the least a husband can do for the love of his life
for all of time, she will forever be my beautiful wife.

My mind wonders back
back to the beginning
to the moment when this began
the day I met you

Like a production played out in my mind
sound so loud I can not hear anything else
but then my mind skips ahead and the sadness returns

I can't stop playing it over in my mind
the moment they told you
"Weeks left to live"
the fear I saw in your eyes
but there was nothing we could do

A tear falls from my eye
hating that you are gone
but there is nothing I can do
except remember you
your smile
your laughter
your big blue eyes
your kindness
so My mind wonders back
back to the beginning
to the moment when this began
the day I met you

Not long to go
till Santa and snow
presents and all
loved ones give us a call
enjoy the day
eat food and have fun
enjoy your Christmas Day

Merry Christmas