And I'd lie if I said I'm not afraid
but I found myself in love so
what could I do, then?

And I'd lie if I said I do like things this way
but it's my life, **** it, and it's not gonna change

And I'd lie if I said I do not get your stance
but have you ever tried to see mine for yourself once?

I see the other side
I see the grass
and it's not greener, just not what you said it was

A virus infected our home already
in the shape of your paranoia
and my thirst to run steady
this place is hell,
but as fast as I can I'll run away

My ****** side never went fully away
Now I am at peace with myself, yet
It keeps me away from potential threats:
that world you inhabit that I never get

All my dissatisfaction distilled through you
all my bitterness taking unexpected shape
it's not real, it's a figment of my bad ways
although reality is hard to explain]

I close myself inside my shell all too well
Dying to open up but I fail
They lack something I crave
Red flag - my love is the one I can take!

And I say, I need my aliens with me
where do they live?
Maybe we were knitted by chance
and 10 years you can't just overlook
and now I don't merely exist
so our relationship shifts

I am not who I was
Now I've got a true human form
and alien weapons to knock you down
I am a weird creation, I know
Patchwork girl in the prowl

I am shutting all the windows - opening the door
I wish someone came say hello
but I feel good in my very own road
I am settling down - it is dangerous as ****
but no other way but carrying on

No poems today - no more thinking about what he said
or what he meant
I thought this was over - but ah, the little threats!
I'll dive into the waters, take a dip into what matters
Dissolve my shattered

That fear eating up my guts
stripping it from its bright stars
Making me gasp, for nothing at all
Making me doubt, making me fall
That thing that you don't care 'bout me
that fear that other side I don't want to see
That feeling in the chest - so bleak, so bleak
That high spirit that leads you to misery

Girl just remember
You catch a glimpse - mark your mistake
it has to catch you, not the other way
Magic will save you, this laid back rhythm you learnt
Do not drop your man, but never drop the pen.

Girl just remember
you two have come really far
Do not overthink it much;
because overthinkers do not know the names of stars.

You thrash and lash at us
You speak ill oh you criticize
But in the end of the day
you need us there

Hey big boss girl at Burger King
You think I barely can speak!
You haven't seen me, at all
All the fire cast inside, 1993 born
I'll blow your head off!
Dear I've seen your ilk
it's the whole world's no ****
You think I can't do anything
while you rocking your Green Day tee
paying homage to those who dream
because we all are of that sick race
because between me and you there's a link

I will chew you all and spit you out.
I will win the war, no doubt.
You will never shut me up - it will be me
the one who decides - later I will scream
I've got big dreams, and I can't breathe.
I've got big dreams - scratch underneath
Waiting is tough - living through all this:
this anxious growing longing for it
this unmet whimsical deep misunderstood need
Scratch underneath - all I want is to be free
Big dreams - they get the best of me
Big dreams - they're everything

when you arrive home, you seek our comfort
when you're torn, it's us you will look for
we are all survivors, I am no less.
we are the ones who keep your heart on place
we are the ones who save you in the end
even if the ones who got lost were only ourselves

your love, your love
always fills me
and that's why it has so much potential
to **** me

I cannot go without you
you're part of my core
but you pierce me,
just because
I love you so

I have to live with this
this double edged sword
this almighty love
that takes me to heaven
and makes me ache in turn

Writing a poem to you feels old
because once upon a time
you became my ideal world

You never understood me;
and that's the fun of it
I never fully grasped you;
and that's the magic you did

Your clean-cut world
No wonder, watched over by God!
A dream not your own
Throat about to collapse, to choke

You are my contrary
yet you are so appealing
because you don't contain crowds like me
with all of its restlessness
all of its fits, its bursting glee

Yet you have secrets;
I'm pretty sure you *******
when you think about Pitbull
or your boyfriend
and if you don't, then I don't know

Church going gal
Laughter and a bright smile
So intoxicating
So dangerous – only sometimes.

K Girl was ditzy and dumb
but that's all her charm!
No dumbness in happiness
Vitality flowing every place

K speaking too much
K in love with Ben
(I never forget those things, girl)
Your happiness is glossy and pink
Like your lipstick cheap

K forgot her friends
because she fell in love
and when they broke up
she drowned in a sea of tarot cards
and I was there, watching her twilight
her writhing to the bright

K, who knows of secrets
never spoken
she can't believe I am that broken
Bumble hustling all over!
lass, you'd be surprised
if you knew the hell I underwent
right since we met