I've lost you once,
It hurt so bad.
How cliche is it of me to say,
I love you.
I love you so ******* much it hurts me,
I get worried that maybe you are gonna get tired of me.
That you are gonna leave me again.
I cannot let that happen.
You just came back to me a few months ago.
I was and am so happy,
But maybe I was your second resort, maybe you loved someone else and they turned you down.
I don't mean to be rude,
But I want you to take a step in my shoes, I want you feel how I feel if I lost you again.
How my stomach clenches and makes me sick thinking about you with other chicks.
When I can't really cry but the shakes that rack my body, leave me trembling after a night of crying.
I cannot explain how hard it is on me if you left me again.
It's so cliche, you are so little feet away and I don't think you know how bad this feels .
You say you love me, you say it a lot, it comes from the heart , but when I say it..
When I say it, I mean it with every inch of my body,
I missed you so ******* much, over those couple months I hated myself,
I lost you, and the fault wasn't mine.
And the thought of going through that again..
Truly terrifys me.